My Totally Fucked Up Day!!!!

I was just fired from my job about an hour ago. I had to pack up all of my stuff in front of the other stylists. It was humiliating. I don't want to get into the details about why. I just know that my boss has been upset with me for the last month. I knew there were things wrong. But I wasn't written up or anything. I wish they had done it on Monday when I was there for training. It would have been a lot easier and less money for me. It actually cost money for me to go to work today.

Now I have to try and call my old employer, whom I despise, just so we don't lose any money by me being out of work. The only thing good about it would be that I would have most of my old clients again. So I would be busy enogh to be able to pay my bills, hopefully. But as of right this moment my old boss is on vacation. So I have to wait out the weekend not knowing what will happen.

And with everything that has been going on for the last couple of months, this is about to be the straw that broke the camels back. I don't have any strength left in me. And my husband really doesn't have any support to give me either. He just wants to go to bed ans sleep because he is depressed. As I am typing this I am crying and am so overwhelmed.

And of course I am pissed off at the money I have spent for my training and clothing and more equipment that I couldn't really afford. But I was trying to better our financial position for the long run. And it blew up in my face.

Now my poor son has two totally fucked up parents that just can't seem to get it together. I feel so pathetic. And since my boss was saying that I have been doing such a poor job lately and my previous employer had said things to that effect as well, I think maybe I shouldn't be a hairdresser any more. I just don't know what to believe right now.

I'm sure the Universe has something in mind, but I don't have a clue what it is. And right now I am pretty pissed about my whole situation. I can't ever to seem to get ahead. Every time I think I have done the right thing, it seems to backfire. God please give me a clue. I can't figure things out right now.