Trying to Wean

Well hello, sorry I didn't post yesterday. I was too busy looking for pics on the web to make my site pretty. Plus when I did try to post blogger was giving me some trouble. Then of course there is my little one. He is a handful. But a very sweet child.

Anyway not much going on here. I did talk a friend of mine in to making herself a blog as well. But we will see if she keeps it up. She is insanely busy, but she likes it that way. I am a little too laid back for that much chaos in my life. I do like being a stay at home mom. I just need other moms like me to have a circle of support and people to hang out with. Till then this will be my outlet.

To you other LLL moms out there. I used to go quite regularly until my son would want to go outside to play during a meeting. Not that it bothered me, I want him to play. But at the church where the meetings are held, the playground isn't completely enclosed and not made for tiny toddlers, so I had to watch him the whole time. It was great for the other moms, but it just sucked for me. Anyway, I was into the child led weaning thing too. But now D. is just so big and hard to handle even when he nurses. He just squirms and kicks and stuff. I find myself just counting the seconds till he stops or I tell him to stop. He didn't even want to just nurse a couple times a day. He would nurse all day if I let him. So I am on the path to weaning. I feel it is necessary, but I will miss our time and snuggling. It is a confusing time for both of us. He doesn't want to stop, but it is actually painful to continue most days. He actually didn't nurse at all for 2 days this week then he asked for it again last night. I feel so conflicted. It doesn't help that my husband really wants me to quit, until D. starts crying and begging for it when I am exhausted and sore. Then J. just tells me to nurse, then immediately asks if I am quitting. My husband just wants to sleep and I don't know how to go about it all to make things go more smoothly. Plus we are going to be in a wedding in Sept. in Vegas. Not exactly the best place to go with a little one and we can't really afford to take someone to watch him. D. would stay here with my mom visiting or stay with my Mother-in-law. So it makes it difficult for him to stay with someone else if he is still nursing. I wouldn't even completely wean if I knew he could handle 3 days without it and not freak out. Plus he has slept in the same bed with us since he was born, up untill 3 months ago. Now he sleeps in his toddler bed a few inches away from ours (also, to get him ready for our trip in Sept to Vegas). So I guess if anyone has any ideas or other questions, let me know. I am starting to be stumped.

Hey I am also trying to potty train by August/September to put him in a couple of days of preschool. So if anyone has any good ideas, let me know.

Blessed Be,
BlueGoddess