I thought I was over being fired.

Well I thought I was mostly over being fired. But for the last few days I keep having dreams about getting fired. Some of them are exactly how it happened. Others are what I would say if I knew it was coming, I guess. And others are just slightly different than the actual event.

But hey there is good news. I am getting unemployment at almost exactly how much I made on a weekly basis. Which is fantastic. Of course I won't be getting tips, but I won't be spending as much money to go out to eat for lunch and in gas to drive all the way there. Plus I actually get to spend some time with my husband and child as a family. Now there is a concept. Of course my husband isn't really feeling up to it these days.

Other slightly good news. My husband can work a few hours of overtime to make up for me not working. So all in all we will be doing o.k.

I try not to think about actually getting fired, instead I try to think that I get to be home with my family for some fun. But that doesn't always work. I have friends that are trying to be sweet and ask how I am doing. So this just brings it up again. Plus I keep trying not to think about doing hair, color or looking at everyones hair style. But it is deep in the part of who I am and what i love to do. And I see commercials about hair, and movies with chicks with bad hair, and when I am out in public I just want to give out my card. But I don't have a business card right now. It sucks.

I went out a few nights ago with some friends and I ended up fixing their hair at the bar. I know I have a sickness. I did get to cut my husbands hair, which I didn't want to do. He kept pressuring me. He did need a haircut. I am sure in his mind it helped me out somehow. Time is really the only thing that is going to help this situation. Plus having a ton of fun this summer.

Now that I am out of work I am going to go to St. Louis and Kentucky for 2 weeks instead of one. My family is happy, I am not. It is just going to be stressful with the kid and all. He will be good for a few days, but I don't think he will handle 2 weeks traveling so well. It isn't like we are just going to one place. We have to fly to St. Louis, then drive a day or two later for 4 hours to Kentucky. We will stay there for 4 days then it is back to St. Louis. Then we might go to Kansas City to visit my best friend. It is still kind of up in the air. I will know more in a few days. Don't get me wrong. I want to see all of these people. I only see them once a year. But it is a lot of traveling all at once. I think I could handle it just fine by myself. It just that my son is still pretty young and we don't travel much with him. But we will see. He might surprise me.

Not much else to say.
Blessed Be.