BlueGoddess

Away for way too long

2010-09-16T11:17:00.000-07:00

Hello all,

I am sure I don't really get any more views on this page since I left it behind a couple of years ago. I am sorry I did that. It was one of those things that kept me going when I needed it when I started it. And now I think I need it once more. A way for me to get my thoughts and interests out there.

I have been missing friends and camaraderie. I have always been interested in being a steward for the Earth and the Crunchy way of life. But as with most people on the planet, I give in from time to time for the easy way of life. Well lately I have been really studying about backyard homesteading, organic farming and gardening.

For a little while in 2009 I had a very small farm with 7 goats, 10 chickens, a small garden and 3 dogs. I miss it very much. In fact I grew with organic farming in my family. My grandparents had an organic farm all while my parents were growing up and of course those before them. It was the only way of my life my entire family knew until my parents married. I am longing to get back to my roots and be part of a system that had long worked before I ever got here. I want my son to grow up with that kind of mentality and reverence for nature that I was lucky enough to get in small bits from my grandparents.

I look forward to writing some more and hopefully learning a lot more from any readers I might have.

Looking For Love

2008-04-10T13:24:00.000-07:00

I know that the majority of us Pagans and Witches out there are usually looking for love and money spells. Everyone wants a quick fix to our problems. And wouldn't be nice if it was that easy. And in some ways it can be. But we need to put a little effort into it.

We have to really consider our intentions behind what we want. And then we have to do the work. You can certainly use crystals and incense and rituals to bring love into your life. But you will also need to work on your personality, your lifestyle, and your attitude before that special someone will just arrive.

Remember to list all of the qualities of the type of person that you would like in your life and then do your best to become all of those qualities. You will have to get out in the world and try new things, like hiking, biking, painting, sports, Colorado Rockies Basebal games, singles groups and of course internet dating. There are so many ways to meet a person. Everywhere you turn, there is someone new.

So look your best and put your best foot forward All of the time. That special someone could be the person next to you in the check out line at the grocery store, on the elevator at work, or at the table next to you at the restaurant.

But you can also try the scientific route. You can use one of many online dating services. They will ask you lists of questions to try to match you up with the "perfect" match. Sometimes it will work, sometimes it won't. But you will never know until you try.

So stop on by my store,Merkin's Moon and take a look at what ritual and spell kits I have to offer to help boost your odds.

And then try one of these online dating services and see if you can finally meet the Love of Your Dreams!!

My Florida Vacation

2008-01-13T12:17:00.000-08:00

Hello all,

I know it has been quite a while since I last posted anything. In my defense it has been a long holiday season and then I took a much needed vacation. I went to the Gulf Coast, also called the Emerald Coast, in Florida. I spent some time in some tiny little towns called Navarre, Shalimar, Destin, and Mary Esther. They are all about an hour south of
Pensacola. I have family and friends there.

I just needed to clear my head and finally have some time away from my little boy and husband. I haven't had a vacation since I was pregnant with my son. But as soon as I got to Florida they were having a cold front. It was good and bad. The good part was that it was still warmer than it was when I left Colorado. The bad part was that it was still
chilly to be spending time on the beach.

But it was quite lovely there. I spent some time alone on the beach. It was serene, quiet and peaceful. I got to be one with Nature. Which is always something that I love to do. When I was walking on the beach, I was looking for shells and sea glass. I wanted some little momentos of the trip. Well I looked down and I thought it was the bottom
part of a very small bottle. It was clear and it looked kind of thick. I wanted to pick it up and see if the edges had been worn away or if it was a newly broken bottle. It turned out to be gooey and slimy as I touched it. But I didn't think that jelly fish could look like this. Luckily for me there weren't any tentacles and I wasn't stung. I liked
watching the pelicans dive into the water for fish. And watching the seaguls fly in unison around and around.

One of the days we went to this place that is like a tiny version of Sea World. They had a couple of dolphins, sea lions, penguins, sharks, sea turtles, and some otters. I at least got some cool pics. And we even got to see a blue heron that was just hanging out.

Unfortunately everyone was sick when I got into town. And of course I ended up with it myself. So we didn't do a whole lot while I was there. But it was still much needed rest and relaxation.

Fall Baking

2007-10-25T11:27:00.000-07:00

Hello all. It is that time of year when it starts to cool down and I get in the mood for baking and cooking all kinds of things. So today starts my cooking fiesta.

I started with Pumkin Surprise Muffins and I am also baking some Pumkin bread for a friend. And I will give you the recipe for the muffins now.

Pumpkin Surprise Muffins. Yields 12 muffins.

Ingredients:

Cream Cheese Filling (below)

1/2 c canned pumpkin ( not pumpkin pie mx)

1/3 c packed brown sugar

1/2 c milk

1/4 c vegetable oil

2 eggs

1 1/2 c all purpose flour

2 1/2 teaspoons baking powder

1 teaspoon ground cinnamon

1/2 teaspoon salt

1/2 teaspoon ground cloves

1/2 c chopped nuts ( I prefer pecans)

1. Heat oven to 400 F. Grease bottoms only of 12 medium muffin cups or line with paper baking cups. Make Cream Cheese Filling, set aside.

2. Mix pumpkin, brown sugar, milk, oil, and eggs in large bowl with spoon. Stir in remaining ingredients except nuts just until flowr is moistened. Stir in nuts. Fill muffin cups one-third full. Place about 1 rounded teaspoon filling on batter in each muffin cup. Top with remaining batter.

3. Bake 20-22 minutes or until golden brown. Immediately remove from pan.

Cream Cheese Filling

1 package ( 3 ounces) cream cheese, softened

1 tablespoon sugar

1 tablespoon milk

Mix all ingredients until smooth. Mixture will be thick.

I hope you will try this recipe that I got from Gold Medal Fall Baking book.

Update on My Life

2007-10-19T08:30:00.000-07:00

Hello all,

I know I haven't been posting much lately. I have been crazy busy looking for a job to supplement my income. And I just got the news that I got the stay at home job. The good news is that it is a stay at home job and that will help immenseley. But I have training for the next couple of weeks, so I probably won't get to be on here much for a little while longer.

Anyway I hope all is well with all of you.

Blessed Be.

MADD Petition ( Please Sign It!)

2007-10-05T12:41:00.000-07:00

Please Read
Body: Dear Mom,

I went to a party,
And remembered what you said
.
You told me not to drink, Mom
So I had a sprite instead.

I felt proud of myself,
The way you said I would,
That I didn't drink and drive,
Though some friends said I should.

I made a healthy choice,
And your advice to me was right,
The party finally ended,
And the kids drove out of sight.

I got into my car,
Sure to get home in one piece,
I never knew what was coming, Mom
Something I expected least.

Now I'm lying on the pavement,
And I hear the policeman say,
The kid that caused this wreck was drunk,
Mom, his voice seems far away.

My own blood's all around me,
As I try hard not to cry.
I can hear the paramedic say,
This girl is going to die.

I'm sure the guy had no idea,
While he was flying high,
Because he chose to drink and drive,
Now I would have to die.

So why do people do it, Mom
Knowing that it ruins lives?
And now the pain is cutting me,
Like a hundred stabbing knives.

Tell sister not to be afraid, Mom
Tell daddy to be brave,
And when I go to heaven,
Put Daddy's Girl on my grave.

Someone should have taught him,
That it's wrong to drink and drive.
Maybe if his parents had,
I'd still be alive.

My breath is getting shorter, Mom
I'm getting really scared.
These are my final moments,
And I'm so unprepared.

I wish that you could hold me Mom,
As I lie here and die.

MADD IS HOPING TO GET 5,000 SIGNATURES ON THIS,
THEN PASS IT ON TO PRESIDENT BUSH. PLEASE SIGN.

THE *****:
1. Adam Ross Kalesperis
2. Deanne Perozzi
3. Raphal Nash
4. Courtney Easter
5. James Chandler.
6. Tracy Lamont
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11. Theresa Brehm
12. Lisa Brehm
13. Courtney Barnett
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16. Michael Hansen
17. Matt Weston
18. Laura Bunch
19. Daniel Lawson
20. Ashley Byrd
21. Brian Chadwell
22. Bonnie Morrical
23. Susan S
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34 Kate Larch
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37. Rebecca Turner
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41. Lindsay Potrafke
42. Jenny Icicle
43. Cassandra Dudgeon
44. Amy Liebisch
45. Eric Widmeyer
46. Alisa Huth
47. Pam Augustine
48. Leanne Trdinich
49. Megan LeDonne
50. Kristen Kennedy
51. Mara Bennardo
52. Lisa Wilt
53. Amanda Pieta
54. David DiCosol
55. Connie Carozza
56. Jaime Jacoby
57. Erin Edmunds
58. Erin Berecek
59. Becky Porter
60. Alana Miller
61. Carrie Vermillion
62. Susan Spearing
63. Gaye Sougstad
64. Lynn Snider
65. David Shores
66. Carol Conway
67. Natalie Fair
68. Alyssa Lloyd
69. Rebecca Wheeler
70. Lisa Riedel
71. Eric Vaughan
72. Danielle Seaman
73. Eliz abeth Ambrose
74. Katy Mancha
75. Susan Hall
76. MIRANDA CURDY!!
77. Meg Kells-Murphy
78. Samantha Kaiser
79. Travis Lincoln
80. Randy
81. Chris Virgate
82. Matthew Burbles
83. Crystal Dambowsky
84. Kyle freaken McEneany
85. Krystal Scharn
86. Laura Rothrock
87. Bethany Bocce
88. Amy Satkevich
89. Christine Rich
90. Courtney Reilly
91. Lauren Tighe
92. Jackie White
93. Liz Farrell
94. Kathryn M.
95. Heather Anne Lowery
96. Katie Jo
97. Cara Brenner
98. Emily Green
99. Emily Harris
100. Emily Chen
101. Sarah Schererm
102. Eric Eisenberg
103. SlickDan Goldstein
104. Abby Kimmelman
105. Alyssa Lee
106. David Hoffman
107. Celia Kather
108. Susan Ginn
109. Carly Smith
110. Anna Karis
111. Alison Deffenbaugh
112. Litzi Paredes
113. Teresa Eldridge
114. Stephanie Reese
115. Jamie Turner
116. Jenny Showalter
117. Meg Wooldridge
118. Kevin T$chai
119. Lo an Nguyen
120. Elizabeth Yorns
121. Katie McGowan
122. Angie Henderson
123. The Troyfish of VT
124. Natalie Corrigan of VT
125. Dyanis Conrad
126. Vasil! Popov
127. Marie Huitt
128. Jessi McMahan
129. Courtney Kelly
130. Tracy Smith
131. Jenny Fisher
132. Sally J. James-in memory of
133. Rachael Harness
134. Jan E. Conley
135. Kari M.Fellers
136. Dawn Love
137. Staci Smith
138. Douglas Blair
139. Brooke Rhea
140. Rachel Hammons
141. Brian Gallion
142. Ben Morrow
143. William Burden
144. Erica M. Smothers
145. Jason Wilchie
146. Frank Smith
147. Kevin Rider
148. Matt Masley-In memory of Alison, killed by drunk driver 01/09/1998.
149. Deepak Deean
150. Liz Dedrick
151. Jessa
152. Maureen,MO
153. Dawn O.
154. Paul M.Peew ee
155. Vanessa R. Venus
156. Ryan Cabral (stangman)
157. Rachel Miller
158. Christie Fairlie
159. Julie Snyder
160. Alex La
161. Ma riah Reyes
162. Brandon Castrejon
163. Ashley L
164. Jeffrey Yamauchi
165. Lois Kuo
166. Priscilla Kuo
167. Mei W.W
168. Gennie W. Alasagas
169. P.J. R. Alasagas
170. Charina Gonzales
171. Nieves M. Ague
172. Calley Redd
173. Alexandra Hart
174. Lisa Peterson
175. Amber Neil
176. Mandy Cox
177. MIC HELLE REQUA
178. Meghan Anne Meyer - In memory of James & Kendall died from a drunk driver 1/01/96.
179. LAUREN BUTTLAR
180. Brandie Thomas
181. Lorianna Moreno
182. Kris Jensen - In memory of Pat Byrd, killed by a drunk driver on 01/01/99.
183. Katie Essig
184. Jenny Haney - In memory of Shane Moore & Anthony Saucedo killed-July, 2000 when they were driving drunk.
185. Kim Jones
186. Sarah Bellamy
187. Jon McInturff
188. Elizabeth Price
189. Lesley Kuras
190. Kellyn Blossoma
191. Jenna Cullinane
192. Katherine Gritter
193. Ben Thompson
194. Andrea Durell - In memory of the choad car...
195. Erin Rae Lengkeek
196. Tiffany Megan Lott
197. Carrie Deathriage
198. Melissa Mao
199. Emily Leong
200. Jill Burkholder
201. Meghan Cloud
202. SLS
203. Karen Roy
204. Kasey Kniffin
205. Tom Miyashiro this is for u joe...
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207. Pamichic
208. Fionaap
209. Ann McDermott
210. Gina Cerrito
211. Johnny Horn
212. Melissa Coleman
213. Morgan Saltsgiver
214. Erin Warrner
215. Jennifer Warrner
216. Kayla JOY McKenzie
217. Alison L.
218. Denise M. Malagari
219. Amber Lynn Chesebrough
220. Holly Chesebrough
221. Daryl dulling
222. Diana LUPAC
223. Todd J. Peptone
224. Eric W. Davis
225. Kristin Lands
226. Dave Woods
227. SWhitney
228. Christina Sweeper
229. Salaam de Lore
230 Linesey Eigenbrode
231. Meredith Keller
232. Candice Roubin
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234. Kathleen
235. Alex Rowe
236. Rachel "T" Thompson
237. Abe Thompson
238. David Dare
239. Sarah Gullemet te
240. Ben Cormier
241. Devon Smith
242. Ashley
243. Amy
244. Nicole Thibodeau
245. Katie Wallace
246. Jessica Shanahan
247. Brianna Harmer
248. Mary E. Sundberg
249. Kristen Sundberg
250. Lindsay Chandler
251. Heather King
252. Nyleen Veigas
253. Catrina Basset
254. Melissa ford
255. Ashlie Johnson-In memory of my beloved John Doe-
256. Ashley Jackson
257. Mark Pepperdine
258. Colleen Pepperdine
259. Monica Waldrop
260. Rebekah Martinez
261. Heather VonKahle - my brother was killed by drunk driver
262. Kristina Yager
263. Shane Peters
264. PFC Jamison Hurley Military Police Corps.U.S. ARMY
265. PFC Daniel Brown Transportation Corps. U.S.ARMY
266. Kyla Parker
267. Angel Acevedo - in loving mem ory of Jason Stofregen
268. Linda Maberry - In Memory of My Son Jason -killed 7/16/2000 by a drunk driver
269 Stacy Stafford - In Loving Memory of Jason Stofregen
270. Peyton Potter
271. Shelton Potter
272. Diane Calhoun
273. Sgt Northrop, Linda USMC
274. Lcpl Broadstreet, Monica USMC
275. Ben Senter
276. Chad White
277. Eric Clark
278. Julie Smith
279. Dawn Hurley
280. Melissa Baxter
281. Dave Kothstein
282. Mary Whisler
283. George Whisler
284. Joshua Whisler
285. Dave Ivey
286. Sheri Ivey
287. Dave Ivey II
288. Jessica Ivey
289. Rose Ivey
290. Dorie Masterstefone
291. Michael mccarrhaer
292. maria Hamm
293. rebecca Hamm
294. Deana Monitor
295. Nancy Lope
296. Mark Lope
297. Grace Kiel
298. Becky GATT
299. Carolyn Showers
300. Robert Whatnot
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302. KURT ANGELO
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306. Kathy Bremen n
307. Frank Bremen
308. Erin Bremen
309. Jim Cask
310. Kim Cask
311. Kate Wolgemuth
312. Stefanie Heagy
313. Ginger Heagy
314. Barry Heagy
315. Graham Heagy
316. Gab Heagy
317. Heather Heagy
318. Megan Heagy
319. Lisa Heagy
320. Christin e Heagy
321. Danielle German
322. Sarah Bethel
323. Megan Vascular
324. Alexia Vascular
325. Ashley Blunt
326. Kristin Blunt
327. Scott Blunt
328. Ruth Blunt
329. Nolan Blunt
330. Roger Blunt
331. Susan Warner
332. Paige Warner
333. Dan Warner
334. Mark Kestrel
335. Janna Yak
336. Amy Burner Aka Mr.P!nK (lol mis and nicky)
337. Skye Ruff
338. Deanna LaMasster(CABBAGEPRETZLE!!!)
339. Amanda
340. Ryan
341. Tim Longenecker
342. Joan Smith
343. Andrea Watkins
344. Gail A'Brunzo
345. Lindsey A'Brunzo and Steve Haring--
346. Destiny Somme ER
347. Meredith McMurtrie
348. Lynne (Eckman) Hennry
349. Christy Knight
350. Kimyia Varzi
351. Patti Kim
352. Kathy Chu
353. Emma Otsuji
354. Cynthia K. Estrada
355. Brent A. Osorio
356. Ana J Alatorre
357. Ke ith Osorio
358. Becky Pfeifer
359. Alizabeth Pfeifer
360. Raeanne Pfeifer
361. Theresa Pfeifer
362. William D. Pf! eifer
363. Carol Pfeifer
364. William H.Pfeifer
365. Quyen Pfeifer
366. Asia Pfeifer
367. Zion Pfeifer
368. Tom Pfeifer
369. Jolene Kostenbader,cm
370. David Kostenbader,cm
371. Bela Gecsey, Costa Mesa, Ca
372. Tiffany Gecsey, Costa Mesa, Ca
373. Nicole Kahn
374. Mark Kahn
375. Tina Garrett
376. Adam Garrett/Fire Fighter/Paramedic Belton, MO
377. Victor L. Watson, Collierville, TN.
378. Christine R. Watson, Collierville, TN.
379. Cindy Smith.Memphis,Tn
380. Buddy Smith, Memphis,Tn
381. Kelley Frans Memphis,Tn.
382. Tammie Dawson, Memphis, Tn.
383. Dale Dawson, Memphis, Tn.
384. J.T. Norris, Memphis, TN
385. Wendy Brown
386. Kathy Garazin, IL
387. Heather Rae Hackett, IL
388. Edward Crane, Ft. Lauderdale, Fla.
389. Jodie Goodman, Margate, FL
390. Marc Goodman, Marga te, FL
391. Stephen Goodman, Margate, FL
392. Jennifer Goodman, Margate, FL
393. Dorothy Gerson, Lauderhill, FL
394. Pauline Dukoff, Lauderhill, FL
395. Katherine Carr, Florida
396. Sam Carr, Florida
397. Bob Jeshiva, Florida
398. John Woods, Staten Island, NY
399. Mary Molski , Staten Island NY
400. Janel Prospero, S. Hackensack, NJ
401. Diane Brando, S. Hackensack, NJ
402. Nick Brando, S Hackensack, NJ
403. Jennifer Pellicano, Hackensack,NJ
404. Frank Pellicano, Hackensack,NJ
405. Jean Galbo
406. Bud Galbo
407. Mary Jo Gauthier, Hillsboro, NH
408. Armand Gauthier
409. Monique Vigeant
410. Jack Bush, NH
411. Tammy Bush, NH
412. Tabitha Bush, NH
413. Elaine Fawce tt, MA
414. Michael Tibbetts, MA
415. Alison Conroy, MA
416. Erin Pa rker, MA
417. Nancy Loader, MA
418. Melissa Twiss, MA
419. Hope Eldredge, MA
420. Faye DeSaulnier, MA
421. Lisa Lauchart, MA
422. Karen Scopetski, MA
423. Debra Powell, MA
424. Darcie Hendrix, MA
425. Brenna Bullis, ME
426. Kathy Conte, ME
427. Annaleigh conte, ME
428. Meghan Bullis, ME
429. Jessica Prentiss, ME,i hope we get 5,000
430. Katie Mallahan ,NH
431. Jackie Routhier, ME, come on and sign it's easy!
432. Janitta Degraffe, NH
433. Michelle Martel, NH
434. Sara-Croka.
435. Jeff Green a.k.a. Mr.Green
436. Tera Shelton
437. Brenda Shelton
438. Deidre Boston, Ma
439. Anita McNeely
440. Janice Donovan, VA
441. Pat Donovan, MA
442. Francesca Marchione, MA
443. Patty MacAuley, MA
444. Karen Brennan
445. Juliane Jackson, MA
446. Camille Edwards Ostman - a very lucky survivor of a drunk driver.
Please help us to stop the senselessness of these deaths.
447. Diana P icano-Steinberg, CT
448. The Waltons of CT
449. Karen K
450. Lisa Logan, TX
451. Don Logan Jr., TX
452. Ernie Grab
453. Lisa Grab In Memory of my brother, Allan Terranova 8/9/1986
454. MariCatherine McCombs, 10yrs ER service, too many ***** to write them all.
455. Jacqueline Samson, Monroe, CT
456. Garrett Samson, Monroe, CT
457. Robert Gorham, Alexandria, VA
458. Christina Gorham, Alexandria, VA
459. William Gorham, Alexandria, VA
460. Elena Gorham, Alexandria, VA
461. George Gorham, Alexandria, VA
462. Cheryl Gorham,
463. Linda L. Russell,
464. Nadine Euler, Elkview, WV
465. Linda Schwinn, Deer Park, IL
466. Kathleen Milewski, Fox River Grove, IL
467. Debbie Milewski, Palatine, IL
468. Jan Franzone, Sheboygan, WI
469. Kim Stuecklen, Chicago, IL
470. Carrie Pittman, Chicago, IL
471. Michelle Morales, Chicago, IL
472. Vanessa Salcedo, IL
473. Sofia E. Salcedo, Chicago, IL
474. Kelly J. Torres , Chicago, IL.
475. Denise J. Torres, Chgo, IL
476. Geoffrey A. Drapcak, Elk Grove, IL
477. Angie Nunez
478. Rosemarie Jasso
479. Alyssa Jasso
480. Liz Pomianowski,OakLawn, IL.
481. Sabrina Orton
482. Cindy Butera
483. Debi Daniels Elmwood Park IL
484. Joe Pullia
485. Liz Reffke, Chicago IL
486. Olga Llano
487. Robert Claudio
488. leo Gonzalez, Chicago IL
489. Mario Acosta, Chicago IL
490. Andrea Duenas, Chicago IL
491. Liz Mendoza
492. C. Badus; Chicago, IL
493. Susan Rasmussen, Woodbury MN
494. Maryellen Bach, Schaumburg IL
495. Tracy Thompson, Round Rock, TX
496. Kristina Thompson, Round Rock, TX
497. Daniel Stone, Waco, TX
498. Donnell Stone, Leander, TX
499. Philip Powell, Leander, TX
500. Sharon Powell, Leander, TX
501. Marilyn Banik, Waco, TX
502. Eddie Banik, Waco, TX
503. BJ Gardner, Clifton, TX
504. Tracy Vandiver, CLifton, TX
505. Tina Pate, Clifton, TX
506. Amanda Pate , Clifton Tx
507. Cara Scott, Clifton/Spring, TX
508. Dustin Randall, Clifton,TX
509. Barbra Chaney, Clifton,TX
510. Martha Chaney, Clifton,TX
511. Lisa R andall, Clifton,TX
512. Ron Randall Clifton, TX.
513. Carri Arnold, Phoenix, AZ
514. Shannon Arnold, Phoenix, AZ
515. Nancy Webber, Glendale, AZ
516. Mel Webber, Glendale, AZ
517. Sharon Webber, Glendale, AZ
518. Jane Loveland, Peoria, AZ
519. Darline Wing, Peoria, AZ
520. Darla Stephenson, Iron River, MI
521. Karen Wagner Payson AZ
522. Nena Wood, CA
523. Mary Stewart, CA
524. Nanci Gruber, CA
525. Jennifer Gruber, Lodi, Ca
526. R. Ellwein, Lodi, CA
527. J. Klimko, Lodi, CA
528. Michele Chenoweth, Glendale, AZ
529. Karen Norris, Dos Palos, CA
530. Robin Pinto, Dos Palos, CA
531. Lynn Payne, Dos Palos, CA; In memory of Jessica Shaner, age 5, killed by a drunk driver.
532. Dianne Ortega, Dos Palos, CA: In memory of Valerie Gonzalez and her unborn baby both killed by a drunk driver.
533. Stacy Warren-in memory of Michael Gonzales
534. Lisa Davidson-Mother of Michael Gonzales. Killed 10/6/02 by a repeat offender with more than 3X the blood alcohol limit. Michael was 17 and my only son.
535. Pam Pryfogle-Mother of Mark Pryfogle, killed 2/28/1993 by a drunk driver
536. Cari Moore, Los Banos, Ca.; In memory of Michael Gonzales.
537. Richard Moore, Los Banos, Ca.; In memory of Michael Gonzales.
538. leo R. Gila! rdi, Los Banos, CA
539. Mary Lou Gilardi, Los Banos, CA
540. Bill Barksdale, Oakdale, CA
541. Lisa Barksdale, Oakdale, CA
542. Belinda Roizen (My daughters Grandmother recently hit, head on by drunk driver 11/6/02)
543. Frances Estrada, Lathrop, CA.
544. Cynthia Hartwig, Riverbank, CA
545. Steven Hartwig, Riverbank, CA
546. Erica Van Vliet, Oakdale, CA.
547. Donna Botto, Oakdale, Ca
548. Judy Ingram, Modesto, CA
549. Lori Boyarsky, Modesto, CA.
550. George Blanco,Modesto, CA
551. Jim Kocolas, Modesto, CA
552. Fr. Jon Magoulias. Modesto,CA
553. Dave Montellato, San ta Clara, CA
554. John Wintersteen, Danville, CA
555. Nick D'Andrea, New Jersey
556. christian Valenza, New Jersey
557. Jackie Levine, Scarsdale, New York
558. Robyn Schreiber, Roslyn, New York
559. Rhonda Sadur, Roslyn, New York
560. Dan Sadur, Paterson, New Jersey
561. Len Soyka Rivervale New Jersey
562. Rita Soyka Rivervale, New Jersey
563. Susan Zagorin Skokie, IL
564. Irving Zagorin Skokie, IL
565. Beverly siegel skokie,il.
566. Kaye Switzer, Los Angeles, CA
567. Sandi Joy Robinson-Spreckman
568. Teri Spreckman, Deerfield, IL
569. Lynn Muslin, Highland Park, Il.
570. Sheri Gellar, Highland Park, Il
571. Ronda Harvey, Calabasas, Ca
572. Nadya Schubert, Boca Raton, FL
573. Raye Liptzin, Boca Raton, Fl.
574. Roz Schwartz
575. Fani Bick
576. Barbara Spigelman, Cherry Hill, NJ
577. Ellyn Rosenthal-Dratman, Granite Bay, CA
578. Ellen Mager, Cortlandt Manor, NY
579. Judi Kutner, Cortlandt Manor, NY
580. Amy Heimberg, Potomac, MD
581. Helaine Milberg Leibowitz, Malvern, PA
582. Tammy Rubenstein, Berwyn, PA
583. Sandy Moskowitz, Wayne, PA
584. Adrienne Sasson, Phila, PA
585. Ruth Weismer, Philadelphia, PA
586. Susan Handler, Langhorne, PA
587. Lori Blatstein, Newtown, PA
588. Debbie Ruriani, Yardley, PA
589. Nancy Lombra. Darien, CT
590. Shelley Eccleston
591. Randy Field, Fairfield CT
592. Ka! te Howell, Stratford, CT
593. Karen Rodrigues, Stratford, CT in memory of Frank Blando (a friend killed by a drunk driver on 7/1/89)
594. Jennifer Wegrzyn, Stratford, CT
595. Lisa Tuliano, Stratford, CT
596. Jennifer Lipinsky, Shelton, CT
597. Douglas Lipinsky, Shelton, CT
598. Kim Carta-Becker, Milford CT.
599. Amber Bishop, Milford CT
600. Mark Bishop, Milford CT
601. Stacey Criscuolo, West Haven CT - Frank Blando was my friend too!
602. Pat D'Agostino, West HAven CT
603. Jaime Sirois, Shelton, CT
604. Rich Och, Jr. , Shelton, CT
605. Shawna L. McNamara, Waterbury, CT
606. SAL CASA, WEST HAVEN CT.
607. Tina Golden Wallingford, CT
608. Ryan Stone Wallingford, CT
609. Kathleen Golden, Hamden, CT
610. Pamela Galasso, Cheshire, CT
611. Jacqui Schulefand, Cheshire, CT
612. Ellen Davis, North Haven, CT
613. Jessica Malkin, Hamden, CT
614. Joanna Cronin, NY, NY
615. S. Dichter, New York City
616. Steph! anie Hirschberg, NY, NY
617. Sari Canell, NY, NY
618. M. Forster , NY, NY
619. Sari Nathan Great Neck, NY
620. Carol Bourne, Great Neck, NY
621. Bryna Ram, Miami, FL in memory of Kevin Showalter (high school friend) and
Helen Witty who was tragically killed by another teenager driving under the influence of drugs and alcohol.
622. Adele Mann, Miami, FL
623. Ira Shapiro, Miami, FL
624. Elizabeth Smith, Melbourne, FL
625. Damarys Morales, Miami, FL
626. Vanessa Saffold, Hallandale Beach, FL
627. Alexia Salomon, Chicago, IL
628. Art Agnew, Bloomington, IL
629. Debra Zabloudil, Chicago, IL
630. Patti Papageorge, Lisle, IL
631. Julie Breedlove, Valdosta, GA
632. Cyndi Davis Snellville, GA
633. Susann McClain Levittown, PA
634. Tina Malloy Levittown, PA
635. Danielle Alston Morrisville, PA
636. Jamie Dean
637. Traci Groomes
638. Andrew Labant Royersford, PA
639. Debra Labant, Royersford, PA
640. Patricia Smith, Warminster, PA
641. Michelle McCormick, Perkasie, PA
642. Wayne McCormick,Silverdale,Pa.
643. Carol Bigam, Richboro PA
644. Lisa Dutter, Hatboro, PA
645. Jennifer Townsend, Newtown, PA
646. Stacey Cohen
647. Abbie Franks
648. Debbie Neikrie
649. Ricki Gardner, Rye Brook, NY
650. Jonathsn Fisher, Rye Brook, NY
651. John Bryan, Clearwater Fl
652. Barbara Sage, Homer, NY
653. Judy Schultz, Cortland, NY
654. Amy Schultz, Rochester, NY
655. Nancy Albro, Dryden, NY
656 . Terry Hollenbeck, Cortland, NY
657. Dawn Bulmer, Moravia, NY
658. Eric Jackson, Buena Park, Ca
659. Tanisha McNeal
660. Sana Williams, Philadelphia, PA
661. Kathy Squilla, Phila., PA
662. Mary Jean Youngblood, Philadelphia, PA
663. Anna Marie Daly, Mantua, NJ
664. Densie Harper, Turnersville, NJ
665. Jessica Fisher, Turnersville, NJ
666. Elizabeth Carbone
667. Kathlene Palmer
668. Christine Lepre
669. Patrick Wright Sr
670. Tamala Dean-Norristown PA
671. Brian Herder Glenside,PA
672. Amanda Refsnider Warminster, P A
673. Olga Gutman Holland, PA
674. fELIX dAVIS jR. GTOWN USA
675. Charlotte Walker
676. Becky Pearson
677. RIA FIORE
678. Jackie Axelrod
679. Hal Axelrod
680. Marcy Axerlod
681. Doris Kaplan
682. Albert Kaplan
683. Peter Soumas
684. Michelle Soumas
685. Stacy Goldfarb
686. Rachel Mazlin
687. alix
688. Alex Golub
689. Alex Lewis - CT
690. Molly Hubbard
691. Patricia Hubbard
692. Judith Friedman
693. Yvonne Weissenstein
694. Roberta Levine
695. Kerri Carpenter-NY
696. Nicole Calise
697. Elaine Weiss Long Island NY
698. Lisa Greene - Long Island, NY
699. Brian C. Greene
700. L. Grossgold - Long Island, N.Y.
701. Barbara Wexler
702. Janet Walter
703. Andrea Conwell
704. Arlene Goldstein
705. Steve Tessler
706. Eric Young
707. David Abeshouse
708. Janine Regosin
709. Susan L. Ferraro, Massapequa, NY
710. Dawn Seims, Long Island, NY
711. Ellie Steinhart, Jamaica, NY
712. Sonia &Harry Strom, Oceanside, NY
713. Marilyn Felicies ,Fords ,New Jersey
714. Michael Autrey, Perth Amboy, New Jersey
715. Gloria Baker, Hartford, Connecticut
716. Scott &JoAnn Glanz, Hartford, Connecticut
717. Brian &Tammy Minnich, South Windsor, CT
718. Suzanne &David Patelli, South Windsor, CT
719. Karen &Craig Stearns, South Windsor, CT
720. Christine &Mark Hanchuk, South Windsor, CT
721. Louise Shaheen
722. Louise m.Bailey west htfd ct.
723. Kay Lavitt West Hartford, CT
724. Howard Gelin, West Hartford, CT
725. Ellen Gelin, West Hartford, CT
726. Amy McCollough, Bradenton, FL
727. James Mccollough, Bradenton, FL
728. Frances Bloom
729. Wiliam Bloom
730. Roz Himelson
731. Don Himelson
732. Rosalie Switzen
733. Perry Switzen
734. Treza Miller
735. Ira Miller
736. Shelley Herzog
737. Terri Novak - West Hills, CA
738. Debbi Landsberger- Los Angeles, CA
739. John Landsberger- Los Angeles, CA
740. Tiffany Campbell- Los Angeles, CA
741. Diane Aronson- Sherman Oaks, CA
742. Bryan Campbell- Los Angeles, CA
743. Saryl Hirsch-Samuelson Los Angeles, CA
744. Jeannie Chien Los Angeles, CA
745. Jill McMillan, Los Angeles,
746. Sean McMillan, Los Angeles, CA
747. Judy Everts ,Torrance, CA
748. Connor Everts, Torrance, CA
749. Darcy E. Clayton, Ca.
750. Jennifer E. Clayton, CA
751. Jessica N. Eiseman, NJ
752.Jenna S Marcella, NJ
753. Jamie Marcella, NJ
754. Danielle Pacicco, Leonia, NJ
755. Jessica Hartman, PA
756. Jamie Wenger, NY
757. Meredith Wenger, PA
758. Stephanie Goldstein, PA
759. Eddee Leibowitz, PA
760. Rebecca Freeman, PA
761. Accra Cyntje, PA
762. Mickie Van Gores
763. [Jorge Rossi] , FL.
764. David Appelblatt, Coral Springs,Florida
765. GREGORY BIANCHINI
766. TOM YAGARICH,N.Y.
767. SHARON LEMMON
768. Cris Michelucci, MD
769. Cesi Pagano
770. Carol Wick, CA
771. Laura Myers, CA
772. Betty Jo Thompson, CA
773. Christina Herron, Coto de Caza, CA
774. Kristina Velarde, Covina, CA
775. Laura Metcalfe, La Verne, CA
776. Sarah Metcalfe, La Verne, CA
777. Annabelle, Florida
778. Travis Mclaurin ,Fayetteville,Nc
779. Kyle Ivey, NC
780. Brittany Meeks, NC
781. Karla Michelle Capacetti, Hope Mills, NC
782. Jean Capacetti
783. Julio Capacetti
784. Edna Capacetti
785. Carlos Capacetti
786. Julio A. Capacetti
787. Aida Capacetti
788. Joey Burke
789. Kristina Harris
790. Krystal Gibson
791. Ashley Miller
792. Matt Santiago
793. rachel ammons
794. Louis Agaliotis...In memory of a co-workers daughter and wife that was killed by a drunk driver
795. Jennifer Kirk
796. Charity clabo
797. Ashley Miller
798. Jessica Collins
799.~Michael Matthews~
800. Jessica Burns
801. Shelley Hyde
802. Heather Pierce
803. Nancy bell
804. Dawn Toomey
805. Deirdree Marron
806. Brenda Mckruit
807. Rhonda Mckruit
808. Crystal Minda
809. Ashley Hagan............In memory of my cousin who was killed by a drunk.
810. SKEETER BRIGGS
811. LeRoy Mondier, Okla
812. Rita Mondier, Okla
813. mark banks, tulsa, okla
814. Mark Allen Ormand, Tulsa, Okla
815. Jaleen DeMeritt, Tucson, AZ
816. AJ DeMeritt, Tucson, AZ
817. Rebecca Flynn, Sah uarita, AZ
818. Heather Evans, Joshua, TX (Best friend killed while under influence of drugs and alcohol.)
819. Donald Pruett burleson TX ( in memory of my cousin who was killed by a drunk driver)
820. Brittany Billings, Burleson, TX
821. D'Anna Hamilton, Burleson, TX
822. Brandy Cox, Arlington, TX
823. Amber Dorough, Arlington, TX
824. Cody Blankenship,Arlington TX.............In memory of my aunt who was killed at age17 from a drunk driver
825. Kimberly-Rose Black, Eagle Mountain UT
826. Erin Pelaez, AZ
827. Ameema Ahmed, AZ
828. Katie McCluer, AZ
829. Brittany Wideman AZ
830. Shawn Browder AZ
831. Kathryn Wardian AZ
832. Tiffany Hudock AZ
833. Jacquie Kennedy AZ
834. Sarah Graves TX
835. mercedes de la Sierra GA
836. Katie Riley
837. Brigid Tuschen-In memory of Tony... drinking and driving and not wearing a seatbelt
838. Kelsey Chase
839. KELLY GOOD FL
840. ~LARD~ FL IN LOVING MEMORY OF ALL THOSE PEOPLE WHO DIED!
841.*Kristin Chippari New York,Poughkeepsie*
842. StePhanie M. BklYn Ny
843. Marina S. NY
844. Emily D. NY
845. Doris-Anne Caban, FL
846. Eileen Stone, PR
847. Christine D. Marquez PR
848. C. Rodz., PR
849. Z. Benitez. , P.R.
850. W.Franco, P.R.
851. S.Lancara, P.R
852. Omayra Orama, PR
853. Alberto Ramos, PR
854. Michelle Diaz, PR
855. Rosa Ivette Cap?Irizarry, Puerto Rico.
856. Linda Marie Torres Cruz, Puerto Rico
857. Lilliana Hernandez, Puerto Rico
858. Doris A. Andujar, Puerto Rico
859. Emelia Whitaker, PR
860. Yanira Ramirez-Carrero, Puerto Rico
861. Grazina Pag? -Figueroa, Puerto Rico.
862. Myriam I. Cardona, PR
863. Lilliam I. Echevarria, FL
864. Dinorah Rodriguez, Puerto Rico
865. Berlisse D. Rodr?uez, Puerto Rico
866. Keyla M. V?ez Arroyo, Puerto Rico
867. Andrea M. Fuentes S?chez, Puerto Rico
868. Judith J. Ram?ez Pag?, Puerto Rico
869. Mara Antequera Cab?, Puerto Rico
870. VELEZ, BROOKLYN, NEW YORK
871. V. Summa NY, NY
872. J. Khoury Brooklyn,N.Y.
873. Michelle Esposito, Brooklyn, NY
874. Jim Espostio, Brooklyn, NY
875. AJ Chimento, Brooklyn, NY
876. Dawn Perez, Brooklyn, NY
877. Nicole Gaglia, Brooklyn, NY
888. Elizabeth Caglio, Brooklyn, NY
889. Steven Diomede, Brooklyn, NY
890. Erika Swan, Ellicott City, MD
891. Kristina Swan, Ellicott City, MD
892. Danielle Helwig, Ellicott City, MD
893. Ashley P., Elkridge,MD
894. Marge Patz
895. Cheryl Knight, Elkridge, MD
896. Pat Knight, Elkridge, Md.
897. George Knight, Elkridge, Md
898. Kelcey Knight, Ellicott City, MD
899. Becky Roach, Ellicott City, MD
900. Judith Ayers, New Park, pa
901. K. Bolling, Randallstown, MD
902 H. Bolling, Randallstown, MD
903. L. Bolling, Randallstown, MD
904. S Bennett, Madison Hts MI
905. K. Bennett Madison Hts, MI
906. K.A. Bennett Madison Hts, MI
907. M. Idoni Michigan
908 C. B. Bennett Madison Hts MI
910. E.M. Bennett Madison Hts MI
911. D Egle Sterling H eights MI
912. C. Sears, Warren MI
913. Stephanie Tapey
914. Nobe Barragan, Evans, CO
xoxo *~J~E~A~* xoxo
920. Kitty Gray Greeley CO
921. Josh Houtchens: Greeley, Co
923. Crystal Zelinger...greeley, co (i admit i do drink and drive sometimes...this just tells me to think more before i do it...and i will...im horribly sorry to anyone who has lost somebody due to this issue...may they rest in peace............i hope this does make it to pres. bush...though i dont think he will do anything..if it does....(bush- FUCK YOU!)...)
924. Heather Carr..
925. Cherise Ai
926. sianna tanaka-mangus
927. Candice Renee Farmer
928. Jordan Rosario
929. Amber-Leigh Anduha HI.
930. Chelsea Adachi, HI... I think i signed this before... I forget.
931. Amanda Robinson
932. Tasia Tumbaga
933. Aleka Lyman
934. Zachary Pang, HI
935. Charles Marks
936. Jasmine Wescott- HI
937. CAMi SiLVA- 8o8 STATE//HAWAii
938. KrIsTeN oShIro- (WaIpIo, hawaii)
939.CoRy Asato-pearl's hawaii
940. Bridgette Crespo-New Jersey
941.monica saldana-IL
942.Amanda L
943.Kalee H.-IL
944.Jarrad B.- VA
945. Tatiana J. VA
946. Judith O. VA
947. Patrick S. VA
948. Janay B. ViRGiNiA BeAcH, ViRGiNiA
949. Christina E. Va Beach, VA
950. Alyssa R. Jones Va Beach, VA
951. Anthony F. Hernandez, Virginia Beach
952. Nate J. Collins, Virginia Beach
953. Stephanie J Bobotas, Virginia Beach
954. Bre-va
955. Jonathan - Va
956. Shannon-NJ
957. Steve - Nj (r.i.p. mike p. drunk driving accident victim from my school)
958. Kelly ~ Indiana
959. Alex Newman - Austin, TX
960. Jay Miles-Austin, Texas
961.Isabel .C.-Austin, TX
962. Stormy L.~ College Station, TX
963. Madison Aaron - Austin, TX
964. samantha campbell~ marysville, wa
965.Lyndley Hillebrand~montebello CA
966. Laura DeMaio, plymouth Ma
967. Brian Belcher , Saugus Ma
968. David, Revere, MA
969. Erik, Everett, MA
970. CHERYL, everett, MA
971. Laura, Everett, Ma
972* m0NIcA* EveReTT mAss.
973- Rob, Long Island, NY
974- steve schuchman,ny
975. - Paul Maggio, NY
976. Tom Casey, Long Island,NY(r.i.p. brian,my cousin, killed by a drunk driver)
977. Anthony Ayers, LI, NY
978.brian brown,LI Ny
979.Jillian Meehan, LI NY
980.Caitlin, Long Island, NY
981. Jeanne ; Long Island ny
982. Kristina ; Long Island NY
983. Craig ; Jackson, NJ
984. Jackie; Vernon, NJ
985. John caps, west milford NJ
986. Kristina hayes- teaneck nj
987. Kaitlin Nicolini- Leonia, NJ
988. Nina Marcos- norwood, nj
989.Matt Butler,ho-ho-kus,nj
990. Grace Falconer, long island NY
991. chris dechent , long island ny
992. Noelle Zachry *Long Island, NY*
993. ashley * long island NY
994. Angelyse * LI Ny
995. Krystie : LI NY
996. Alexis . Long Island, New York*.
997. steven- long island new york
998. *Stephanie*~LI Ny
999. GISELLE - LB CALFORNIA
1000.Elizabeth- Lb california
1001. Dennis- Orange CA
1002. Charles - Orange, CA
1003. Blaise Meadows - Orange CA.
1004. Christina S- Chicago, Il
1005.Kalvin R.-Ft.myers,FL
1006.Rob B.-Ft.myers,FL
1007.Teresa B.-Ft.Myers, FL
1008.Elizabeth m.-ft.myers, fl
1009. Nychole Manning - Cape Coral, Fl
1010. Michael Schoone- Ft. Myers, FL
1011. Elise Mullins- Miami, FL- In memory of Helen Witty and Eric

1012. Andrew Quiroz - San Jose, Ca
1013. Cristi Bocci - san jose, CA
1014. Michelle Davis--San Jose, CA
1015. Matthew Smith - Saratoga, California
1016. Garik Iosilevsky- San Jose/Campbell, California
1017. Jacob Publicover- Saratoga, CA
1018. Ryan Magana- San Jose, CA
1019. X Shaian Mohammadi - Saratoga, CA
1020. Artem Ovsyannikov - Sunnyvale, CA
1021. Cheri Mutz- Sunnyvale, CA
1022. Ryan Ticer - Orangevale, CA
1033. Kyle Prescott - Sunnyvale, CA
1034. mah~shell - Sunnyvale, CA
1035. michael gambill - Sunnyvale, CA
1036.Karen Joy pablo- Sunnyvale,CA
1037. Paul Molina- Sunnyvale,CA .. for all those who have lost their lives due to another's irresponsible actions
1037. jeremy christal-sunnyvale, c.a
1038-Erica Fernandez-Santa Clara, CA
1039. Logan Almeida- Tracy, CA.
1040. Caitlyn Fonda- San Jose CA
1041. Jeff Mardock- San Jose, CA.
1042. jennifer canale-downey CA.
1043. Thomas Rodriguez- Norwalk, CA.
1044. ceasar delarosa-downey,CA
1045.Tricia Jimenez-Riverside,CA
1046.blake locko- riverside cali
1047. DEANA So CAli
1048. Robby- So. Cal.
1049. Tsmmy Van Dorn, riverside CA
1050. Tiffany Sheffler, Riverside CA
1051. Goldie Tang, Riverside, CA
1052.NaTaLiE CoRrAlEs-FoNtAnA, C.a.
1053. Corissa Ray, Rancho , CA
1054.Chelsea Dapper, Loma, Cali
1055. Megan Glavaz i <3 joseph! CA
1056.CELIA CORRAL!! CA.
1057. Christina Corral, CA
1058. Miguel Cruz, CA
1058. Luis Garcia, CA
1059. Bradley Payne
1060. Samantha Hearne
1061. MICHAEL GOMEZ
1062. Anastasia Shotola!!
1063. John M. McGuire Pomona NJ
1064. Kayla R. Sumter, SC
1065. Lauren C. Montvale, NJ
1066. Jamie, NY
1067. Tyler C, Washougal, Wa
1068. Michael S. Washougal, Wa
1069. Jennifer Chapin, IL (to my parents friend..hit by a drunk driver n killed her n her baby..she was pregnant)
1070. Mike Howell, Palatine ,IL
1071. Mandy Peterson, WI
1072. Erin Granbury Texas
1073. Kurt Reneker(to my best friend and my best friends brother, RIP man, drinkin and drivin got you no where, whyd u make that choice?)
1074. Jordann McNamara, Riverside, Ca
1075.Kassidi Flinn, Riverside, Ca.
1076. Charlene Ayala: Riverside CA
1077.Scottine Hill (Riverside,ca) In memory of my best friend,Joshua Michael Gracia, who was killed in a drunk driving accident.(12/12/04)
1078.Stephanie Walters~Ontario,Ca. In loving memory of my b/f, my everything, joshua gracia, drunk drving accident.
1079. Stuart Crayk, Ontario CA
1080. Steven Lee, Ontario CA
1081.Andrew Valles,Ontario California
1082. Emily Alford, long beach CA
1083. Tricia Becker, Las Vegas, NV
1084. Melissa Rowe, Las Vegas,NV
1085. CaitLin KeenEY, Las vEgAS, NV
1086. Nick Gulli, Las Vegas, NV
1087. marcee ruiz, lV,nV
1088. Stephanie Spinner, LV, NV
1089.Kyle Zahm, Las Vegas,NV
1090.Samantha wadkins!,Las Vegas, NV
1091.jonathan mason! sin city NV
1092.Jeremy stoeklen,las vegas NV
1093. Tara Frantz, Las Vegas NV!
1094. Brittney Buhl, Las Vegas, NV...
1095.Shannon LaMantia, Las Vegas,NV
1069.Kenny Martin, Las Vegas, NV ~* RIP KYLE TRAVIS AND JOSH
1070. Danica Christensen, Newport Beach, CA... RIP Everyone that has been lost!!
1071. Raeanne Owens, Newport Beach, Ca LIVE YOUR LIFE LIKE ITS UR LAST DAY TO LIVE.
1072. COLE BARATTO, NEWPORT BEACH, CA. R.I.P. ERIC D
1073.Krystal Wright, Newport Beach, Ca
1074.BRYAN FISKE,NEWPORT BEACH,CA
1075. SHANNON ARNOLD NEWPORT BEACH, CA "LIVE LIFE TO ITS FULLEST BECAUSE YOU NEVER KNOW WHAT IS AROUND THE NEXT CURVE"
1076. Zac Sepulveda, Newport Beach, CA
1077. Tyson McKenzie, Newport Beach, CA
1078. Marisha Thompson Costa Mesa Ca
1079. Patrick Keehan Newport Beach CA
1080. Ruben Ordaz, Costa Mesa, CA
1081. Christopher Thompson, Costa Mesa, CA
1082. Ariel Ruby, Cypress CA
1083. Susan Williams, Atlanta GA
1084. Kathrine R. Torcom IL
1085. Erika K. IL
1086. HeatherMarie, NC *sigh*
1087. Drew Davis Tulsa, Ok
1088. tiffany williams - east brady, PA
1089. Jesse Fechter - Crystal River FL.
1090. Sean McDonald - Butler Pennsylvania
1091. Julie Bingham- Monroe, New York
1092. Adem Snyder- Monroe, New York
1093. Korissa Serrano-Monroe, NY
1094. Katie Sosa-Monroe, NY
1095. Sarah Walsh Monroe, NY
1096.Danielle DeFreese-Washingtonville, NY
1097.Tara Haring - Washingtonville, NY
1098.Jen Harrington washingtonville, ny
1099. Jess Linker- Washingtonville, NY
1100.Kevin Quinn Northport, NY
1101. Debbie Golub, E. Npt., Ny
1102. Joe Woiczechowski, E. NPT., NY
1103. Rick Silecchio, E. Npt , NY
1104. Sammi Cianti, Npt, NY
1105. Dave Tirelli NY In memory of Andy
1106. Bryan Waag BAyport N.Y.
1107. Ryan Schwall>Blue Point, New YOrk
1108. Pat Tartaro Bayport NY
1109. sue walsh Bayport NY
1110. steve schuchman rockypoint ny
1111.Evan delacruz rockypoint ny
1112.Michelle Corieri kenmore ny
1113.ily phelps-nashville T.N
1114.amber lynn TN
1115.Kristen Michelle*TN
1116.Amanda Ward TN>
1117.Meredith Denning |[TN]|
1118. Dlayne Kaye *NV
1119. Mike O'Malley *PA
1120. Sarah Blackburn - PA
1121. Jared Berry__PA
1122. Jessica Cecelon- Pa.
1123. Taralyn , PA
1124. Amie * PA
1125. Kyle Clifford, Pennsylvania
1126. crystal barski, NY
1127. Lexi Driscoll, New York
1128. Maureen Stivers, NY
1128. Lissette Aguilar, las vegas
1129. Bryne, Vegas
1130. William Trevilla, Los Angeles-- In Memory of future Victims.
1131. Nicole Gonzales, Los Angeles
1132. Cesar , LA. CA
1133. Veekas Shrivastav. Tempe AZ
1134. Michael Berg, Tempe AZ
1135. Wayne Unger, Chandler AZ
1136. Danielle Bacon -- Tempe AZ
1137. Kerry Lorenz--- Tempe Arizona
1138. Jordan Litzinger -- Tempe, AZ
1139.Megan Harvey-- Chandler, AZ
1140.Robbie Hess---Chandler , AZ
1141. BEAU KOWALINSKI~RIP chris jefferies (my bomb ass cousin)
1142.Kendell Critchett-Chandler,AZ
1143.Cassie Norris. cHaNdLeR, AZ.
1144. Amelia Pi?. chandler, AZ.
1145. Miles Wimberly. whittier, CA
1146. LUIS BAUTISTA, WHITTIER. CA
1147. Shrekanova, whittier, CA
1148.BRANDON DOMPE, WHITTIER CA
1149. Joselyn Pe?, Whittier CA.
1150. Melissa Chandler. whittier ca/ rip.. to the uncle i never knew because of a drunk driver
1151. Amber Anderson, Whittier, CA rip randy coffey...
1152. Tim Lloyd,corona ,ca rip L.M.D we love you girl
1153. Kaycee Smith, Corona, CA -RIP Lauren..we miss ya
1154. Rachelle Cook, Corona, CA
1155. Jess Richau, Corona, CA *RIP Lauren! I love you always!*
1156. Justin Miller, Lake Elsinore Ca
1157. Tyler Lemen, Corona CA
1158. Ryan Briones, Corona CA
1159. Bryan Wade, Corona CA
1160. Rodney Ly, Garden Grove CA
1161. Tina Thaouyen Tran, Lake Elsinore CA
1162. Gina D. Solis-Bautista, Murrieta, CA
1163. Gilbert C Brillo-San Diego, CA
1164. Mike Mains-San Diego, CA
1165. Michelle Kraut- El Cajon, CA
1166. Nikkie Weiss- Agua Dulce, Ca.
1167. Molly Draper - Acton, CA.
1168. Michelle Rousseau-Agua Dulce, CA
1169. Stephanie Parr - Acton,CA
1170. SaLLy I.- Northridge, CA
1171.Mariah R-buena Park, CA
1172. Reina D- N. las vegas, NV
1173. kalani miller LV, in loving memory~verna elie
1174. Ashley LosAngeles,CA
1175. Luke-- Fairfax, VA
1176. Armando- Bristow, Va.
1177. Jessica ~Chester, CT
1178. Brian ~Ronkonkoma, NY
1179. Sandi G ~Farmingdale, NY Inloving memory of (FINK) aka Shiggidy Shaun Ropolo. We all love & miss you so much. 3/3/2000
1180. Jimmy & Brian Morris, MI In Memory of..
1181. Jason Jenette, MI In memory of...
1182. ALEXANDER CASSEL...in memory of my boys and they know who they are
1183. Mr. Edward Meehan a.k.a. Cancers a.k.a. the last underground artist
1184. Sean Ogburn ?Oggy? Texarkana, AR. ? To Mike D., Brad H. and myself, and other victims of other peoples' stupidity. ?
1185. Brittany T.~North olmsted ohio
1186. Tina Tamas-Westlake, Ohio
1187. Kate Sweeney ~ Lakewood, OH
1188. Amanda Parrish~Debary, Fl *RIP Tom*
1189. Charles Lewis~Winter Springs, FL
1190. Danielle Gally~ Atco, New Jersey
1191. Stacey Gallow... redwood city, cali
1192. Becky seelos Cali
1193. emily, cali
1194. SAMMY VEE! - CALI
1195 LANI LOPEZ - CALI!
1196. Devon F.-CA
1197. Lauren - ca
1198. marlene-ca
1199. phil-ca
1200. charlotte-ca
1201. chrisi-ca
1202. vince-ca
1203. Stephanie-Cali
1204. Karina-Ca
1205.Deena Wayne-survivior of an accident caused by a drunk driver feb.2001
1206.Travis- California
1207.Brent - California
1208.Nichole Jones-California
1209. Jolie Clifford-NY
1210. Zac Chardavoyne - NY
1211. Mike Durnin - NY
1212. Michelle Clerico-NY ^he is soo sexy n i love him
1213.salina> cali
1214: Julie NJ
1215: jaclyn jersey
1216: laura NJ
1217 - Pierre, Paris
1218. Mia H.*
1219. Dion
1220. Tyler- AZ
1221. Ryan Mulcahy-AZ
1222. Liz Britton-Az
1223. Tony Poston ~Arizona
1224. Nessa H. ~Scottsdale, AZ
1225. Astari Wilson~ Arizona
1226. Lindsay H.~Chandler, AZ
1227. Matt R. ~ Tempe, AZ...I want Lindsay H.....
1228. Krystal H. ~~~ Chandler, AZ
1229. Konrad A. Chandler, Az.
1230. Cristalle - Tempe, AZ
1231.CHRIS REED - MESA,AZ.
1232.Ricky Chacon - Gilbert, AZ.
1233. Tyler Coleman- Chandler, AZ
1234. Melissa A. Freyermuth- Phoenix, Az
1235. Megan Higgins ~ Phoenix, AZ
1236. Tatum Lyon... Phoenix, AZ.
1237. Ben Hinshaw.. phoenix az
1238. Chelsea Lyles - peoria, az
1239. Steve-O: Scottsdale, AZ
1240. Stephanie: Phoenix,Az
1241. Barbara~ Scottsdale, AZ
1242.Catherine:... Scottsdale, Az
1243. Devin F: Phoenix AZ -R.I.P. Jessie (hit by drunk driver. she was my cousin)
1244. xtroyx: surprise AZ
1245. Hamersky - San Diego, CA
1246. Kimmberlee- San Diego, CA
1247. Ashlie-San Diego,CA
1248. Kaila Smith - San Diego, CA
1249 . Michelle Green - San Diego, CA
1250. Lauren Mueller-San Diego, CA
1251. Lauren Young- San Diego, CA
1252. Kevin Corcoran - San Diego, CA (Hope this works guys!)
1253. Brooke Cowan-San Diego, CA
1254. Daniel R- Huntington Beach CA
1255. Blaire Pistoia- Long Beach, CA
1256. Chloe Hernandez-Huntington Beach, CA!(dont drink and drive....this could b u killing an innocent person.)
1257.Sara Sewell-Huntington beach,ca.........Drinking and driving kills.......... mayb not u but other ppl!!!
1258. leanne perkins huntington beach california To sign this petition
1259. Jessica Noesen Huntington Beach, CA for the sake of all people....please sign it
1260. kaylee walk
1261. Rachel Sweezy
1262. Camilel saenz
1263.HeAtHeR cHrIsCo-garden grove cali
1264. chelsea palmore~ garden grove cali
1265.joey barela~garden grove cali
1266.kandee lynn~ la mirada cali
1267. Paul Grissman II- buena park cali
1268.Rosalyn McCarron- Seal Beach, CA
1269. Christopher Dines - westminster, ca
1270. Jackie Martinez - westminster, CA
1271. Kevin Scholz-westminster Ca
1272. Megan J.- westminster Ca
1273. Erika Roberts-Westminster, CA
1274. arnel garcia arneezy garceezy long beach ca
1275. Nadia Rios-Gardena,CA
1276. Rachel Anderson-Marina, CA
1277. Jason Westcott - Charlotte, Nc
1278. Bella Marie
1279. JOEY C - BAY AREA, CALI
1280. Alisha - Dewey Beach, DE
1281. Todd - Seaford, DE
1282. Angel- Fayetteville, Pa
1283. Nelson Helland - Gresham, OR
1284. Brad wilson - Mesa, AZ
1285. Mitch Mccarley- Mesa AZ
1286. Adam Sumner-Mesa AZ
1287. Samantha Aronow-Tucson, Az
1288. Liz Johnson-Tucson, Az
1289.Sierra Martin-Sammamish wa
1290. Scott Hetkowski
1291.Nicole Wright
1292.N. Almeda, Staten Island, NY
1293. V.T.Martz, Staten Island, NY
1294. J.Novoa, Staten Island, NY
1295. S. Santana; Brooklyn, NY
1296. Johntodd Wallace, Chattanooga, TN
1297. Jeff Gunerson - Harford County, MD
1298.Vikkeh Smoter-Laurel, MD for rob <3 and michelle who didn't make it and for katie who is still recovering. We miss you guys
1299. Brian Heberer-Woodbridge VA
1300. Sarah Shevlin- Woodbridge VA
1301. Kristen Mueller- Woodbridge VA
1302.Emma Quinn- woodbridge VA
1303. Tom Lowe-woodbridge VA
1304. Erica Hagardorn- Manassas, VA
1305. Jenny Duquette-Manassas, VA
1306. Blake Devins-Woodbridge, VA. In memory of Wes Griggs. Miss you bro, keep drumming...
1307. Celeste Culp- Woodbridge, Va~ RIP Kev, Arion, Wes, JD, and Anna
1308, Jake Ripley, Gray, ME.
1309.Lindsey Williams, Westbrook ME.
1310. Nolan Moon, South Portland, ME - In Memory of all the people who have been killed by drunk Drivers.
1311. Sonali, LonG iSlanD, NY
1312. Jamal, long, island, Ny
1313. Chrissy, Scottsdale, AZ
1314. Andrea, Arizona
1315. Matt, Scottsdale AZ
1316. sara,plymouth MI-this ones for you todd even if i didnt know you
1317. Jeremy Angel...Canton Michigan
1318. Cory, Canton MI
1319. Erin Davison, Canton MI
1320. Maggie Burr, Canton MI
1321. Lauren Patterson, Canton MI
1322. Jennifer Khoury, Canton, MI
1323. Troy Brown..Plymouth, MI
1324. Rebecca Williams- For Todd and anyone who have gone through the pain of losing someone to a drunk driver.
1325. Brynn--plymouth, mi
1326. Amanda B. --Canton, MI
1327.Alyse Fuller-Canton,MI
1328. Nha Wright-New York
1329.Stephanie Siegel-New York
1330. Marissa D- NY
1331. Andrew Bennett-OH
1332. Phebe Buster-OH
1333. Emma Buster - OH
1334. Cleo Buster - MA
1335. J. Holden Gibbons-Shaker Heights, OH
1336. ChiCh N--- Cleve, Ohio
1337. Krystal Smith-Cleveland,Oh
1338. Farah A - CLE
1339. Tanya S-CLE
1340. Jen Chevrier.-Solon, OH
1341. Christina Chevrier- Solon, Oh
1342. Leah Elsmore- CLE
1343. YETI - THE YUKON
1344. Sonny - Irmo, South Carolina
1345. Zhyra Castillo- Gilbert, AZ
1346.Nicole Syfritt- mesa,az
1347. Kevin Duffy - Northborough Mass.
1348. Alyssa Fucci - Southboro Mass.
1349. Tom Rossi- Derry N.H.
1350. jAMie Mitcham- Dallas, Texas
1351. anth0ny f0ley-orlando florida
1352. Susan Egner-Orlando FLorida
1353. Sean Knuuttila- Orlando Florida
1354. Christine Lantz - Burke, Virginia - In memory of Chad B. [(New Orleans, Louisiana)] Drinking and Driving KiLLS..
1355. Samantha Brown- Burke, Virginia
1356. Alex Gregory- burke, Va
1357.Theresa Holland- Virginia
1358. ASiANNA VANNO - CENTREViLLE, VA
1359. Shawn Noble - San Diego, CA
1360. Tina Marie P. - Queens.NYC { in memory of Becca. Nov 19 1361 - Sep 5 2004 }
1362. Toby Cook - Federal Way, WA
1363. MAGDALENA GORSKI, TACOMA,WA
1364. KirsteN Mc MurpHY, Federal Way, WA
1365. James Rasmussen, Federal Way, WA
1366. Breanna McCallister, Seattle, WA
1367. Brennan Smith, Pullman, WA
1368. Austin Wells, Keaau HI
1369. Krista Jacobson, Vancouver, WA
1370. Jason Jones, Vancouver, WA
1371. Chelsea O, Vancouver, WA
1372. Justin W. , Vancouver, WA
1373. Heather Brooks,Grand Island, NY
1374. Kortni H. Colo Sprgs CO
1375. Alexandra C.
1376. Amanda F - Yorktown , NY
1377. Breezy Good - Yorktown , NY
1378. Jackie R - Yorktown, NY
1379. Sarina K. - Yorktown, NY
1380. Rich L. -- East Fishkill NY
1381. Joe Brown-- Mahopac, NY
1382. Cris F. -- mahopac,ny
1383. Annie Dizon - Yonkers, NY
1384. Elisa M.- Bronx, NY
1385.danielle j.-bronx,ny
1386. reina g.-ramapo
1387. Christine G. Spring Valley, Ny
1388. Jillian M. New york
1389. Paul H. New York
1390. Sofia M. New York
1391. Keith K. New York
1392. Mike C. New York
1393. Ryan O. Suffern, NY
1394. Juan Cilento, Airmont, NY
1395. Erica Lee. Nanuet, NY
1396. Chrissy O. Suffern NY
1397. Heather J. -- Mount Laurel, NJ
1398. Sarah S. Mount laurel,NJ
1399.Andrew Weight Mount laurel NJ
1400.Steve Hoffman, Riverside NJ
1401. Nicole Abriola , New Jersey
1402.Jiffy Sant'Anna,Delran,New Jersey
1403 Jasmine Miller riverside N.j
1404 Marc Horwitz, Delran NJ
1405. Kiley Marx, Delran NJ
1406. Katie Abdill, Delran NJ
1407. Holly, NJ
1408. Kate Harley, Delran NJ
1409. Critter, Ohio
1410.Hava,Franklin lakes,NJ
1411. Alex Beebe, Southampton NJ
1412. Cami, Tabernacle NJ
1413. Joe, Indian Mills, nj
1414. Becca, Indian Mills, NJ
1415. Paisley, Tabernacle, NJ
1416. leah, Indian Mills, NJ
1417. Jenna, tabernacle, NJ
1418. sarah, tabernacle, nj
1419. katie, nj
1420. beCki leE- tabernacle, nj
1421. Bob- tabernacle, nj
1422. keebler-tabernacle,nj
1423. Frank-Tabernacle, NJ
1434. callie-indian mills, nj
1435.Alexis-tabernacle,nj
1436. Jena- Ocean City, MD
1437. Josh-Moorestown, NJ
1438. Anna-Moorestown, NJ
1439. Amanda
1440. Stacy-cherry hill, nj
1441. Emily R. - Dix hills, NY
1442. Francesca T. -- Levittown <3
1443. Matt S. Dix Hills, NY
1444. Maggie S. Dix Hills, Ny
1445.Bryan T Powhatan,Va
1446.Carrie M. Richmond, Va
1447.GREG MORGAN h-town, tx
1448.Brittney A. Vice East Hampton CT
1449.Dave Tilley - Hebron CT http://www.myspace.com/gregory9008 thats me and drunk drivers suck
1450: Chris Novak - Hebron, CT
1451. Tori Chesnutt- Marlborough CT... RIP MK and CD
1452. Bryce L. Monahan-Columbia CT
1453. Lauren Joyal Plymouth Ma
1454.Alison C. Ma
1455. Derek R. - Massachusetts
1456. Maggie C - Mass
1457. Courtney N - Mass
1458. Sam B. - Mass
1459. Darcie B. -Mass
1460. Kellie G.-Mass
1461. Angela N.-Mass
1462. Hillary C- Mass
1463. Katie F.-Mass
1464. Dani B - Mass
1465. Mark S- NJ
1466. Cj - MA
1467. Nick-VS,NY
1468. Katie - LI, NY
1469. Matt - NY
1470. kim barile
1471. mike dito
1472. kathie dito
1473. matt fields
1474. matt dito
1475. phil- LI, NY
1476. Chris Roger LI, NY
1477. Fritz Martelly, Ny & FL
1478. Lauren - FL
1479. Frankie - FL (In memory of Mr. Nkafor) - you are missed my friend!
1480. Alexandria Lewis - FL
1481.Ashley Anderson-FL
1482. *-* Jadey x0o -- FL *-*
1483. Justin-FL
1484-emily~FL
1485. Shelby_FL
1486- Allison FL.
1487- Julie FL
1488- Alyssa Fl.
1489- Tessa Fl.
1490- Amanda Nicole Naranjo, Fl.
1491- Chelsea, Fl.
1492- B. Maughn, Fl.
1493- danielle ♥ Fl.
1494- Nicole FL
1495- Josh Wolski, FL
1496-Monica Reiken, FL
1497-Krystal Gillette, FL
1498- diana koch, fl
1499- Katie Durham, FL
1500-Julian Perez, FL
1501-Siobhan Terhune, FL
1502-Steve Harmer, Middletown Delaware
1503- Megan Kinley, DE
1502 - Julia Blomquist, DE
1503- Michael David Ross, DE
1504. Christi Gilsdorf Middletown, DE
1505. Tom Harvey Townsend DE
1506. Sarah Mortimer, Bear DE
1507. Andrew Mora, Newark DE
1508. Maricela Gomez, CA
1509. Yesenia Rodriguez, santa ana, CA
1510. Sarah villalobos, Santa Ana, CA
1511. Ewdy Ramos. Garden Grove,CA
1512. crystal j. granados
1513. Dennis Jiron
1514.lindsay qualls
1515.Stefanie Hibler Gresham Oregon~this story touched me lots i will never drink and drive
1516. marissela
1517.Brianna Melcher awwww i cried
1518. Stephanie Aponte- this is soo sad and i promise never to drink snd drive!
1519. Nina Williams- omg this is so sad. I PROMISE NEVER TO DRINK AND DRIVE i dont wanna be one to kill another person!! im so sorry.
1520. Conner Barry- damn that sucks
1521.Grady Boardman
1521.Dylan Sclater
1522. Nikki Thomas
1523. Liz Papanek.
1524. Sam Lindsay.
1525. Chelsea Henderson
1526. carly =[
1527. hayley hogan ='(
1528. Rusty.
1529. zack
1530. Jeanna<3
1531. Ben Durland
1532.Joe Lanier
1533.linda cervone
1534.Jessica V
1535. JeSSica
1536. Cameron S
1537. Caroline
1538. Aubrey
1539. erik woodruff, randolph, NJ
1540.Kelsey Bell
1541.Lisa miller
1542. Angel T ~ Decatur IL ~ R/I/P ~ India Owen~ Killed by a drunk driver...
1543. Greg:R: Decatur IL ~ R.I.P. Jamie Gilstrap~ killed by a drunk driver....
1544. Will Gerling: DecaturIL (for all those hurt or killed by complete ignorance rip always in the hearts of your families-uncle ted hurt by drunk driving and lucky to be alive.)
1545. Joshua Moffett
1546. Katie Wood. Illinois
1547. Courtni Bolt...Decatur, IL
1548. Melissa Appleman Decatur,IL
1549. Whitney Copeland~ Illinois
1550. Chaz B. Decatur.IL
1551. Michelle Wilson Decatur,IL
1552. Jennifer Roberts~Sentinel, Ok
1553.Mamie Gaytan~Harker Hieghts,Tx.
1554. Jennifer Davis~ Greenfield, IA
1555. Jennifer Danielson~ Creston, Iowa
1556 Lacey Dunning ~ Creston Iowa
1557. Crystal Eggers-Stewart~Kellerton, IA
1558. Shawna kerr-mo
1559.Melissa Knox-Nash
1560.Amber Moore-Independence,Mo
1561.Richard Moore-Indpendence,Mo
1562.Havannah Moore-Indpendence,Mo
1563Kaylee Costanza-Kansas City,MO
1564.Theresa Froese - Lenexa, KS (survivor of accident caused by drunk driver that left permanent damage)
1565. Shoni Andrews - Blue Springs, MO
1566. Kevin Tew - Elk City, OK
1567.Laura Wilson - Tahlequah,OK.
1568.Brenda Podtburg---Ok
1569. Randy Rubel....Boyd Tx
1570. Laurie Gagne..Tx
1571. Becky Garrett... Burleson, TX.
1572. Heather Kemp.....Lyons, GA
1573.Becky Stevens.......Tarrytown,GA
1574.Andrea McKay--------------------------Ft. Lewis, WA
1575.Robon Mckay............Ft. Lewis, WA
1576. Noelle Chase------ Eugene, OR
1577.April Perry.........Oregon
1578.Rita Miller*********Peoria,il
1579. Tabatha Miller peoria,il
1580. Deana Lawson Pekin, IL
1581. Rietta LEwis, Morton, IL
1582. TERESA SHELTON..Bloomington,IL
1583. Lindsey Marie Schurr, --- Deland FL
1584. Kristen Arnold@@@@philly,pa
1585. Danielle B. NY
1586. KJB ROCKLAND COUNTY NY
1587.~*Cassie*kay*~
1588.Kaitlyn Wynkoop-----Tx.
1589. Ashleigh Kiefer <>< Tx
1590.♥Bailey Samantha Mae Allison♥~~TX
1591. maggie mae. tx.
1520. jake miller. tx.
1521. Dallas A. Tunnell ,TX
1522. Justin adams, TX
1523.Kassie Chatelain, TX
1524.Breanna Nederland.Tx
1525.Obie Duncan Nederland Tx
1526. Kacy Gotte Nederland, Tx
1527. halee Nederland Tx
1528. Ashley R. Nederland, TX
1529. Dakota nielssen. nederland, tx
1530. zach guidry Nederland TX
1531. Taylor Clark, Beaumont, TX
1532.. Kerrie Maurich, TX
1533..... nicole sewell <3, Tx
1534.......Jacoby Carrington
1535........emily credeur.TX.
1536..desire' jones
1537.......Ashton Miller...
1538....Marisol Hernandez
1539....Rachel Broussard
1540....Zachary Palmer
1541.... ♥Natalie Lagrone♥
1542....RANDI AYERS
1543...Ryan
1544......... GaLiNa - I got hit by a drunk driver who did a sit n run. If you have the balls to open this n read it caz of wat u did to me n my friends, then call me n say sorry for wat you did!!! I know who u are....
1545.....Michael
1546.....Melissa
1547. *~* Krystine Anderson, B-Town FL *~*
1548. Sarah Harris
1549. brandi bellino
1550....Taylor Peel
1551___Tiffany___
1552.... jarod
1553.Logan
1554. loren
1555.Tina
1556. RAQUEL
1557. GREG
1558. Cheryl
1559. Ramon
1560. Amanda
1561. Mike
1562. Bonnie
1563. Bob Anastasia, NY
1564. Kim Delgado, NY
1565. Matt W. Olean ,NY
1566. Pamela M. Pa.
1567.kim h. pa
1568. Tracy Hensley
1569. Paul Hensley
1570. Lori Tucker
1571. Sue Ann Williams (My heart goes out to all who have been through hell and who are now in heaven)
1572.Melinda Ackley~~Bradford, PA
1573.Chelsey Ackley - Jacksonville, NC
1574. Sarah Bragg - Roxboro, NC
1575. Amy Clements- Purcellville, VA
1576. Michael Schoenewolf - Alexandria, VA
1577. Jennifer Sill - Alexandria, VA
1578. Jennifer R - Alexandria, VA
1579. Antonio III - Alexandria, VA
1580. Renee Hamm
1581. Gina Harris
1582. Patricia Osborne
1583. Lindsey Britt - Lumberton, N.C.
1584. Christin Daniels- Clarksville, Tn. My uncle was killed by a drunk driver, so I stand firm for this petition. God bless all!!!
1585. Jennie Powell--Augusta, GA
1586. Kitty Clumm ~ Columbus, OH
1587. Michelle Chambers-Ga
1588. Chris Chambers-Ga
1589. Marlana Koref- Ga
1590.Cindy Grosscup-Ga
1591.Robert Groscup-Ga
1592.Jenniffer Becks-Ga
1593. Stephanie Peace-CO

When this petition has reached 5,000...please
return it to:
MADD
PO Box 541688
Dallas , TX 75354-1688
1-800-GET-MADD (1-800-438-6233 )

If you receive this petition and do nothing but delete it, your selfishness knows no bounds. Signing is such a small effort to make.

After you have read the poem, please add your name at the bottom. And never forget, DON'T EVER DRINK AND DRIVE, not
even once, thinking that it won't matter. IT DEFINITELY WILL MATTER!!!

How to set it up:

1. Copy the whole thing.
2. Paste it into a new bulletin.
3. SIGN YOUR NAME AT THE BOTTOM.
4. Then hit pos

Become a Carbon Concious Consumer!

2007-10-04T15:17:00.000-07:00

Why you should take this pledge:
Everything we consume has a climate impact, but manufacturing and trucking water bottles to homes with clean tap water seems particularly wasteful. The Beverage Marketing Corporation reports that Americans consumed 31.2 billion liters of water in 2006 – nearly 9 liters per month for every man, woman, and child.

Manufacturing all those bottles requires 900,000 tons of plastic, the equivalent of more than 17 million barrels of oil, and emit more than 2.5 million tons of carbon dioxide. Trucking around all those heavy bottles emits even more greenhouse gases. Beyond the climate impact there’s the massive waste – 86% of water bottles aren’t recycled -- and water bottling is also, ironically, a very water-intensive endeavor. The Pacific Institute tells us that it takes three liters of water to produce one liter of bottled water!

Plus when you sign the pledge you are entered to win a trip to Sun Valley!

Blessed Be.

Extensive Political Email List, Please Repost!

2007-10-02T11:49:00.000-07:00

----------------- Bulletin Message -----------------
From: Pass the PeAcE
Date: Oct 2, 2007 6:28 AM

From: BeAtLejOe
Date: Oct 2, 2007 6:20 AM

Everybody!

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From: I.B. Fibbin
Date: Oct 2, 2007 9:14 AM

----------------- Bulletin Message -----------------
From: Pan Man
Date: Oct 2, 2007 9:03 AM

WOW! This is fabulous! Just think of all the big shots who can totally ignore us now! What could possibly be better?

----------------- Bulletin Message -----------------
From:
Vadershine
Date: Oct 2, 2007 7:28 AM

From:

The Ghost of Andy Kaufman

EVERYONE READ, COPY, PASTE, SAVE, & ACT NOW!!!
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THANKS GO OUT TO
BOBBY L.A. HIPHOP
& USE Your VOICE or LOSE Your VOICE!

Thank you for reposting: Uncle Sam
Date: 01 Oct 2007, 08:00 PM

Uncle Sam can not thank the two sources below, as well as any other persons that may have been involved, for the superior email address collection below.

I have been trying to put together a similar list for a long time, but mine is one one-hundredth the size of this. Thanks!

I recommend that you immediately open a Word document and copy/paste all of the information below. Do it right now so you won't forget and so it won't slip your mind.

The list below will do nothing if it sits on your computer in a document that is never opened again. I urge you to get involved in any way you can with whoever you choose about whatever subject you choose. What ever you want to accomplish, take action!!!

From: ‰Georgilla No Nukes Guerrilla ,,
From: merry jane

UNITED STATES HOUSE OF REPRESENTATIVES

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UNIVERSITY JOURNALISM DEPARTMENTS

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SALON.COM

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US RADIO NETWORKS

famradio@familyradio.com, troman@theprovider.com, noticiasz@juno.com, dmoye@flashnews.com, terry@catholicradio.com, acole@marketwatch.com, timmer@premrad.com, gdavis@businesstalkradio.net, isabel@hrn.org, danc@igc.org, jdvorkin@npr.org, cochs@ap.org, space@voa.gov, wrestrepo@radiounica.com, ed@forthepeople.org, cesar.orozco@turner.com, yourtwc@mindspring.com, ken.pauli@turner.com, tommydouglas@pgatourradio.com, donmills@calvarychapel.com, mgentzkow@1on1sports.com, ksiv@bottradio.net, tommartin@worldradio.org, crn@clark.net, huff@libertyworksradio.com, staff@talkamerica.com, dspear@pri.org, bah@nwc.edu, jriley@afa.net, world@flpradio.com, motorsportsradio@compuserve.com, jhiggins@unitedstations.com, roy_lindau@interep.com, sportsfan@aol.com, david.feinberg@abc.com, weber@swnetworks.com, sal.giangrasso@dowjones.com, jcohen@bloomberg.net, comments@foxkids.com

NY RADIO STATIONS

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The Evening of Samhain

2007-10-02T11:39:00.001-07:00

The Evening of Samhaim this is cute
Body: 'Twas the evening of Samhain, and all through the place
were Pagans preparing the ritual space.
The candles were set in the corners with care,
in hopes that the Watchtowers soon would be there.

We all had our robes on (as is habitual)
and had just settled down and were starting our ritual
when out on the porch there arose such a chorus
that we went to the door, and waiting there for us
were children in costumes of various kinds
with visions of choc-o-late bright in their minds.

In all of our workings, we'd almost forgot,
but we had purchased candy (we'd purchased a LOT),
And so, as they flocked from all over the street,
they all got some chocolate or something else sweet.

We didn't think twice of delaying our rite,
Kids just don't have this much fun every night.
For hours they came, with the time-honored schtick
of giving a choice: a treat... or a trick!
As is proper, the parents were there for the games,
Watching the children and calling their names.

"On Vader, On Leia,
On Dexter and DeeDee,
On Xena, on Buffy,
Casper and Tweety!
To the block of apartments
on the neighboring road;
You'll get so much candy,
you'll have to be TOWED!"

The volume of children eventually dropped,
and as it grew darker, it finally stopped.
But as we prepared to return to our rite,
One child more stepped out of the night

She couldn't have been more than twelve or thirteen.
Her hair was deep red, and her robe, forest green
with a simple gold cord tying off at the waist.
She'd a staff in her hand and a smile on her face.

No make-up, nor mask, or accompanying kitsch,
so we asked who she was; she replied "I'm a witch.
And no, I don't fly through the sky on my broom;
I only use that thing for cleaning my room.
My magical powers aren't really that neat,
but I won't threaten tricks; I'll just ask for a treat.

We found it refreshing, so we gave incense cones,
A candle, a crystal, a few other stones,
And the rest of the candy (which might fill a van).
She turned to her father (a man dressed as Pan)
and laughed, "Yes, I know, Dad, it's past time for bed,"
and started to leave, but she first turned and said

"I'm sorry for further delaying your rite.
Blessed Samhain to all, and a magical night."

Arrested For Reading the Constitution!!

2007-10-02T11:33:00.001-07:00

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From: Storm Girl for RON PAUL
Date: Oct 2, 2007 7:42 AM

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From: Alex Jones
Date: Oct 2, 2007 8:34 AM

Arrested For Reading The Constitution

Peaceful onlookers were arrested by police for reading the Constitution while a pro-war group was allowed full freedom of speech in Washington DC recently in another flagrant example of how American cops are now the enforcers of a tyrannical police state.

http://www.prisonplanet.com/articles/october2007/021007_reading_constitution.htm

Get Paid to Blog and Network!

2007-09-28T22:20:00.000-07:00

Get Paid to play on sites like Myspace!

Hello, I know it sounds like a scam. But just check it out. I don't think you will get rich, but you will make some pocket money. And you are already doing it anyway. Just go to a new web page and type in the web address like you would normally without spelling it out, and make sure it says Merkin's Moon.com or Stephanie and you are good to go.

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I'm a Shamanic Pagan

2007-09-27T11:52:00.001-07:00

You scored as Shamanic Pagan, A shamanic pagan's roots are generally found in Native American faith. A true love and respect for the earth and all that it yields is central to their faith. Wisdom is most often found in spirit guides or totems, who can be animals, ancestors, or spirits. Pagans who follow this path tend to be far more aware of the delicate web that interweaves the lives of every person and thus move within that web accordingly. They're usually deeply insightful, friendly, loving people and excellent friends and parents. Mysterious and strong, as well, they are often the protectors of their friends and family as well as the moral compass for their friends and loved ones.

Shamanic Pagan

100%

Eastern Pagan

95%

Egyptian Pantheonic Pagan

95%

Ecclectic Pagan

90%

Celtic Pantheonic Pagan

90%

Greek Pantheonic Pagan

90%

Roman Pantheonic Pagan

90%

Zoroastrian Pagan

80%

Kabbalistic Pagan

60%

Sumerian, Babylonian, and Mesopotamian Pagans

55%

Norse Pantheonic Pagan (Asatru)

35%

Catholic (Pagan?)

35%

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Pres. Bush Pardons Himself for War Crimes, CNN Video ???!!!

2007-09-26T12:30:00.000-07:00

is is a load of shit and everyone out there needs to contact their Congresssmen and their Senators IMMEDIATELY!!! This is happening by the end of the week. Please forward this on to as many places as you can think of this is extremely important.
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From: dryad
Date: Sep 26, 2007 11:56 AM

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From: EVOLVE ALREADY!
Date: Sep 26, 2007 11:24 AM

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From: Taunton Animal Rights Activists
Date: Sep 25, 2007 7:38 PM

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From: All my HEROES have FBI Files!!!
Date: 25 Sep 2007, 20:07

So much for the Geneva Convention.... G Dubya has Made Himself a little neocon god.

Thanks
Revalesq
RATHER DIE ON MY FEET THAN LIVE ON MY KNEES-WOLVES
DJ ~ Radical Truth

Prize Drawing

2007-08-29T20:09:00.000-07:00

All new customers are automatically entered into our prize drawing, so sign up today for your chance to win!

No purchase necessary. Go to www.Merkinsmoon.com to sign up. Drawing open to all legal United States residents only. Drawing is for (1) one Samhian Ritual Basket. Expected Odds of winning 1 in 200, but will depend on total of new customers signed up between August 31st 2007, and Sept 31st 2007. Only one entry per household. Prize drawing will be held on October 10th 2007, and winner will be announced via email that same day. Value of prize equal to retail cost of item, plus reasonable least cost shipping with in the continental United States. All information gathered during the course of this prize drawing is held in strict confidence. Winner will be contacted via email to verify shipping information. Expect 30 days for item to arrive.

Denver Metaphysical Fair

2007-08-29T12:44:00.000-07:00

Hello all,
I just wanted to let you know if you live in the area, that there will be a Metaphysical fair this weekend. It is sponsored by Celebration Store of Colorado Springs and is located at the Merchandise Mart on 58th and I-25.
It will be on Friday August 31, Saturday September 1, and Sunday September 2.

Friday: 1:00 PM to 9:00 PM
Saturday: 10:00 AM to 7:00 PM
Sunday: 10:00 AM to 6:00 PM
Daily Admission is $5.00
Readings are $15.00 for 15 minutes
or $20 for 20 minutes

And I (Merkin's Moon) will be there with business cards and candy on the FREE table. And I will also be working at the fair as a cashier and helper.

I hope to see you all there. It will be a lot of fun.

Dress Up Fairy

2007-08-23T15:09:00.000-07:00

Dress up Fairy Freya

Killing California Almonds, Dead Food=Dead People

2007-08-23T14:41:00.000-07:00

From: Emanations Of Love
Date: Aug 23, 2007 9:19 AM

The Killing of California Almonds

(and why dead foods lead to dead people)

As NewsTarget reported earlier this year, the Almond Board of California (ABC) has decided that all almonds grown in that state must be pasteurized, irradiated or otherwise killed, even when they're labeled "raw." This is necessary, the ABC tells us, for "safety reasons." But who's safety? Certainly not the safety of the consumer, since dead or cooked nuts are far less nutritious than living, raw nuts. It turns out the focus is on the safety of the industry, and killing all the almonds before allowing them to be sold to consumers is a way to insulate the almond industry from lawsuits stemming from rare salmonella outbreaks that afflict a tiny number of consumers with compromised immune systems.

So rather than take the risk that a few raw almonds might occasionally be contaminated and harm a few individuals, the industry believes that it's better to harm everyone equally by making sure all almonds are pasteurized or irradiated, rendering them nutritionally deficient. Or, to put it another way, the industry will knowingly put out a nutritionally inferior product to the masses in exchange for a little legal immunity of its own.

Of course, the Almond Board of California knows virtually nothing about nutrition and so does not even acknowledge any difference between raw almonds and dead almonds. It makes me wonder if the board is, itself, occupied by expired persons that the few remaining living members simply haven't bothered to remove. They seem incapable of distinguishing between living organisms and dead ones, after all. And yet the differences are tremendous: Cooked almonds have most of their natural phytonutrients destroyed by excess heat (or radiation). Protein content is diminished, fats are molecularly altered and sugars are broken down into less healthy forms. All this seems to be of no concern to the ABC, which remains convinced that cooked, dead almonds are virtually identical to raw almonds in taste, texture and nutrition.

Many almond growers, not surprisingly, are hopping mad at the ABC for this "pasteurization tyranny" that will now require almond growers to kill a perfectly good product before they can sell it to consumers. It's almost like being in the flower business and, after growing beautiful orchids for your customers, some stupid state agency comes along and says you have to cook all the flowers before you can sell them because somebody once stuck their nose in a pot of orchids and sniffed up a creepy crawler. Cooked orchids, alas, are not nearly as beautiful as living orchids.

But the ABC will hear none of it. They're determined to kill their almonds, even if it means compromising the integrity of the entire industry due to the planned false labeling that would classify dead almonds as "raw." Starting in September, when consumers pick up a bag of "raw almonds" at a health food store, they have no way of knowing if those almonds are actually raw, or if they're just pretend raw because the ABC voted to have them pasteurized (cooked) and then labeled as raw. Virtually all almonds sold in North America are grown in California, by the way. This ruling therefore impacts the whole industry.

The ABC does not even seem committed to honest labeling. If the almonds are to be pasteurized, shouldn't they be labeled, "Pasteurized"? It seems stubbornly dishonest to cook all the almonds while labeling them "raw." It's an insult to the consumer, too, but it's also par for the course when it comes to food safety: The FDA, after all, insists that both irradiated foods and GMO foods should not be labeled as such because the labels might "confuse consumers." That's right: Too much information is dangerous to consumers! Knowledge might cause them to make the wrong purchasing decision!

As a consumer, I've never felt so insulted in my entire life. Except, perhaps, for the one time a radio show host accidentally called me a doctor.

Singling out almonds

Certainly, there have been a handful of deaths due to salmonella poisoning from raw almonds. To put this in perspective, so what? Over 16,000 people died last year from drunk driving, and I don't see the feds banning cars. Over 100,000 Americans died from pharmaceuticals, and yet those remain heavily advertised everywhere. Countless millions of children have died over the years from cancers stemming from chemical food additives like sodium nitrite, hydrogenated oils and petrochemical food coloring, yet you don't see anybody jumping up and down to save those kids. But when five people croak from eating raw almonds, they treat it like it's a national emergency. Maybe terrorists are now using salmonella as a biological weapon...

But let's get real here: Eating food comes with some risk. You can die from salmonella poisoning in alfalfa sprouts, too, if you have a really weak immune system, or you could keel over from eating raw sushi at the local Japanese diner. You might croak after drinking a gallon of raw milk that went really, really bad, or you could buy the farm after eating a salad contaminated by salmonella from the knife you used to slice that contaminated chicken (70% of store-bought raw chicken meat is contaminated with salmonella, did you know?). These are inherent risks in life. Food sometimes kills you, and even when it doesn't, you sometimes get diarrhea so bad that you wish it had.

The defense against food poisoning is to have a healthy immune system and a really healthy population of friendly flora in your gut. These two things can protect you against almost any common food-borne organisms. And yet so many Americans are diseased, immunosuppressed and intestinally imbalanced (due to rampant use of antibiotics) that the authorities have decided the only way to deliver safe food is to sterilize it first. Sure, sterilization sounds like a great idea if applied to certain politicians, but it's probably not such a smart move for our food supply. (It works for the news, however. Just about every piece of news on the war in Iraq is sterilized before being broadcast to Americans...)

But why single out almonds in the first place? Spinach has been contaminated with e.coli, and so have numerous other fresh foods (onions, parsley, lettuce, etc.). Will our ever-so-vigilant government now come along and kill all those foods, too? Shall we have a dinner of wilted lettuce, dead almond slices and pasteurized salad dressing made with rape seed oil, MSG and high-fructose corn syrup? That's the food the government will put its stamp of approval on, it seems: Dead, deficient and dirt cheap.

Here's where all this is going...

The bigger picture: Dead foods lead to dead people

I have heard a theory that says the governments of the world, concerned with the population carrying capacity of planet Earth, have unleashed a plan to greatly reduce the population by destroying the nutritional value of foods and supplements. Once malnutrition becomes rampant, the theory goes, the population will collapse through disease and infertility, and the remaining few will find themselves in a happy, low-population world where they can actually afford to buy a condo.

I'm not sure I totally believe this plan, but some of what's happening with CODEX Alimentarius sure seems suspicious (as in, why would they make therapeutic doses of vitamins illegal, anyway?). On the other hand, if world leaders really wanted to kill everyone, they could just force the population to watch endless reruns of televised speeches from President Bush, and that would drive countless voters to kill themselves far more quickly.

But suppose the theories have an element of truth? Mandating the killing of fresh foods would certainly be an effective way to accelerate the diseasification and death of the population. It's also a great cover story: "We're killing all your food to HELP you! Because we care!"

I suspect, however, that the real explanation here is nothing more complicated than mass incompetence by the ABC, USDA, FDA and just about every government agency with 3 or 4 letters. Real knowledge about the nutritional value of living foods remains disturbingly rare. Conventional medicine still hasn't even accepted the idea that the human body has any real nutritional needs whatsoever (except, perhaps, for basic synthetic vitamins to prevent rickets and pellagra). Medical doctors still aren't taught nutrition in med school, and the whole raw foods movement is only starting to gain mainstream momentum. Sure, in twenty years, most people will understand there's a huge difference between living foods and dead foods, but right now, most health authorities and consumers are stuck in the world of immutable macronutrients that have no "living" properties whatsoever.

Whether you believe that the plan to destroy the nutritional value of the food supply is due to widespread incompetence or some evil plot to reduce the human population by nutritionally starving the masses, one thing remains inarguably true: Each year, more and more of your food is getting irradiated, pasteurized, homogenized, milled, processed, steam treated, dipped, bleached or otherwise altered. The result is that mainstream food is less nutritious with each passing year, and that doesn't even consider the mass mineral depletion of the soils that further contributes to the nutritional deficiency of foods.

It all comes back to the same fundamentals: If you want to be a healthy person, you'll need to source real food grown by real people who live real close by. Buy local. Support Community Supported Agriculture (CSA) organizations (www.LocalHarvest.org). Visit local farmer co-ops, and grow what you can in your own garden. Buy organic, and research the companies you're buying from. Know what you're putting in your mouth before chewing and swallowing.

After all, there are health authorities who are working hard right now to make sure that every bite you take has been sterilized for your own protection. Living matter may soon no longer allowed to be consumed by the public. Gee, isn't it nice to know the authorities are looking out for our welfare yet again? I think we should all send kind letters to the Almond Board of California, thanking them for making our food purchasing decisions so simple that even complete idiots can now eat themselves into a state of sustained malnourishment without giving it a second thought.

It is a fascinating sign of the times when the authorities in charge of the food supply seem dead set on making foods as nutritionally worthless as possible.

Online resources for taking action

Organic Pastures
www.OrganicPastures.com
160 acres of almonds, they can sell you raw almonds directly (and they're also into raw milk).
Good folks. Highly recommended. May be one of the few remaining sources of truly raw almonds in California.

Living Nuts
www.LivingNutz.com
They have great information about raw almonds, plus an online petition. Sign their petition! These folks are big into raw foods and also highly recommended.

Counterthink Cartoon: The Killing of California Almonds
You'll enjoy this cartoon: http://www.newstarget.com/021988.html

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Habitat for Humanity

2007-08-09T11:57:00.000-07:00

Well my husband and I volunteered yesterday. My husband's job offers paid days to those who want to volunteer for certain charities once a year. Otherwise you just don't get paid for it. And he had a list of different charities to choose from. Habitat for Humanity was on the list. And I have always wanted to do it. And since I have been on this kick of learning about ecofriendly ways of building it just seemed to fit.

So we show up with a few other people from his company. We didn't know any of them, but that didn't matter. So were all split up into different teams to work on different projects. My husband and I and a couple of other people from his work were chosen to lay subfloor for this one building. So we got to work. We of course were making mistakes from the beginning since none of us had ever built a house before. We started on the wrong side of the building and used the wrong nails. So we had cut some pieces of plywood later to make sure everthing would fit properly. And then we had to use more nails of a different kind so the floor wouldn't creak in the future. But all in all we had a good time.

They even provided lunch for us. And it was a pretty good spread. They offered sandwiches, chips, soda, water, cookies and all kinds of bread and condiments. So everyone was pretty much happy with what they had. Plus at that point we were all starving from working so hard.

We got to know some of the future homeowners that were putting in their volunteer hours (sweat equity). A single person has to put in 350 hours and can get 150 of those hours donated by different people. So we agreed to donate the hours we put in. I talked to the person that coordinated everyone from my husband's work, and she agreed to donate everyone's hours from there as well. So for all 12 of us, the homeowner got 96 hours donated for one day.

After lunch I wasn't needed anymore on the flooring for that house, so I was put on a new team. I was to help dig a ditch to pour more concrete for a driveway. The ground was dry and difficult to dig and very rocky. By this time it was getting extremely hot outside. And I don't do well in heat. I am very pale and burn easily. I was dressed for the occasion with a hat and jeans and a short sleeve shirt. But for some reason I wasn't doing so well. So I ended up with heat exhaustion. But I ended up being ok. I just sat down for a bit in the shade and drank a ton of water and poured it all over me.

By the end of the day I was dirty, sore, had blisters all over my feet and hands. But I loved it. I just need to get into better shape and wear different shoes when I go next time. And of course take a lot more water with me, or only volunteer when the weather is cooler.

Lammas Basket For Sale!

2007-07-24T12:49:00.000-07:00

By the light of the moon and the dark of the sky,Make sure to get a Ritual Basket for Thy!
Lammas Ritual Basket

As Above So Below,
This way to Merkin's Moon Go

Buying the basket today or tomorrow ( Thursday July 25) should most likely arrive by August 1.

Lammas Rituals

2007-07-24T12:47:00.000-07:00

Lammas Ritual
Scott Cunningham

Place upon the altar sheaves of wheat, barley or oats, fruit and breads, perhaps a loaf fashioned in the figure of the Sun or a man to represent the God. Corn dollies, symbolic of the goddess, can be present there as well.

Arrange the altar, light the candles and censer, and cast the Circle of Stones.

Recite the Blessing Chant.

Invoke the Goddess and God.

Stand before the altar, holding aloft the sheaves of grain, saying these or similar words:

Now is the time of the First Harvest,
when bounties of nature give of themselves
so that we may survive.
O God of the ripening fields, Lord of the Grain,
grant me the understanding of sacrifice as you
prepare to deliver yourself under the sickle of the
goddess and journey to the lands of eternal summer.
O Goddess of the Dark Moon,
teach me the secrets of rebirth
as the Sun loses its strength and the nights grow cold.

Rub the heads of the wheat with your fingers so that the grains fall onto the altar. Lift a piece of fruit and bit, savouring it flavour, and say:

I partake of the first harvest, mixing its energies
with mine that I may continue my quest for the starry
wisdom of perfection.
O Lady of the Moon and Lord of the Sun,
gracious ones before Whom the stars halt their courses,
I offer my thanks for the continuing fertility of the Earth.
May the nodding grain loose its seeds to be buried in
the Mothers breast, ensuring rebirth in the warmth
of the coming Spring.

Consume the rest of the fruit.

Works of magic, if necessary, may follow.

Celebrate the Simple Feast.

The circle is released.

It is appropriate to plant the seeds from the fruit consumed in ritual. If they sprout, grow the plant with love and as a symbol of your connection with the Goddess and God.

Thank you Stormy Raiyne
Blessed Be.

Lammas

2007-07-24T12:46:00.000-07:00

Celebrated August 1st.

Lammas marks the middle of summer and beginning of the harvest season. Lammas is considered a time of thanksgiving and is the first of the three Pagan harvest festivals. The Sun's strength begins to wane and the plants of spring begin to wither and drop their fruits or seeds for our use as well as to ensure future crops. At this time, we become conscious of the sacrifice the Sun God is preparing to make. We experience a sense of abundance at the same time we begin to feel an urgency to prepare for the death of winter. First grains and fruits of the Earth are cut and stored for the dark winter months.

Lammas also represents the culmination of the marriage between the Goddess and the God that took place on Beltane. The God now becomes the product of that blessed union - the bountiful fruits and grains - and must be sacrificed. He is the personification of the crops that must be harvested for the survival of the people.

Underneath the symbolism of sacrifice is the theme of rebirth. The Corn God must die, and He has to do so in order to return. Without the sacrifice, the cycle stops. Although His strength is waning, His essence is still palpable as His energies begin to merge with the harvested crops. It is at this time that the Sun King has reached the autumn of His years, and His rival (or dark self) has just reached puberty. The Sun God has reigned supreme over the ripening grain during the hot summer months. His dedication, perseverance, and action in tending the seeds sown in spring brings a ripe and fruitful bounty.

Although Lammas is the first of the harvest festivals, fertility imagery may still be found, as there are still crops in the field continuing to grow and livestock and game that have yet to be killed. As the God is honored for His harvest, so the Goddess is honored for bringing forth the first fruits, much as a new mother is honored.

Lammas is also known as Lughnasadh, Lammastide, and First Harvest Festival.

Correspondences

Symbolism: First harvest festival; aging of the Deities, honoring of Sun Gods

Symbols: Corn dollies, cornucopia, grains, the Sun

Foods: Breads, grains, potatoes, summer squash, cider, blackberry pies and jellies, berries, apples, roasted lamb, elderberry wine, meadowsweet tea

Plants & herbs: Ash, camphor, caraway, fern, geranium, juniper, mandrake, marjoram, thyme, sunflowers, wheat

Incense and oils: Allspice, carnation, rosemary, vanilla, sandalwood, aloe, rose

Colors: Red, gold, yellow, orange

Stones: Aventurine, citrine, peridot, sardonyx

Animals and mythical beasts: Roosters, calves, the Phoenix, griffins, basilisk, centaurs

Some appropriate Goddesses: all grain, agriculture, and mother Goddesses; Alphito (Greek), Ashnan (Sumerian), Bast (Egyptian), Bau (Assyro-Babylonian), Ceres (Roman), Demeter (Greek), Gaia (Greek), Ishtar (Assyro-Babylonian), Isis (Egyptian), Libera (Roman), Persephone (Greek), Rhiannon (Welsh), Robigo (Roman), Tailtiu (Irish)

Some appropriate Gods: all grain, agriculture, Sun, and father Gods; Cernunnos (Celtic), Dagon (Babylonian), Lahar (Sumerian), Liber (Roman), Llew (Welsh), Lugh (Irish), Neper (Egyptian), Ningirsu/Ninurta (Assyro-Babylonian), Odin (Norse), Osiris (Egyptian)

Decorations: Corn, hay, gourds, corn dollies, shafts of grain, sun wheels

Activities: games, country fairs, making corn dollies, baking bread, gathering fruits, visits to fields, orchards, lakes and wells.

Spell/ritual work: Offering thanks, honoring fathers, prosperity, abundance, generosity, continued success, connectedness

Lammas: The First Harvest

by Mike Nichols

It was upon a Lammas Night
When corn rigs are bonny,
Beneath the Moon's unclouded light,
I held awhile to Annie...

Although in the heat of a Mid-western summer it might be difficult to discern, the festival of Lammas (Aug 1st) marks the end of summer and the beginning of fall. The days now grow visibly shorter and by the time we've reached autumn's end (Oct 31st), we will have run the gammut of temperature from the heat of August to the cold and (sometimes) snow of November. And in the midst of it, a perfect Mid-western autumn.

The history of Lammas is as convoluted as all the rest of the old folk holidays. It is of course a cross-quarter day, one of the four High Holidays or Greater Sabbats of Witchcraft, occuring 1/4 of a year after Beltane. It's true astrological point is 15 degrees Leo, but tradition has set August 1st as the day Lammas is typically celebrated. The celebration proper would begin on sundown of the previous evening, our July 31st, since the Celts reckon their days from sundown to sundown.

However, British Witches often refer to the astrological date of Aug 6th as Old Lammas, and folklorists call it Lammas O.S. ('Old Style'). This date has long been considered a 'power point' of the Zodiac, and is symbolized by the Lion, one of the 'tetramorph' figures found on the Tarot cards, the World and the Wheel of Fortune (the other three figures being the Bull, the Eagle, and the Spirit). Astrologers know these four figures as the symbols of the four 'fixed' signs of the Zodiac, and these naturally allign with the four Great Sabbats of Witchcraft. Christians have adopted the same iconography to represent the four gospel-writers.

'Lammas' was the medieval Christian name for the holiday and it means 'loaf-mass', for this was the day on which loaves of bread were baked from the first grain harvest and laid on the church altars as offerings. It was a day representative of 'first fruits' and early harvest.

In Irish Gaelic, the feast was referred to as 'Lugnasadh', a feast to commemorate the funeral games of the Irish sun-god Lugh. However, there is some confusion on this point. Although at first glance, it may seem that we are celebrating the death of Lugh, the god of light does not really die (mythically) until the autumnal equinox. And indeed, if we read the Irish myths closer, we discover that it is not Lugh's death that is being celebrated, but the funeral games which Lugh hosted to commemorate the death of his foster-mother, Taillte. That is why the Lugnasadh celebrations in Ireland are often called the 'Tailltean Games'.

The time went by with careless heed
Between the late and early,
With small persuasion she agreed
To see me through the barley...

One common feature of the Games were the 'Tailltean marriages', a rather informal marriage that lasted for only 'a year and a day' or until next Lammas. At that time, the couple could decide to continue the arrangement if it pleased them, or to stand back to back and walk away from one another, thus bringing the Tailltean marriage to a formal close. Such trial marriages (obviously related to the Wiccan 'Handfasting') were quite common even into the 1500's, although it was something one 'didn't bother the parish priest about'. Indeed, such ceremonies were usually solemnized by a poet, bard, or shanachie (or, it may be guessed, by a priest or priestess of the Old Religion).

Lammastide was also the traditional time of year for craft festivals. The medieval guilds would create elaborate displays of their wares, decorating their shops and themselves in bright colors and ribbons, marching in parades, and performing strange, ceremonial plays and dances for the entranced onlookers. The atmosphere must have been quite similar to our modern-day Renaissance Festivals, such as the one celebrated in near-by Bonner Springs, Kansas, each fall.

A ceremonial highlight of such festivals was the 'Catherine wheel'. Although the Roman Church moved St. Catherine's feast day all around the calender with bewildering frequency, it's most popular date was Lammas. (They also kept trying to expel this much-loved saint from the ranks of the blessed because she was mythical rather than historical, and because her worship gave rise to the heretical sect known as the Cathari.) At any rate, a large wagon wheel was tak

Thank you Stormy Raiyne

Earthships and Ecofriendly Homes

2007-07-08T11:31:00.000-07:00

Hey out there. I was watching the weather channel last night and they had this show about Ecofriendly Homes. Specifically Earthships. Now I have actually known about these types of homes for many years. My father used to be in real estate and actually sold a couple. Plus we used to live in the mountains and Earth and Eco friendly homes were plentiful.

Anyway I was wondering who out there knows a lot about the different types of homes. I know a little about straw bale homes as well. But I love the idea of Biotecture. I have always wanted to live off the grid. Another byproduct of my hippie parents.

And for those of you that don't have a clue what I am talking about but would like to know more. A little about Earthships:
Earthship Biotecture creates buildings that...
heat and cool themselves naturally via solar/thermal dynamics
collect their own power from the sun and wind
harvest their own water from rain and snow melt
contain and treat their own sewage on site
produce food in significant quantities
utilize materials that
are byproducts of modern society
like cans, bottles and tires.

Also on the weather channel they were talking about this EcoManor. It was built by the daughter of Ted Turner. She has always been an advocate for the environment. And so she wanted to walk the talk but still do it in a luxurous way. Her home was fantastic. It was what the typical American dream home would be, but with all of the ways to reduce our carbon footprint. They used solar power, reused water from the sinks to flush the toilets, called gray water. They used sustainable materials to build the house. And they used geothermal energy to heat and cool the home. Plus they collect rain and snowmelt to be used in the home for drinking water and for other uses in the home.

So we all should be learning now that we can still have most of the thing we have become accustomed to but just be gentler to the Earth when we use them.

Please leave any comments about other websites and other places for information. I would love to hear from all of you.

Washington Post: On Faith: Paganism May Not Pass Relgious Muster

2007-07-05T12:06:00.000-07:00

Paganism May Not Pass Religious Muster

Charles W. "Chuck" Colson
Founder, Prison Fellowship ministry

Charles W. "Chuck" Colson is founder of Prison Fellowship, a Christian outreach ministry to the prison population of this country, as well as to ex-prisoners and crime victims. The "On Faith" panelist's daily radio commentary, BreakPoint, is aired daily on over a 1,000 radio outlets nationwide. Colson also is a syndicated columnist, lawyer, and author of 23 books, most recently The Good Life (2005). He served as special counsel to the late President Richard M. Nixon (1969-73). After pleading guilty to a Watergate-related charge of obstruction of justice in 1974, Colson served seven months of a one to three-year federal prison sentence. His 1973 Christian conversion was documented in the internationally best-selling book and film, Born Again. He founded Prison Fellowship in 1976. In 1993, Colson was awarded the Templeton Prize for Progress in Religion and donated the $1 million prize to Prison Fellowship. In the last 28 years, Colson has visited more than 600 prisons in 40 countries and, with the help of nearly 50,000 volunteers, has built Prison Fellowship into the world's largest prison outreach, serving the spiritual and practical needs of prisoners in 93 countries including the U.S.

Paganism May Not Pass Religious Muster
It is debatable whether paganism is a religion, per say. It is generally defined as a pre-Christian state, but it takes a wide variety of forms—all the way from relatively benign New Age-style nature worship, to pantheism, to witchcraft, and even human sacrifice.

Those who publicly identify themselves as pagans are at best a marginal number and are basically no different from dozens of other cults.

I see no reason why Wiccans or pagans generally should have the services of taxpayer-paid chaplains. It is perfectly appropriate, if a group meets court tests for religion, that outside priest/ministers be allowed to come into federal facilities and minister. But historically, with standards that have been spelled out carefully by the courts, chaplains are appointed to represent mainline religions.

The more difficult question is whether I would vote for a pagan for public office. The answer is that on one hand I fully respect the fact that there should be no religious test for public office; on the other hand, I would have great difficulty supporting an explicit Wiccan or pagan for high public office. There are tenets of their belief that, I think, are incompatible with the requirements of American democratic governance.

Lest this sound discriminatory, I think it is very clear from reading the writings of our founding fathers that a sound adherence to the values of the Judeo-Christian tradition—or at the very least, deism—was essential as a basis of the moral law that would sustain a free society.

The writings of all the founders are clear on this. I would refer anyone interested particularly to Michael Novak’s book On Two Wings, in which he describes the influence of the Judeo-Christian tradition on one wing and the influence of the Enlightenment on the other. They were finally balanced in our founding. But everyone, devout believer or deist or otherwise, saw the necessity of a strong moral law which would provide self restraint. Without self restraint, free governments cannot succeed.

John Adams famously wrote, “We have no government, armed in power, capable of contending with human passion unbridled by morality and religion . . . our Constitution was made only for moral and religious people. It is wholly inadequate for the government of any other.” And George Washington said, “Of all the dispositions and habits which lead to a political prosperity, religion and morality are indispensable supports.”

Not being as familiar with paganism in its various forms, I do not wish to condemn it unfairly. But from what I know of it, I do not think it can provide the “indispensable supports” Washington wrote about.

So I would not appoint pagan chaplains, nor would I, as a personal decision but influenced greatly by the founders, vote for a pagan.

Posted by Charles "Chuck" Colson on July 5, 2007 10:36 AM

Please make sure to leave comments. Or repost. I hate the fact that there are people out there that do not believe that Relgious Freedom should not only be allowed but protected, accepted, and rejoiced!

Blessed Be!

Litha

2007-06-15T21:21:00.000-07:00

By the light of the moon and the dark of the sky, Make sure to get a Ritual Basket for Thy!

Litha Ritual Basket

As Above So Below,
This way to Merkin's Moon Go

Back From Vacation

2007-05-30T12:43:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone,

I am finally back from my latest excursion. I went to visit my family and see my new baby neice. She is the most beautiful baby. Of course I am biased. But maybe she isn't as beautiful as my son was.

I was gone almost 2 weeks this time. We went to St. Louis and then Kentucky. My sis and mom live in St. Louis and the rest of my family is in Kentucky. So we all went there so the whole family could meet the new little one. It was short in Kentucky but beautiful as always. I love how green it always is there. But that is what I give up when I give up the humidity. And I hate the humidity. Springtime isn't so bad though.

We stayed at my uncle's house and he has about 14 acres with lots of trees and a pond filled with catfish. My son loves to go on rides on the mule. Not the animal variety, the mechanical one. For those of you who don't know, it is a cross between a golf cart and an ATV. So it has seat belts and a windshield,but it drives in rough terrain. We got to eat our breakfasts on the back porch with the beautiful scenery and see a deer eating the grass too.

We spent most of the time at my grandparents house though. They have about 21 acres to play around on. But it is mostly grown over these days. They are too old to mow all of their property. They still have a large personal garden too. So we went on a lot of nature walks together. We even took the baby. There is this little dirt road off to the side of the property and it goes far back in the woods. There are only 4 houses that far back with small farms attached to each. One house looks like fairies live there. It is set back off the road with all of these ferns and flowers around it. It has a little front porch. It even had a small kitty that kept following us. Anyway the little dirt road winds around to this little creek we use to go to as kids. We used to play there with sand toys and shovels and stuff. We used to play with the tadpoles and minnows. So I showed my son the beauties of my childhood and took photos of him there too. Later that night we built a fire in the back yard and made s'mores and talked. He got to play with the fireflies too.

The unfortunate part is that my grandparents are getting pretty old now. They have lots of little ailments and they don't ever like getting out of the house. So I worry that my son will miss out on all of the fun things there that I had as a child. That is one of the reasons that I have been trying to visit them at least twice a year.

Then we went back to St. Louis for the rest of the trip. But for some reason on all of my recent trips we have been getting sick. This time it was the new baby's fault. Well actually my brother in law's fault. He was sick the week before we got there. And then he got his baby sick. And of course it was passed onto the rest of the family. So I am still getting over yet another cold.

That didn't really stop us though. My son was a little more clingy and wanting extra naps, but that is about it. We still got to see St. Charles historic district and the river. We saw some old cabooses to trains. My son loves trains. And we went to the Science center. And I took care of my little neice a lot. My sis had to work one day and had some appointments that were easier than taking that baby with her. So I had my son, the 2 month old baby that doesn't like bottles, and their huge dog to take care of all while we were sick. So needless to say, I am not having more children any time soon.

But the trip was good. I had a good time and so did my son. And I liked seeing all of my family. I even got to talk to a good friend of mine from highschool. But she has a new baby too and we didn't want to get him sick.

Brightest Blessings.

2007-05-10T06:34:00.000-07:00

Dear Bluegoddess,

This number:

09 F9 11 02 9D 74 E3 5B D8 41 56 C5 63 56 88 C0

Which is a hexadecimal integer, is claimed to be owned by a company called AACS.

Basically, this is a number that a significantly technical person could use to decrypt Blue Ray disks.

The story is that the AACS came up with the encryption algorithms, and are saying that they own this number.

That's right, the claim to own this number, a integer, it's supposedly copyrighted by them. That is this number, plus hundreds of others that no one knows about.

That's like saying "I own the number 124" and anyone caught using the number 124 must pay me a usage fee. Lets make it an even 100 dollars if the number is being used personally, or 1,250.56$ if it is going to be used commercially.

The number got posted to a bunch of websites, and the company sent cease / desist letters and has taken many of them to court.

This is totally outrageous, and completely un-American.

So the appropriate response is of course to post this number to every single website, forum, blog, email, and where ever you can. That way when the people who got sued go to court, they can claim that this "copyrighted" information is in public use and then get out of the lawsuit. And of course, hopefully the judge will see that copy righting integers is like, I don't know, stupid beyond all belief.

Love ya,
Your Husband

My Rant

2007-05-09T17:04:00.001-07:00

I have been annoyed. I left Christianity because of the dogma and the foul tempered fundamentalists. I found Wicca and became enraptured with the idea of an all embracing faith. One that doesn't denounce other ways of thinking. I was looking for community, comraderie and friendship. Instead I found people spouting lethal putrification in the misguided hope that it made them seem more important.

Now of course I do not believe all Pagans or Wiccans to be like this. In fact most I have had the pleasure of knowing are quite wonderful.

But for some reason the internet breeds selfishness, detachment, and extremely rude behavior. Just because you are not eye to eye with someone deosn't give you the right to belittle them or their views.

We are all meant to coexixt Peacefully on our Wonderous Planet Earth. So what the hell happened? Why can we not agree to disagree with some people? Instead we have become bullies and try to convert others to our way of thinking. Isn't that the very reason that so many of us have come to the Craft, to escape such persecution?

"Become the change you wish to see in the world." (Ghandi) I take this statement to heart. I see lots of others stating this on their websites. It seems beautiful and a good idea. So why don't more people practice what they preach? I know it is easier said than done. (Excuse the cliches) But anyone on a spiritual path should be working on their inner selves as to be above such ridicule of others. Embrace other opinions. Or at least respect the differences.

Conflict on the internet should be quite easy to walk away from. There is no person directly in your face. You should have the self restraint not to type nasty things to one another. It should be much easeir to actually think it through and decide on an action that could solve or temper the problem. Hate should not even get a second glance. When we don't respond to it, it disipates much more quickly. Respond as you would to a child-- reward only good behavior and ignore the rest. When the behavior becomes hurtful, there are ways to dicipline that still holds true to ones values.

In short treat others as you wish to be treated!!

Grand Opening of Merkin's Moon

2007-04-07T22:25:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone,

I am here and glad to say that my storeMerkin's Moon is finally open and ready for business. Please come by and check us out. We sell mostly wiccan/ pagan supplies. But we also sell other religous wares as well as jewelry. If you like us, please make sure to tell your friends about us or direct them here to my page. I also have a forum page. You can chat about anything your little heart desires.

Another Personality Test

2007-03-03T18:45:00.000-08:00

Hi I know these things are silly. But I would like to know if any of you actually think this what my personality is like. So please leave a comment and let me know. I think that I have some of these personality traits. But some of them seem a little off. So I figured I would get a second and third opinion and so on.

Advanced Global Personality Test Results
Extraversion||||||||||||||||||76%
Stability||||||26%
Orderliness||||||26%
Accommodation||||||||||||||||70%
Interdependence||||||||||||||||63%
Intellectual ||||||||||||||56%
Mystical||||||||||||||||||||90%
Artistic||||||||||||||||||||90%
Religious||||||||||||||||||||90%
Hedonismlll10%
Materialism||||||||||||||||||76%
Narcissism||||||||||||50%
Adventurousness||||||||||||||56%
Work ethic||||||||||||50%
Self absorbed||||||||||||50%
Conflict seeking||||||||||||||||63%
Need to dominate||||||||||||||56%
Romantic||||||||||||||||||||83%
Avoidant||10%
Anti-authority||||||||||||||||70%
Wealth||||16%
Dependency||||||||||36%
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Sexuality||||||||||||||||||76%
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Vanity||||||30%
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Stability results were low which suggests you are very worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious.

Orderliness results were low which suggests you are overly flexible, improvised, and fun seeking at the expense too often of reliability, work ethic, and long term accomplishment.

Extraversion results were high which suggests you are overly talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting at the expense too often of developing your own individual interests and internally based identity.

trait snapshot:

craves attention, messy, open, rash, irritable, likes large parties, low self control, weird, fragile, does not like to be alone, emotionally sensitive, worrying, depressed, heart over mind, does not respect authority, dependent, not rule conscious, not good at saving money, more interested in relationships than intellectual pursuits, likes to fit in, very social, frequently second guesses self, phobic, suspicious, not careful, outgoing, vain, compassionate, aggressive, likes to make fun, hates to lose

How Rare is Your Personality?

2007-02-28T13:14:00.001-08:00

Your Personality is Very Rare (INFP)

Your personality type is dreamy, romantic, elegant, and expressive.

Only about 5% of all people have your personality, including 6% of all women and 4% of all men
You are Introverted, Intuitive, Feeling, and Perceiving.

How Rare Is Your Personality?

Who Was Your First?

2007-02-13T11:42:00.000-08:00

1. Who was your first prom date?
It was my boyfriend at the time, Scott.

2. Who was your first roommate?
My boyfriend at the time, Brad.

3. What alcoholic beverage did you first drink?
I think it was wine or wine cooler when I went camping as a kid.

4. What was your first job?
Working in my parents record store when I was 5.

5. What was your first pet?
Cat named Tiger, she later ran away.

6. Who was your first kiss?
Tim something in the first grade.

7. What was your first CD?
Enya

8. Who was your first grade teacher?
Mrs. Baker

9. Where did you go on your first air plane ride?
Paducah, KY

10. When you snuck out of your house for the first time, who was it with?
John F. in highschool. I loved him and wanted to make out.

11. Who was your first best friend and are you still friends with them?
Brandy, and I haven't seen her since our parents split up when we were 5.

12. Where was your first sleepover?
It was at my friend Nicole's house, but our parents were friends.

13. Who is the first person you talk to in the morning?
Most mornings, Laura.

14. Whose wedding were you in the first time?
My aunt Susie.

15. What is the first thing you do in the morning?
Go to the bathroom and then take my kid to the potty.

16. What was the first concert you ever went to?
Michael Jackson and the Jackson 5 Victory tour.

17. First tattoo or piercing?
Ears, when I was 5 then tatoo when I was 21.

18. First celebrity crush?
Kirk Cameron

19. First real crush?
Adam

20. First TRUE love?
Jesse.

21. When was your first detention?
I got detention for missing too many classes of gym.

22. Who will be the first to repost this?
Laura, if she hasn't already done it.

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Ode to The Close-Minded Christian ( a Poem)

2007-02-12T17:09:00.000-08:00

So you say you love God
and everyday you read His book
but have you ever taken a second
to take a good look?

At the people around you
who believe in the same,
but they live it; not read it
so you think they are strange.

I've read your book
I've heard your preachers scream
and I can tell you my dear
you live in a dream.

You listen to man
and not to your heart
your faith based on words
will soon be torn apart.

Don't look at me strange
when I say I'm a Witch
because if you knew what I knew
you're beliefs just might switch.

You cling to Jesus
for he died for your sins;
he died for mine too
but that's just where it begins

I don't rule out
that God has come to earth
I don't rule out
that he came by his birth.

But perhaps this God
about whom the stories are told
is the same God
to which my beliefs hold.

You call a woman named Mary
the Mother of God.
I call his mother the Goddess
now is that so odd?

My beliefs and yours
are not quite far apart;
we just have different names
for the faith in our heart.

There truly is not
wrong or right
I know the great One hears me
when I pray at night.

Whether he or she
whether one or three
I know my creator
truly loves me.

I have not judged you
so do not judge me
in time my dear
perhaps you shall see...

...that its not important
the faith you choose to be.
It's important you have faith
In the God that there be.

~~~~Source Unknown

Evolution of Dance

2007-02-12T12:24:00.000-08:00

This is too funny and I hope all of you copy and go to this website. I am sorry that I don't know how to add links into my page. But if you do, let me know and I will do it next time.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1ukaQnRpUa8

Which Nordic God or Goddess are you?

2007-02-07T06:54:00.000-08:00

You scored as Freya.

Freya

100%

Freyr

80%

Odin

80%

Sif

80%

Balder

80%

Hel

70%

Njord

70%

Skadi

70%

Heimdall

60%

Bragi

60%

Frigg

40%

Tyr

40%

Loki

30%

Thor

20%

Which Norse God or Goddess are you most like?
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Which Maiden of the Season are you?

2007-02-07T06:20:00.000-08:00

Which maiden of the seasons are you?

You are the Maiden of AutumnYour soul belongs to the season of death and decay. Death comes to us all, but the Autumn maiden does not fear this, she knows it is a natural part of life. The autumn maiden is a mature, woman, beautiful, but her face shows knowledge and understanding that only comes with time and age.
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My Girly Quotient is 52 out of 103!

2007-02-07T06:14:00.000-08:00

WHAT YOU HAVE:

[ x] You own over 10 bottles of nail polish
[ ] You own a designer purse
[x ] You own perfume that cost over $60
[ ] You have fake nails
[x] You have a more body/hair products than you can use
[ ] Your pet is a chihuahua/Pomeranian/Siamese/Yorkie
[ ] You have clothes/shoes/accessories for your pet
[x] You have enough clothes to cover an entire refugee camp.
[x] You have enough pictures to create your own wallpaper.
[ ] A pink comforter, walls or sheets. (Carpet, wall trim...ect)
Total so far: 5

Do you:
[ ] Spend more time at the mall than you do at home/work
[x ] Have a hair color that is not natural
[] Have "blonde moments" at least once a day
[x] Buy stuff because it's awesome and then never wear it
[x] Constantly keep your phone at your side
[x] Dance around in your room when nobody else is home
[ ] Have a name for your car
[ ] Know what celebrity is dating who and who broke up this week
[ ] Refuse to go out in public without makeup
[ ] Prefer to be called "princess"
Total so far: 4

DO YOU ADORE: *(I don't adore them! like/have/use them yes!)*
[x] Makeup
[x] Glitter
[ ]The Color Pink
[x] Shopping
[x] Jewelry
[x] Mirrors
[x] Chick flicks
[x] Shoes
[] Rainbows
[] Unicorns
[x] Disney Movies
[x] Candles
[x] Flowers
[] Stuffed Animals
[x] Purses
Total so far: 11

DO YOU SHOP AT:
[ ] Coach
[ ] Forever 21
[x ] Victoria's Secret
[ ] Guess?
[X] Claire's
[ ] Express
[ ] Delias
[x ] MAC
[ ] Sephora
[ ] Bebe
[x ]dillards
Total so far: 4

DO YOU SAY:
[x] Biotch
[x] Whatever
[x] Oh my gosh/goodness
[x] Hon
[] Fugly
[] That's hot
[ ] Dunzo
[x] Darling
[] Psh
[x] Cutie
[x] Hottie
[x] Skank
[x] Totally
[x] For Sure
[x] Fabulous
Total so far: 11

Do You Religiously Read:
[x] Cosmopolitan
[ ] Glamour
[ ] Marie Claire
[x ] Elle
[x ] Vogue
[ ] People
[ ] Us Weekly
[ ] Star
[ ] Self
[ ] PerezHilton.com
[ ] Dlisted.com
[ ] 17online.com
[ ] people.com
[ ] usmagazine.com
[ ] popsugar.com
Total so far: 3

Have You Seen:
[ x] Legally Blonde
[x ] Elizabethtown
[] Mean Girls
[ ] Now & Then
[ ] The Notebook
[ x]A Walk to Remember
[x] Sweet Home Alabama
[ ] Where the Heart is
[ ] Just my luck
[ ] John Tucker Must Die
[ ] Centerstage
[x] Bring it On
[x ] How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
[X] Mona Lisa Smile
[X] My Girl
Total so far: 8

Are you Addicted to...
[x ] America's next top model
[x ] Project runway
[x ] Desperate Housewives
[ ] The Simple life
[ ] 8th & Ocean
[x ]Sex & the city
[x ]Grey's Anatomy
[ ] The O.C.
[ ] Laguna Beach/The Hills
[ x] Nip/Tuck
TOTAL: 6

COUNT UP HOW MANY YOU CHECKED.......out of 103.
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Which Tarot Card Am I ?

2007-02-06T17:46:00.000-08:00

You Are The Wheel of Fortune

You represent the cycles of life, death, and rebirth.
You embrace change, the the ups and downs of life.
Fate is something you accept, even when you could possibly change things.
Big things tend to happen to you more than other people.

Your fortune:

Something huge is about to happen in your life, and you have little control over it.
You must accept your destiny, but luckily it is good fortune that has come your way.
Big things and big changes are about to come your way.
And while things will be intense for a while, they will be followed by a period of rest.

What Tarot Card Are You?

2007-02-06T17:40:00.000-08:00

Your Dosha is Pitta

You have a quick mind, a gift for persuasion, and a sharp sense of humor.
You have both the drive and people skills to be a very successful leader.
Argumentative and a bit stubborn, you have been known to be a little too set in your ways.
But while you may be biased toward your own point of view, you are always honest, fair, and ethical.

With friends: You are outgoing and open to anyone who might want to talk to you

In love: You are picky but passionate

To achieve more balance: Be less judgmental of those around you, and take cool walks in the moonlight.

What's Your Dosha?

Vaseline

2007-02-06T16:52:00.000-08:00

Vaseline
Body: Repost this if you laugh
A guy breaks into a house to look for money and guns and finds a young couple in bed. He orders the guy out of bed and ties him to a chair, while tying the girl to the bed he gets on top of her, kisses her neck, then gets up and goes into the bathroom.

While he's in there, the husband tells his wife: "Listen, this guy's an escaped convict, look at his clothes! He probably spent lots of time in jail and hasn't seen a woman in years. I saw how he kissed your neck. If he wants sex, don't resist, don't complain, do whatever he tells you. Satisfy him no matter how much he nauseates you. This guy is probably very dangerous. If he gets angry, he'll kill us. Be strong, honey. I love you." To which his wife responds, "He wasn't kissing my neck. He was whispering in my ear. He told me he was gay, thought you were cute, and asked me if we had any Vaseline. I told him it was in the bathroom. Be strong honey. I love you too!!"

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just spread the joke around

2007-02-06T12:44:00.000-08:00

Hello everyone I know I don't write much these days. And for that I am sorry. I have been looking at email today and got an e-newsletter from one of my favorite stores, The Twelfth House. I liked the message so much that I am going to republish a piece of it right here. It just seems to pertain a lot to my life right now. And I thought it might pertain to some of yours. This is just a piece of it that has a little to do with the fact that Valentine's Day is just around the corner.

But this is really a big romance week thanks to the connection of Sun and Neptune forming two very auspicious aspects. One is called a conjunction (where they meet in the sky at the same point) and the other is called a Parallel, where they are at the same "height" in space and together this makes for a whoppingly great time to Get Married, Launch a Business, Offer a Marriage Proposal, Open a dialogue with someone that has been estranged and Make Solid any kind of partnership. Perhaps I can find a way to help you remember let's see:

G et Married
L aunch a business
O ffer Marriage ( get engaged)
O pen up a Dialogue
M ake Solid any kind of Partnership

Well, I can't think of a word to help you remember to do these 5 things so you'll just have to read the Power Peek a couple of times and STAY POSITIVE!

Really now, in all seriousness it's called a Super Aspect and you would be wise to take advantage of it. If you were on the verge of starting something new but something held you back, take advantage of this cycle and take a leap of faith. It's always nice to remember that the forces around us are loving and supportive.

So I guess that is about it for now. I may post more later or not.

Blessed Be.

I'm Sorry

2007-01-30T12:17:00.000-08:00

Well hello out there. I am sorry that I haven't been posting much lately. I have been extremely busy with trying to get my website up and running. I have also been on the run a lot lately for the same reason. So know that I am checking up on all of my friends, but I don't necessarily post comments. I miss all of you and hope that you are all well. When things calm down a bit and my internet stops acting up I will be able to post more often. But I have been also posting more on Myspace and you can check the link on the side of this page at the top. But like I said it has more to do with my work. So that is about it for now.

Blesse Be.

I Can't believe the number is so high...

2007-01-15T19:34:00.000-08:00

My fine is...$745.60?!!!

I guess I was a naughty girl at one time. This one is really fun, play along...
What's your raunch factor? Let's put a dollar value on that!

Here’s how it works:
You don’t have to confess your answers, just the amount of your fine. And NO, it is not PER incident (otherwise, some of us would have totals more than the national debt!).

Bring up that calculator, and get going!

* Smoked pot — $10
* Did acid — $5
* Ever had sex at church — $25
* Woke up in the morning and did not know the person who was next to you — $40
* Had sex with someone on MySpace — $25
* Had sex for money — $100
* Vandalized something — $20
* Had sex on your parents’ bed — $10
* Beat up someone — $20
* Been jumped — $10
* Crossed dressed — $10
* Given money to stripper — $25
* Been in love with a stripper — $20
* Kissed some one who’s name you didn’t know — $0.10
* Hit on some one of the same sex while at work — $15
* Ever drive drunk — $20
* Ever got drunk at work, or went to work while still drunk — $50
* Used toys while having sex — $30
* Got drunk, passed out and don’t remember the night before — $20
* Went skinny dipping — $5
* Had sex in a pool — $20
* Kissed someone of the same sex — $10
* Had sex with someone of the same sex — $20
* Cheated on your significant other — $10
* Masturbated — $10
* Cheated on your significant other with their relative or close friend — $20
* Done oral — $5
* Got oral — $5
* Done / got oral in a car while it was moving — $25
* Stole something — $10
* Had sex with someone in jail — $25
* Made a nasty home video — $15
* Had a threesome — $50
* Had sex in the wild — $20
* Been in the same room while someone was having sex — $25
* Stole something worth over more than a hundred dollars — $20
* Had sex with someone 10 years older — $20
* Had sex with someone under 21 and you are over 27 — $25
* Been in love with two people or more at the same time — $50
* Said you love someone but didn’t mean it — $25
* Went streaking — $5*
Went streaking in broad daylight — $15
* Been arrested — $5
* Spent time in jail — $15
* Peed in the pool — $0.50
* Played spin the bottle — $5
* Done something you regret — $20
* Had sex with your best friend — $20
* Had sex with someone you work with at work — $25
* Had anal sex — $80
* Lied to your mate — $5
* Lied to your mate about the sex being good — $25

Seriously, how did my number get so high? I swear I have never had sex for money, but that's all I'm sayin'.
Tally it up and Title it…"My Fine Is…"
Do it, you just might shock yourself. Then, let me know so I can check yours out and I don't have to feel so naughty all by my lonesome. Chop, chop...

Sat Jan 13 2007 Horoscope for Me

2007-01-13T10:42:00.000-08:00

The outward results may not be dramatic, but nonetheless, you are experiencing some profound shifts at a soul-deep level. A change in attitude will eventually effect a change in your outer circumstances.

I got this in my email this morning. And I thought it was so appropriate. I do feel this way. I can't wait to get to work on my website. I want to blog again. I am getting along with my husband. Things feel good today!

Blessed Be.

An Inconvenient Truth

2007-01-11T13:17:00.000-08:00

Hello out there. I know that those of you that actually come to my site and read my blog are the kind of people that would like to learn more about taking care of our planet. I just watched the movie by Al Gore "An Inconvenient Truth" last night with my husband. I was distressed and dismayed at how quickly we are killing our planet and ourselves.

I have always been a granola hippie type girl. I have always tried to voice my opinion and work on ways of being kinder to our planet too. But I admit to also getting lazy and driving more than I should and using a lot of plastic and not buying organic whenever possible to save money or time.

But after watching this movie and seeing direct evidence of how quickly our planet is going to kill us because we are killing her. I am dismayed. But also opitmistic to know that we can change what we are doing. We can vote for people in office that will put into action plans that will save our planet's resources. We can reduce, recycle and reuse. We can shop at our local food coop. We can walk or ride a bike or public transportation instead of always using our cars. When we purchase a car we can choose one that is gentler to our ecosystem and on our wallets for the price of oil. We can use renewable energy sources like wind and solar power. We can used biodiesel fuel for diesel engines. We can use cars that run on flex fuel such as E85. We can plant lots and lots of trees. We can all change all or our household lightbulbs to energy efficient ones. And so many more!!! This also saves money!!

All of these things will help our local economies. They will help our planetary climate by reducing the amount of carbon dioxide released into the air. This will in turn help our personal lives. We won't have as many weather related disasters, such as wildfires, hurricanes, tornadoes, melting glaciers.

We all have to do something. I know it can be hard at first. But if we all start somewhere small in our lives we will all benefit. Then we can add more things to help and it becomes a snowball effect in a good way for ourselves, our children, and our planet.

"It is difficult to get a man to understand something when his Salary depends on his Not understanding it" Upton Sinclair.

Please pass this message on. Please see the movie. And Please check out the website www.climatecrisis.net.

Marriage Counseling

2007-01-11T12:24:00.000-08:00

Helo again. I know I have been rather infrequent these days in posting. I used to post nearly every day. Now I get consumed with watching t.v. and dealing with my 3 year old. I know I can be very lazy. And also since my husband and I have been on difficult terms he is sleeping in the basement. That is where the computer is. So of course I don't get as much time as I would like to be on it and blogging or doing my work for my new website.

So my husband and I went to our first session of counseling yesterday. It seemed fruitful. I was acutually surprised at how much we actually talked about. I have been saying all of the same things I say at home. But my husband seemed to listen more. At least it seemed like it at the office. Now we will have to see if we are able to put some of the stuff into practice.

The things I need for him to work on are his being responsible for himself. He likes to act like a spoiled teenager. He wants all of the fun of being an adult with none of the responsiblity. I of course have let him get away with this our entire relationship. And before we had a child it was annoying and even led me to call off our wedding 2 weeks before the day. But then we went to a counselor twice and I thought we could handle things. Plus I really wanted to be married and to have a child. So I got married anyway. And of course I still loved him. But then we had a child and the responsiblity for him has been overwhelming for me. I already feel like a single parent a lot of the time. And all of this has made it so that I want a divorce. But I do love my husband and want a good father for my child. So we are trying counseling. I hope it works. If not hopefully it will help us to be better parents to our child.

And as all of you know my husband is bipolar and goes to counseling every other week. Well we are actually using his therapist for our marriage counselor. She is all we can afford right now. And since his illness seems to be in check she and my husband are both willing to make the sessions just about the two of us for a while. I am totally grateful for that. I wish we could afford to go at least once a week or more right now. But unfortunately that isn't possible. His therapist is even on a sliding scale. But he makes too much money to get a bigger discount. So we will have to work with what we have.

If anyone wants to comment or has some advice please let me know. I could use all of the support I can get. Thanks to everyone in advance.

Blessed Be.

Vacation...All I Ever Wanted

2007-01-04T17:38:00.000-08:00

Well, well, well. So much has happened in a short amount of time. As we all know there was not one but 2 Huge Blizzards in about a week. Thank the goddess that I was only stuck in one of them. And as of this evening we are getting more snow. Somewhere between 4-8 inches by tomorrow afternoon. Now this is the reason that I always wanted to live in Colorado!! But for the last 10 years or so we don't get this much snow. So I am glad to finally have it. But it does cause some problems.

And now for the vacation. Well I left my home on Christmas Eve and got to the airport 3 hours before departure. I wanted to be safe. I checked all day to make sure my flight wasn't going to be cancelled. And lucky for me it all went off without a hitch. I got to St. Louis around 10:30pm and made it to my sister's house about an hour later. So all we did was get ready for bed. The next morning Santa had been there and there were tons of presents. My son was overjoyed. I also raked it in. Plus my sister was so sweet as to make this french toast casserole thing with apples and cranberries. One of the best things I ever tasted. My sister and I don't get along on a lot of stuff, but food is not one of them. She is a fabulous cook!!!!

My sister had to spend Xmas day with the inlaws. And of to Granny's house we go, my son, myself and my mother were on our way driving to Paducah Kentucky. Home, Sweet Home. My cousin and my Aunt P. had just arrived before us. And we all sat around giving more gifts and waiting for the rest of the family for a great dinner. And then for more gifts. Have I mentioned I have a large Catholic family? So it was a day for gluttony. Fun was had by all.

The next day my cousin M. and my Aunt P. and my son and myself piled in another car and went to Lexington Kentucky and stayed till Friday. Then back to Paducah for my Granny's 80th Birthday party Saturday. Big bash with lots of relatives. Around 50 people ( and no that is not everyone). But we had made enough food for 200. So there were a lot of leftovers that we all ate for days. For breakfast, lunch and dinner. Needless to say that I am sick of pigs in a blanket. I only wish we had more cake left over.

Sunday we went to Mayfield Kentucky to see my Uncle J. We stayed for a few hours, had lunch and hung around the farm. My son loved going for rides on the Mule ( the 4 wheeler type vehicle, not the animal) Then back in the car for another 4 hours back to St. Louis in New Year's Eve. We arrived around 10:30 and once again got ready for bed.

Monday we hung around the house with my sister and her husband. Then the kid had a huge meltdown. He had a bunch on the trip. He was sick when we left so he didn't have the greatest time. Tuesday I made a belated Birthday dinner for my sister and came home yesterday.

So that is the gist of it. I am too tired right now to go in any more detail. But my son got tons of Thomas the train gear. So much that I had to ship it back here. Not enough room in the suitcases to bring on the plane.

Blessed Be.
Hope everyone else had good Holidays!!!

Let It Snow

2006-12-23T12:46:00.000-08:00

Hello everyone. I know it has been some time since I have posted anything. I have been in the process of getting ready to leave for vacation in St. Louis and Kentucky as well as still trying to purchase a car. Then we had to get dumped on by the snow. So there is a lot to say.

First my husband and I are trying to work things out. He has been home now for a couple of days. But he is staying in the basement so that we can have our seperate space. We have at least been able to be civil to one another regarding our child and paying the bills and getting stuff done around the house.

Then we purchased a new car. I have been a little leary of posting anything until we found out about our financing. They actually let you take the car home until the financing comes through. Which of course I think is ridiculous. But I didn't make the rules. So as of right now we have a 2006 Kia Spectra in white. It is a nice little car and the perfect size for our family. Plus it has 10 year/ 100,000 mile warranty bumper to bumper and powertrain. So that is the main reason we bought this car.

Next I have been getting all of our clothes and the house ready to go on vacation. I was completely packed and had bought all of the Christmas presents. I was totally ready to go. But then we got hit with the Blizzard. And of course got bogged down in 3 FEET of snow. With drifts 5-6 feet high. It has been quite the feet of shoveling to move all of the snow just to get out the front door. Then to shovel enough to get to the car that is only 30 feet away. I took pictures with a regular camera. But we all know how I am about actually getting them developed. Luckily my mother in law took a few pics at her house and emailed me. The pics in the snow are of my niece at her grandma's and they are trying to dig their way out. The other pics are of my son opening Xmas presents from grandma since we are leaving town for Xmas.

So with the snow I am now going to leave for my vacation on Sunday, Christmas Eve. I just hope everything works out. I will try to get back to you all soon to let you know how things went. I hope you all have a great Holiday whatever you celebrate.

Blessed Be. Merry Yule and Merry Christmas.

2006-12-09T21:23:00.000-08:00

There is this dark abyss in my heart.
It is black and colorless
The absence of light
And it feels like there is no way out.
The lonliness is overwhelming.
I can't move
Forward or back
I fell heavy and alone
My child is my only salvation
He keeps me alive
Thoughts of him keep the darkness just at bay.

Help

2006-12-09T12:20:00.000-08:00

It must be nice to be able to write about sweet and wonderful things. I haven't had a lot of that over the last couple of years. Of course there is always the occasional day that things go well. Especially with my son. Thank the Goddess for him. Without him I would have nothing.

But lately for those of you that are in constant contact none of this is a surprise. But my husband is still somewhat manic. He and I got in a huge fight. I started yelling and screaming at him ( which I know is childish and ineffectual) because he wouldn't get out of bed again to go to work. He does this daily. I just got so fed up with being his mother and caretaker. I have a 3 year old son and he is hard enough to handle. I don't need and overgrown teenager to deal with too. I have to tell him when to take his medicine and make sure he takes it. I have to get him out of bed every day with a struggle to go to work. I have to ask him if he has washed his clothes for work. I have to make his food and he doesn't want to eat it. I have to make sure we have groceries. I have to clean the house with very little help from him without constant nagging.

Basically I am tired of all of it. I told him I wasn't doing him any more favors till he started treating me with respect. And that I wasn't going to pick him up from work till we talked it out. He just proceeded to call me all day berating me and threatening to quit his job if I didn't pick him up. Finally I called him back and said that if we could work things out and he would treat me better I would pick him up. And I did. He didn't speak to me. I dropped him off at his friends house to be with them for the evening ( his regularly scheduled game night). He still didn't speak to me. He got home at 11pm and he went to bed. He still didn't speak to me. He was too tired. So the next morning when the alarm went off I didn't get up to take him to work. He got angry and wanted me to take him. He yanked the blankets off me and my 3 year old kid. My child was whining to stay in bed. Mind you it is now 5 am. My husband threatens to take the rental car we have. He isn't allowed to drive it because he isn't on the paperwork. So I hid the keys. I have also had his ATM card since last week when his mania started. So he is tearing the house apart to find it. I didn't say anything other than lets have a calm conversation and we can work this out and you will be on your way to work. He didn't like that and he called the police. They said it wasn't an emergency so he called local police and told them of an impending domestic violence situation to get them to the house. I of course was sitting calmly in my pj's. I wasn't about to hit him. But I guess he was angry enough to make the police believe it. The cops show up and he is calm outside. So they tell me since the ATM is in his name and regardless of his Bipolar he gets to have his ATM back. Sorry that it will most likely cost a ton of money. And that I should call his doc when they open up.

Later that day he calls and asks if I want to look for a car that night. I didn't want to shop for a car when so much was wrong with us. So he decided that he would stay at a friends house. And since all of this he has now missed 5 doses of his meds. And my friend saw him last night at the movies and thinks he has been drinking. Which is definitely bad for his Bipolar.

So what to do now? Do I wait for him to come home? Do I try to talk things over with him? Do I say forget all of this and try to find my own place and my own car? All of the options seem to suck to me. I don't know what to think or what to do.

Goddess Bless )o(

Husband is Hypomanic

2006-12-02T10:44:00.000-08:00

Well as of today we are having a little problem with my husband. He is in the middle of another episode. He hasn't been sleeping much for the last few days. And he has been throwing up every day because his meds make him sick to his stomach. So he hasn't had enough of his meds in his system. I gave him some of his Zyprexa, which is his heavy duty anti-psychotic last night to get him to sleep. But he hasn't been sleeping much yet. I was just hoping to keep him from going into the hospital again. But if he gets any worse today I will be taking him back to the hospital. So I just need to wait a little while. If he gets better enough to wait till Monday I can talk to his doc then. If not it is off to the emergency room.

Hopefully all will go well and I will be sure to update when I have time.

Thanksgiving weekend

2006-11-26T14:53:00.000-08:00

Well hello all! I know it has been ages since I have written anything. It has just been a madhouse around here. First the car and then getting ready for Thanksgiving.

Well we got a rental car for a while since the car was totaled. We will be getting a check in the mail as soon as we send them the title for the car. But since it was a holiday, this all has to wait till tomorrow.

And in the meantime I have been cleaning the house like a mad woman. My sister and her husband came into town for Thanksgiving and to visit my father and stepmother in Colorado Springs. So my house needed to be spotless for them. Luckily we have a finished basement with a full bath and set it up for them. The only problem is that we don't have extra beds for guests. So she brought along a blow up mattress from home. Everything went swimmingly. They had their own space to retreat to, plus she only stayed with us overnight. Then we went to the Springs to visit my parents for the Big Turkey Day.

Turkey Day went pretty well. We had a ton of food. And everyone got along pretty well. D. got a bunch of presents from my parents for Xmas since we will be going to Kentucky for the Holidays. He got a "leather" motorcycle jacket, a kids laptop, some books, and a race car. Of course he likes the race car best. My sister gave him that one. Plus we brought his train set from home. He is obsessed with Thomas the Train and the movie "Cars" right now.

Then on Saturday my sister came back up to Denver before they left town. We all went to the Butterfly Pavillion. D. loves it. He thinks of the 'Shrunk " exhibit like a playground. We even got there in time to see the new butterflies released for the day.

So all in all we had a great time. My sister and I didn't have a single argument. It was wonderful.

I hope you all had as good a time as us. Hopefully my sis will email me some pics so I can post them.

Blessed Be.

The Car was Totaled

2006-11-16T09:10:00.000-08:00

Well hello again. I know I keep forgetting about my page. Sorry for that. It has been a long week. Unfortunately the car was totaled. I know most people want that to happen so they can get a new car. But our car wasn't worth much. So now we have to look for a car. I was hoping that I could do this online more easily. But cars in our price range are hard to find. We only have about $1000. So if anyone knows of a good deal on a used car with hopefully less than !00,000 miles and it has to be a 4 door. That would be great. Plus it needs to pass emissions and all of the usual stuff. We really can't afford a car that needs a lot of work right now. That is about it.

Blessed Be.

2006-11-12T01:17:00.000-08:00

Sorry, I just realized I hadn't posted anything in a while. Well some of you already know my news. My husband got into an accident on Tuesday evening. He was on his way home from work and entering an onramp to the main street to our house. He was going about 20 mph and was looking in his blindspot to the left to look for oncoming traffic. Well in that time the person in front of him stopped short. My husband slammed the brakes, but it was too late. He rear ended the person in front of him. So the whole front end of our car now looks like an accordian. It is totally undrivable and we think it will be over $3,000 to repair. The car is only worth about $1,100. So our insurance is most likely going to total it. Which in a way sucks more. Since we have a $500 deductable we will only get about $600. We can't buy a car for that. And of course we don't have any money in savings. So what are we going to do? We have no idea. But we are already in the process of looking for another car. But hey the good news is that right now we have a loaner car that is pretty nice.

And of course I am still sick. I lost my voice today and I have been coughing up a storm.

Blessed Be.

What's Real!

2006-11-05T16:40:00.000-08:00

"WHATS REAL!
FAKE FRiENDS: Never ask for food.
REAl FRiENDS: are the reason you have no food.

FAKE FRiENDS: Call your parents Mr/Mrs
REAl FRiENDS: Call your parents DAD/MOM

FAKE FRiENDS: bail you out of jail and tell you what you did was wrong.
REAl FRiENDS: Would sit next to you sayin "Damn ... we fucked up ... but that shit was fun!"

FAKE FRiENDS: never seen you cry.
REAl FRiENDS: cry with you

FAKE FRiENDS: Borrow your stuff for a few days then give it back.
REAl FRiENDS: keep your shit so long they forget its yours.

FAKE FRiENDS: know a few things about you.
REAl FRiENDS: Could write a book about you with direct quotes from you.

FAKE FRiENDS: Will leave you behind if that is what the crowd is doing.
REAl FRiENDS: Will kick the whole crowds ass that left you.

FAKE FRiENDS: Would knock on your front door.
REAl FRiENDS: Walk right in and say "I'M HOME!"

FAKE FRiENDS: Are for awhile.
REAl FRiENDS: Are for life.

FAKE FRiENDS: Will take your drink away when they think you've had enough.
REAl FRiENDS: Will look at you stumbling all over the place and say "Bitch drink the rest of that you know we don't waste shit."

FAKE FRiENDS: will talk shit to the person who talks shit about you.
REAl FRiENDS: Will knock them the fuck out

FAKE FRiENDS: Would ignore this
REAl FRiENDS: Will send this to all there real friends and hope to get it back!!

2006-11-03T12:50:00.000-08:00

RevGalBlogPals Friday Five: Nothing but the Tooth!

1) The Tooth Fairy
love her. I love all fairy's. And especially those that give money away. I know it is actually payment, but it doesn't seem like a fair trade as an adult. and since my kid is too young I don't even know how much he will get.
2) Flossing
right now it is several times a day. I have some issues with my teeth. I have a cavity and I don't have insurance. So I am using a lot of over the counter stuff to keep the food out of it and reduce the pain.
3) Toothpaste Brands
Tom's Natural toothpaste in Cinnamint. I love it!!. After I got pregnant and regular toothpaste made me ill, I switched and I don't really want to go back.
4) Orthodontia for Adults
i wish our insurance would cover it! i really don't think it's all vanity. i mean if you're willing to wear braces as a grown-up, then you have real issues about your teeth and it's likely a very good thing you are taking care of it! ( I feel the same way as hipchick)
5) Whitening products
Well they make your teeth sensitive. And I already don't have the greatest genes when it comes to my teeth. They are very brtittle in my family. So I have used them a couple of times. But I don't recommend them. Plus they are made with hydrogen peroxide, the same stuff to bleach your hair.

The days after Halloween

2006-11-02T15:26:00.000-08:00

Well hello and I hope everyone had a fabulous Halloween. Mine in fact will not be over till after this weekend. I have a costume party to go to. But this past weekend went pretty well as well.

First on Saturday I went out with some friends and we all dressed up and went to the bar. I was a the Wicked Witch of the West of course. We all had a good time while we were out. My one friend was a dark fairy and another was a wizard and her date was a jester. But we also had a good time looking at all of the other costumes out there. My favorite was a guy dressed as Edward scissorhands with his date that looked like Wynona Rider. But I don't think they won. But they came in Second. The first place winner was a guy dressed like Yosemite Sam. It was awesome.

Then on to Monday. My husband and I took our son to one of the local highschools for Trick or Treat Street. They dress up the hallways in cartoon themes and give out candy to the little kids. It is safe and warm. Since it is always cold and most of the time snowing here, we like to stay indoors. Our son was Buzz Lightyear. He just loves him. And he got a ton of candy. Should last us the whole year.

And on Halloween we went to the local mall. I dressed up as Cleopatra. It was easier and a lot less makeup that wasn't as itchy. And our son was Buzz again. So off to get more candy. But my husband took our son to the playground first so by the time we got to the mall, our son was pretty tired. He didn't really want to be wearing parts of his costume anymore. And he wasn't being his usual polite self. So we cut the night short and went home to watch movies. So fun was had by all.

Unfortuanately, my husband has had a pretty bad cold and now has passed it on to our son. I just hope I won't be next.

Blessed Be.

2006-10-31T00:15:00.000-08:00

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Ahh Potty Training

2006-10-30T23:17:00.001-08:00

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Ahh, Potty training!! If only it were that easy!

2006-10-30T23:17:00.000-08:00

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Darkness Falls

2006-10-25T03:44:00.000-07:00

I am in a dark place again. I am feeling a lot like I did 10 years ago. I started my period two weeks early and the pms is really sucking. I am actually about done with that time of the month. And it was shorter than usual. But it hit me hard. I don't know what the f@#$##$ is going on with my mind right now. I am totally sad and just want my husband and kid to take care of themselves. I don't want to be the mother and wife today. Don't get me wrong I still love them very much. I am just tired of the responsibility right now. I really need a break. But of course my husband is sick. So I have mom duty 24/7. And of course this is nothing new for any mother. But it is getting to me.

And I am not getting enought sleep either. So I am just angry and yelling a lot. I don't want to be like that. Especially to my kid. He isn't doing anything terribly wrong. He is just getting on my nerves a lot. Plus he is potty training more seriously now. He is constantly taking off his diaper.

The messed up thing is that I don't really want to hang out with any of my friends right now either. And I am not really wanting anyone to necessarily comment. I just needed to get my feelings out. And this is the place I do that.

Hey the good thing is that I have been working on my work blogs a lot tonight. And yet it is very early morning. This not sleeping at night thing is sucking too. Plus I am listening to some pretty depressing music at the moment. But in another way it helps.

2006-10-14T23:14:00.000-07:00

As a lot of you know I don't exactly get a long real well with my sister. She and I just have different points of view on pretty much everything. However she is about 5 months pregnant and is having a terrible problem. She has developed this terrible rash that only effects 1 in 60,000 pregnancies. And mostly effects women who have autoimmune disorders like hypothyroidism. Which she has. Mostly the thyroid thing just makes her tired and difficult to lose weight. And that, I don't really pay much attention when she complains. But this rash is called pemphigoid gestationis. And it has devistating effects. She will most likely get these terrible blisters that crust over and ooze all over her body. Right now it is in the early stage and is a really bad rash with little bumps all over her body that itch incessantly. Unfortuantely there is no cure. And the treatment sucks too. She can only use oral steroids to help the itching but not fix it completely. Plus the effects on the baby are unsure. And don't have the greatest track record. The rash will most likely last her entire pregnancy and for at least 2 months beyond. And if she wants to have more children in the future she would have to endure this again. The baby could get the rash as well. Most likely the baby wouldn't have it for long and no long lasting effects. But my sister could keep getting this until she reaches menopause. Just because of hormones. And the worst part is that her flesh could get necrotic and die off. She could end up with these black patches. Basically it is a lot like being a lepar (sp?). I looked it up and so did she. It really isn't a pretty picture.

But before I had a chance to look up all the pictures and info on the net I went searching through my herbal books and nutritional books for home remedies. I found a couple that might help. She could take a bath in mint leaves. She could use aloe vera, witch hazel, and take vitamins A, C, E. and Niacin. Plus there is this stuff called Collidial Silver that is a natural antibiotic. I told her all about the different things and she said that the aloe and the witch hazel was making it a little more bearable. I just hope she does o.k.

So please everyone pray for her and hope she gets some relief. She may even have to quit her job if it gets too bad. I wanted her to get some perspective on others and have some empathy. But I never wanted her to go through something so awful.

Blessed Be. I Love You Lolly!!!

2006-10-14T00:52:00.000-07:00

There is a lot to say finally. I have a little time.

But first the reason I haven't been on in the last two days is a massive toothache. I think I have cracked or have a very deep cavity in my molar. Which totally sucks. And even though I was brushing my teeth like mad and taking a ton of ibuprofen, it wasn't helping. So I look in my medicine cabinet. And lo and behold my husband had some leftover pain killers from when he had a wisdom tooth pulled a couple of months ago. But it was Tylenol with codeine (sp?) Unfortunately I don't do well on narcotics. They always make me sick to my stomach and make me feel really weird. But it said to take it with food and I did. It delayed the effects for about an hour. But finally no pain!!! Yeah. And then the nausea hit. But the kid was taking a nap and so did I. Then the kid woke up and I was feeling miserable. The pain was gone but feeling sick to my stomach stayed. And my it was my husband's night out with his friends. So I had to get up and take care of the kid. Of course he was hungary and needed his diaper changed, and water for his sippy cup. Thank goddess that he is a tall kid. He was able to reach a couple of the things he needed and he helped out a lot. Finally my husband came home and helped put the kid to bed for the night and me too. We woke up really late today for the same reason. And my beautiful child is very sweet when I am ill. He wants to make it better. I love him so much. And unfortunately for my husband he now had a bad cold.

The weekend was eventful. I had a lot of people in town and a lot of things to do. One friend was in town, but not for fun. But it was so wonderful to see her. And then the next day my in laws came to town. I had to go to the Springs to visit a friend and to do a little bit of work for my new business venture. That was a lot of driving. Then I get back to Denver and my kid and husband aren't home. They are with the in laws. I knew they would be, but I was missing my family after being gone all day. Plus the weather was rainy and cold and it was a good night to stay inside and cuddle. The rest of the week was spent with the inlaws. Until our car broke down. It had all kinds of crap wrong with it. Thankfully my husband had the day off to spend with his family. So we took the car in to get fixed. It was supposed to cost over $1,200 for everything. So we couldn't afford that. We got only about half of the work done. And we couldn't affford that either. But my father in law came to the rescue and paid for it. Plus we hung out all day going to the mall and putt putt and a movie while they were fixing the car.

So it has been a busy week. Hopefully the weekend will be a little slower.

Blessed Be.

Too long between posts

2006-10-10T01:50:00.000-07:00

I am sorry that I haven't posted anything in so long. But my last post is totally true. I haven't had the time really. Especially now that I have a total of 4 blogs to fill with endless musings. Of course 3 of them are the same, just on different sites. But still it is a lot of work. Plus I have family in town and I had to leave town and go to the Springs for some work and fun. It has been a little tiring. Not to mention that I have caught a cold from my lovely child and proceeded to lose my voice.

When I have more time in a day or two I will write what has happend over the last week. I love you all and hope to hear from you soon.

Blessed Be.

Update

2006-09-30T00:00:00.000-07:00

Hello again. Sorry to take so long between posts. I have been very busy online lately. I have been researching quite diligently for my soon to be metaphysical store. My husband and I have decided to go ahead and purchase 2 years of web hosting. So that we can get started on all that code to make my store pretty and useful. I have been looking for wholesalers and distributors. As well as looking for small business informations regarding licensing and tax stuff. And of course I am also looking for web graphics and designs that are hopefully free or very cheap. And we also have to create a link so that all of my friends can put it on their blogs as well as having web rings. I will be using all of you to help me advertise!! ha ha.

I have been very excited about the whole store thing. But there has been a lot of upheaval in my life as you well know. So I have been a bit emotional as well. And it doesn't help that I just started with PMS issues as well. I have had days where all I wanted to do was cry for no reason. Sometimes I get really annoyed with being a woman.

Other than that things are pretty quiet around here.

Blessed Be.

My Future

2006-09-20T17:07:00.000-07:00

Hello I thought I would try to write about something more cheerful than the other posts I have had lately. There are good things happening even though it can be tough at times.

Anyway I want to let everyone know and try to get everyones support of my endeavor. I am in the process of researching and getting together the makings of an online business. I have always wanted a Metpahysical Book and Gift store. So that is what I am doing. I actually have been rather obsessed with the idea. But now I actually have my husband on board.

Since he is a computer geek and so good at it, he is helping me with the techincal issues. And my cousin owns her own boutique gift and clothing store, so she is giving me the business advice and connections. And one of my dearest friends has a beautiful daughter with a really cool name and very cute picture of when she is a baby and that will be part of my logo. And to get that logo together and some of the web design, my sister in law just happens to be a graphic designer. So lucky me. I have all the things necessary in life to get this done. Except one, money.

But I am trying to get around that one as well. I may have found a way to get into this with very little overhead to start. And then I am trusting it will grow from there. Eventually I want to have an actual storefront. But I know that is down the line a bit. It will take a lot more money and information, and credit.

So here I am asking for everyones input and information and advice. Please feel free to leave comments at will with the necessary info. But please refrain from being a spoil sport. I have had enough naysaying lately. I just want to go forward with my grand idea and make it work.

My Dad Is In The Hospital

2006-09-20T11:18:00.000-07:00

My dad is in the hospital for having pneumonia. And the messed up part is that he has been sick for the last 2 months and I didn't know about it. My stepmother has left me a few messages over the last week, but she said she called just to say hi. And my dad has been in there for the last 2 weeks after having major surgery. They had to put in a chest tube and do a procedure where they scraped out his lungs. Plus he has a broken rib and blood that was pooling in his lung. He has been on oxygen and antibiotics for 2 months. But the first course didn't work and one day when he was leaving his house to go to the doctor to get an x-ray he tripped on his oxygen tube and fell down his front steps. That is how he got the broken rib.

So my husband finally tells me last night when I was at the mall that I needed to call my Step mom and find out what is going on because my dad is in the hospital. I was pissed. He had forgotten to give me the message which my mom left on Friday. So I just went on about my life and had a good time. Plus I went to the Springs to visit friends and I was a block away from the hospital he is at and I didn't know.

So I called my sister last night after talking to my stepmother. My stepmother said she didn't call my sister because she is pregnant and didn't want to unduly upset her. My sister was obviously pissed when she found out and of course says she is not a fragile flower. My sister is upset also because she lives so far away and can't come out here.

I called my dad just a few minutes ago to see how he is. My stepmother has a bad habit of exagerating to make things sound better in her own mind. So I didn't really know the extent of his condition. He sounds pathetic and weak. But his spirits are hgh. He has only been on solid food for 2 days. Before that he has been on a feeding tube. And after his surgery they had him sedated for 5 days so he could recuperate. But they are still going to keep him there for at least 5 more days. He can't hardly get out of bed. But they want him up and walking around. His incision is about 12 inches or more long. They cut through his back to get to his lungs. And of course he says it is pretty sore. And they have him on breathing treatments. And some steroids to help clear up his lungs, plus antibiotics.

The only good thing so far is that he says his back is feeling a lot better. Partially because in the course of being sick he has lost over 30 pounds. Plus he said they did something else for him in surgery for his back as well. I don't know what pain killers they have him on. But that has been a big problem in our family for a long time. MY dad is basically a junkie. He has been addicted to some form of a drug or another all of my life. Right now and for the last 15 years it has been prescription pain killers for his back. But before that it was street drugs.

So with all of this I hope he will finally get better. It has been a difficult road for him and for my sister and I. I love him a lot, but it can be really painful to even be around him. So I think I am going down to visit him when he gets out of the hospital, but I am not sure. I will be updating, becasue I will be calling him everyday.

Blessed Be.

2006-09-19T23:29:00.000-07:00

AMAZINGLY SIMPLE HOME REMEDIES

1. If you are choking on an ice cube, don't panic. Simply pour a cup of boiling water down your throat and presto! The blockage will be almost instantly removed.

2. Clumsy? Avoid cutting yourself while slicing vegetables by getting someone else to hold them while you chop away.

3. Avoid arguments with the Mrs. about lifting the toilet seat by simply using the sink.

4. For high blood pressure sufferers: Simply cut yourself and bleed for a few minutes, thus reducing the pressure in your veins. Remember to use a timer.

5. Placed on top of your alarm clock, a mouse trap will prevent you from rolling over and going back to sleep after you hit the snooze button.

6. If you have a bad cough, take a large dose of laxatives, then you wil l be afraid to cough.

7. Have a bad toothache? Smash your thumb with a hammer and you will forget all about the toothache.

8. Spouse always nagging and complaining? Don't pay for an expensive divorce, a bullet only costs 11 cents.

Sometimes, we just need to remember what the rules of life really are:
-- You only need two tools - WD-40 and Duct Tape.
-- If it doesn't move and should, use the WD-40.
-- If it shouldn't move and does, use the duct tape.

Now for Some Real Tips to Remember:

* Everyone seems normal until you get to know them.

* Never pass up an opportunity to go to the bathroom.

* If you woke up breathing, congratulations! You get another chance.

* Be really nice to your family and friends... You never know when you might need them to empty your bedpan.

* Some people are like slinkies... They are not rea lly good for anything, but they still bring a smile to your face when you push them down a flight of stairs.

My Friend Had a Baby

2006-09-19T11:12:00.000-07:00

Well I didn't get a chance to post everything that went on last week. So I will catch you up.

A good friend of mine had her a baby boy 1 week ago. When I heard she was in labor I got ready and then waited for my husband to come home so I could have the car. When he got home finally I went to Target and bought a couple of things for the baby and my friend. I got some cute baby socks and a matching hat. Then for my friend I got her some bath gels and lotions and headbands for in the hospital. I just remember what I felt and looked like when I gave birth. And I also got her some flowers. I wanted my friend to feel like she was getting gifts too. It is a long arduous journey having a child and people need to notice that.

I stayed with her at the hospital till 4:30 the next morning. Her husband had left her the week before so she was alone. Her parents had her older son to take care of at home and couldn't stay with her. So I helped her learn how to nurse again. And changed diapers and got her food. Just all of the little things you need after having a baby. Plus I took a few pics. Of course they are on regular film so I don't have any to post.

I guess that is about it.

Blessed Be.

To See a Couple of Friends

2006-09-17T21:23:00.000-07:00

I went to the Springs to visit a couple of different friends I have. The first was a blast. We all had a good time and it was too short. Our kids played all afternoon. And all of us adults have a ton in common and can't wait to hang out again. My son didn't really want to leave either. He wanted to stay and play till he fell down from ehaustion.

But then I went to visit one of my other friend's. We have known each other since highschool. We have remained friends for 15 years. We don't always get to see each other as much as we would like. But once in a while we will call each other and chat. And at least once a year I see her and her kids. Which of course I have known all of the kids since birth.

But today she was in a bad mood. She has someone staying at her house with an additional 3 kids. And I guess they aren't the best roommates. The other chick doesn't pay rent or utilites. And she doesn't really help out around the house. Plus I guess her kids are not well behaved. So I knew this visit would be short.

But I didn't expect for my beloved friend to flip out when I said that I might come back down in a couple of weeks to her kids because of the Metaphysical Fair. And then her son asked what the fair was for and what it meant. I said it was for Witches and Pagans and had psychics and tarot card readers and oils and jewlery and stuff like that. My friend got very angry but motioned behind me that I was crazy to her kid. And he told me so. Then I said I didn't understand why she thought that since she used to go with me. I think she is actually the one who told me about Celebration Store. And took me to the fair the first time. We were still in highschool. Anyway she quickly said in a firm tone that it was time for me to leave. And then when we were in the garage getting ready to go, she said that what I told him was bad. That witches were bad.

I of course am devistated. I don't know if we will continue to be friends. She has changed her view points over the years. She is now a devout Catholic and a Republican. So we do have differences. But they usually don't cause much friction. So I am not sure where will go from here. I know I am probably jumping the gun. We will most likely make up. But I don't think it will be in the very near future. That woman can hold a grudge.

Blessed Be.

A Few More Pics From the Photoshoot

2006-09-15T13:39:00.000-07:00

My friend Lori Langston took these photos. And normally I wouldn't put a person's real name on here. But I have to give her credit. She is a great photographer. I just love her ideas and her eye.

Blessed Be.

Pics From The Photoshoot

2006-09-15T13:32:00.000-07:00

2006-09-12T00:37:00.000-07:00

I have a few things to say today. First I will start with the part that is about reflection and pause. Today of course is the Anniversary of 9/11. And all day it has been a sad one for me. Even though I didn't personally lose anyone in the attacks. I didn't know anyone in New York or D.C. or on Flight 93. But I have been watching all of the stories on tv today and feeling so bad and sad about all of the families that were touched by this tragedy. Mostly thinking of all of the kids that are now without one or both of their parents. It is so difficult to see those small kids and think about them growing up without them.

I know most people don't believe that anything truly horrible can happen to them. I however am very different in that respect. I know just how easily it can happen to me. I am always aware that a tragedy of some kind could happen to me or someone I love. And for that I get very emotional.

So with the refelection of the past I have been thinking how lucky I am that I have so many people that I love that are out there. Thank you for being there all of the time. I miss you and love you.

And now onto better news. This isn't really breaking information, just what I did yesterday. I was the hair and make up person for a photo shoot. A friend of mine is the artistic type and had this idea in her head for a while. But she was waiting for my schedule to clear up so that I could do my thing so the pics would turn out the way she wanted them.

The idea for the photos was Queeen Elizabeth I. So I made a girl up to look like the virgin queen. And then she had a woman that was supposed to be the lady in waiting ( she was Indian). Then there was a King or consort. And a black man as the Queen's lover. And the result of that union a mixed girl child. But the idea was also to be brought into the present by them wearing jeans with the costumes. It all sounds kind of weird until you actually see it. So when I get copies of the film I will post them. But the main idea was that the aristocracy of America doesn't really look like Paris Hilton. They look like the rest of us in America. All colors and loving anyone we choose.

We took the pics on the CU campus in Boulder. The old stone buildings and the the lake with the bridge were some of the settings. It was raining a lot of the day and it was cold. But everyones spirits were high. And we all had a good time. We might turn it into a series and do it again.

Blessed Be.

Pagan Schools

2006-09-09T16:16:00.000-07:00

Hello there. I went to a Wicca 101 class today at Isis bookstore. It was o.k. It was mostly stuff I already knew. But I checked out the store after and then I headed toward home. But I needed to make a stop at Herbs and Arts. When I was there I was talking to the owner and she gave me a great idea. There are a lot of pagan parents in the Denver/Metro area. And their school age children who are also pagan have a hard time at shool sometimes. So I guess there is an actual need for pagan schooling. I am very interested in the idea.

I have been wondering what we will be doing for our own son when it is time for him to go to school. I have looked into Montesorri schools and Waldorf schools. I like them both a lot. I like how they teach from a spiritual aspect and look at the whole child and how they learn. But they are really expensive. Just for kindergarten for one year part time is over $9,000. And it goes up as the child gets older.

So the chick at Herbs and Arts was saying how there are all of these grants you can get to start the school. You get the money for the building, the teachers, the books and everything. And I could have a metaphysical store in the school.

Then I started to look online for information. There isn't hardly anything. There is a lot of stuff for Christians, but not pagans as far as schooling. So I am taking any info any of you can give me. Plus what you think about the idea. It would take a ton of work. But I am liking the idea more and more.

Blessed Be.

2006-09-06T23:53:00.000-07:00

Your Scholastic Strength Is Developing Ideas

You can take a spark of inspiration and turn it into a full fledged concept.
You are talented at brainstorming, visualizing, organizing, and independent thinking.

You should major in:

Natural sciences
Computer science
Creative writing
Math
Architecture
Journalism

What Should You Major In?

I thought it was appropriate to look at this little quiz. Right now I am in total flux. I am not sure where I am going and I am trying to figure out how to get there. I am not sure if I want to be a hairdresser anymore. I am thinking more along the metaphysical stuff lately. And I am not sure if this thing helped me at all. Other than I already knew I could come up with good concepts. It is just putting things into practice that has always been difficult for me.

Metaphysical Fair Part 2

2006-09-03T23:56:00.000-07:00

Well now is the part where I tell you what happened over the next couple of days. As I said before I wanted to see 2 of my favorite speakers at the show.

The first was on Saturday and her name is Linn Gunsbirg. She is originally from New Zealand and I just love her. I lover her accent and her boisterous attitude. I just lover her energy. So I was looking forward to seeing her speak. She had a class on " How to connect with the other side". She is a psychic and healer. Plus she has other talents like sewing and crocheting. A lot like me. At least the last two. Anyway she talks about how she had her first "visions" and how she traveled and how she connects with other beings all of the time. Then she leads us into some deep breathing and a little bit of how to visualize to connect with other spirts. At first we are only learning to visualize anything. Then we are supposed to see a horse, maybe with an Indian( Native American) next to the horse. If there is a person that would be our spirit guide for the future. I had none. Just a horse. Then she talks some more about how when you think of someone that has died how you remember certain things from that person, like a smell or their favorite greeting or phrase or flower. And when those things arise out of nowhere that person in definitely there with you. And also when you are thinking of a living person that at that same moment that person is thinking of you. Always. Then she has us visualize a long halway with doors. We are supposed to see the hallway clearly and know what color it is, the floor and the ceiling. Plus we have to notice the doors. And which one we feel we need to go into. Then notice that door, the color, the door handle and step in. Then we are supposed to see a place to sit. Maybe two places to sit. And we should sit down. And then visit with the person or spirit that we were to connect with. I will not tell you exactly what I saw. It was too personal. But I will say that I saw someone I miss very much. and most of the people in that room were crying when they were in the middle and were finished.

Later on that same day I had a personal reading with LInn. She said that my money situation was going to get better immediately. And then even better still in 3 months. But that I should get a lotto ticket that very day. And I did, and no I didn't win. But she also said that I better get a handle on my marriage because I will be meeting someone fantastic in about 6 months in a work environment. So we will see.

I had originally wanted to see another woman there for another class. Her name is Judith Sauceda. She is Native American and I had a reading done by her many years ago. But by the time her class started I had been there for 6 hours and I was tired and out of money. So I went home.

But I saw so many beautiful things. There was this amazing buffalo drum that was about 3 feet across and $3000. It even still had some of the fur left on it in a carved design of a bull's head. And there were Navajo flutes that were beautiful and sounded so lovely. I was able to try it and I sounded pretty good. It was made of cedar and in the key of F#. It also had small pieces of tourqouise on it. Plus they had buckskin bags to carry it in. Total cost is about $300. And of course they had lovely beaded and velvet scarves. Many statues of gods and goddesses. They had t-shirts with clever pagan sayings on them and also buttons and bumper stickers. They had oils and wands and head pieces and crowns. The jewlry was also amazing. They had silver and gold and tons of crystals. Now the newest phase of jewlry seems to have drusy type crystals. Which I liked a lot. They are kind of like mini geodes. Part of it is smooth and polished and some of it is rough and covered with tons of smaller crystals.

And on my final day, today, I went to an Aromatherapy class. It was just the basics, most of which I already knew. But she let us mix our own and take home samples. Plus she was just a neat lady.

Well that is about it.

Blessed Be.

2006-09-02T23:18:00.000-07:00

You Are A Poplar Tree

People tend to look up to you, and it's a bit lonely at the top.
Inside, you are not always self confident, but you show great courage.
Mature and organized, you are reliable in any situation.
You tend to have an artistic or philosophical outlook on life.
You are very choosy in love and take partnership seriously.

What's Your Celtic Horoscope?

Metaphysical Fair Part 1

2006-09-01T21:12:00.000-07:00

Hello all. I went to the fair this evening for about 3 hours. I just wandered around and was just planning on looking tonight because I will be there for about 6 or 7 hours tomorrow so that I can see 2 different workshops by 2 of my favorite people.

Of course I found lots of great jewlry and I am always drawn to that. But I wanted to specifically look for magical tools today. I have been looking for a belly dancing hip scarf and a little cauldron. I found several of each. But I am very cheap. I find these things at different stores all of the time. But I hate to pay more than $ 20 for anything. So when the price creeps over $30 I really hesitate.

I ended up buying a blue hip scarf with gold coins for $24.50 and they are regularly $50. I am always looking for a bargain. So 50% was good enough for me. But there were several other scarves there that I loved maybe even more. For some reason I have been very attracted to the color green. They were gorgeous burn out velvet scarves. One had a goddess truning into a tree and the other was roses and vines with beading all over it. Both for $30. Normally too much for me. But I am thinking I might buy one tomorrow. I also bought a bamboo and sodalite necklace for $5 and a pretty silk wedding sari purse that is blue and gold like the hip scarf for $5 too.

My biggest problem now is to decide about the cauldron. The ones I like have either pentacles on them or the tripple crescent. But the tiny ones are $35 and I just don't want to pay that much. Plus I need something larger so I can do more than just incense burning. There was this fabulous cauldron that was big enough to make many meals out of it and sat on the floor with feet. It was $495. I don't know who would be able to afford something like that, but it was really cool.

I also found a beautiful crystal wand that is only $20. That is a steal as far as wands go, but I am not sure how it felt. It can be so difficult to tell when there is so many different kinds of energy rushing around at the fair.

So when I figure out what I want to do I will let you all know.

Blessed Be.

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2006-08-30T21:56:00.000-07:00

Well today my husband was supposed to get a docs note for work saying he could go back to nights. And they denied him because of liability issues. He is very upset. He likes that particualar job better. And the pay is a lot better. I have to say that I had already spent the bonus money on some important bills. Plus I was looking forward to getting the car every day. But now unless his boss decides he doesn't need the note anymore, my husband is going to be really annoyed for a while.

I am not sure how to make him feel better. It is a drawback of his illness. Plus his job doesn't know the real truth about why he couldn't work nights in the first place. So I am hoping that it won't affect his standing at his job either. We will know more in a couple of days.

Blessed Be.

Spiritual Reawakening

2006-08-29T00:59:00.000-07:00

Hello all. I guess all of this time I have been wallowing in my own mental crap has actually put me in a place to try to fix it. I have always been a spiritual person. But there are always times that I don't take the time to perform rituals or observe holidyas or the Moons as I should. This is partly becuase as a solitary Witch I don't have a "church" with a congregation or pastor to look to for guidance. And I don't have others to bounce ideas off of.

But I have been thinking a lot about how I am to deal with all of this mental and metaphysical stuff going on in my head. And then the commercials came on and I received the newsletter in the mail. The Celebration Metaphysical fair is coming this weekend. I am sooo happy. I actually have a little money so I won't feel like I can't get a reading and feel out of place. Plus two of my favorite speakers will be there on the same day. I may just go every single day to the fair to see everything. I have never been able to do that because for as long as I can remember I have worked weekends.

And I have invited a couple of friends to go along. They aren't really as into it as I am. But it is always fun to go with friends. I was thinking of getting another Aura painting done. But they are expensive and I already have 3. But they are always beautiful.

Plus with the belly dancing that I have been interested in lately, they usually have that kind of stuff for sale there too. So maybe I can find a good deal.

And with my renewed interest I have been rereading one of my favorite books, " Book of Shadows" by Phylis Curot. And I should be done with it by the weekend. And since we are in the midst of a waxing moon phase things are definitely looking up.

One side note, if I sent you an email about Mars being viewed lately, I have still not seen it. We have had cloudy skys all week. So I hope that I will be able to see it before the end of the week or I never will.

And does Mars being so close to the Earth have anything to do with all of my lightbulbs going out all over the house at nearly the same time?

Blessed Be.

2006-08-24T21:12:00.000-07:00

Well sometimes you just have to sleep on some information. Everything that I wrote about yesterday still goes for the most part. But I am not as upset about it anymore. I think I will be able to roll with it just fine.

And my son is doing o.k. He is just going through the terrible 3's, instead of terrible 2's. I don't know why that happened. He is just more whiny now. And he doesn't like to listen to what I say. He is more defiant sometimes. And defintely testing his boundaries. But other than that he is a wonderful kid. He is cute and says quirkly little things like all toddlers do.

Blessed Be.

More Change

2006-08-23T23:26:00.000-07:00

Well today when my husband got home from work he told me that his boss wants him to start working nights again, but only for 3 months. This concerns me a great deal. If any of you know anything about bipolar disorder, you have to be on a set sleeping schedule. And working nights can really mess that up. Plus if he is going to work nights it needs to be permanent so the schedule stays the same. The whole reason that he had his episode in March was because he was going back and forth from nights to days and back again. So he couldn't sleep. Then he started drinking to try to sleep. Which fucked up his meds and led to mania.

So of course I am worried. He did go to his therapist today and talked to her about it. She is going to talk to his psychiatrist to make sure it will be o.k. Because his boss needs a medical note saying he can work nights again. Because when he came back from the hospital they gave him a note for work that he could only work day shifts from now on.

At first when he told me I said I was moving out in a week if he works nights for only 3 months and then back to days. I will not be a party to helping him get manic again. It is too difficult to deal with. So he said he would ask his boss if it could be a permanent thing. And I said if his therapist does give him a note and talks with me first I might see how things go.

But I have a lot of conditions. First I have to have complete control of the money. So he can't spend it if he gets manic again. And second I have to take his car keys and house keys. So if I feel threatened I can stay in our house and he won't be able to come back in. Third , if I see a single problem I will call his doc and the police if necessary. He said he would see his doc immediately if he has any symptoms. But the problem is when he is manic he doesn't always know it.

So I am willing to try if his docs are o.k. with it. Hopefully his boss will make it a permanent thing. Especially since he hates working the day shift. He doesn't like the day job tasks. He loves nights. And he will make a bonus every month plus 10% night differential. But I said a little money now is not worth your health. He has to comply with everything or I am out.

The thing that sucks the most, is that things between us were finally getting back to normal. And now he wants to change it.

Blessed Be.

2006-08-22T22:48:00.000-07:00

Hello, there isn't really a whole lot to talk about. But I haven't posted for awhile. So here goes.

Anyway I have been feeling a little guilty lately. I haven't really been keeping up with the belly dancing routines. I still do some of the moves when I am just fooling around. But I haven't been doing it 3 days a week like I had planned. I still want to and I think I will start back up again. I just have very little will power. I am a tv junkie.

Plus I haven't been to Al Anon for the last couple of weeks. Last week was because my husband and both ended up with a crappy cold. This week our son has it. But today I just felt really nauseaous all day. Even though I got up at 6 am and did the dishes and made breakfast and cleaned the house.

I just feel like I should be doing more. I don't know why I have been so lazy lately. I just want to be a teenager and not give a shit about anything.

That's about all for me.

Blessed Be.

Online Support

2006-08-14T23:35:00.000-07:00

This is one of the many posts that are on this website that is an online support group from the Depression/Bipolar Support Association. I found it to be an excellent place for advice and comfort. I have only been on it for about a week. But in that time I was crying a lot and grieving the loss of the way my husband used to be and will most likely not be again. But I have also found that there are others out there with Bipolar and thier spouses that have hung in there and able to make their marriages work. I am so happy to have this now and wanted to share it.

http://dbsa.invisionzone.com/index

My process of finding my way through all of the crap from the last few months has been difficult. But there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I expect to still have bad days and good days like anyone else. But overall I think there will be more good ones.

Blessed Be.

Pointers to Help a Spouse Live with Mental Illness
...by Denise Delorie, Affiliate Co-ordinator, NAMI Maine

The mental illness your spouse suffers with is something that is happening to your entire family. All are affected and it is nobody's fault. It is not your fault, your spouse's or your children's fault. It is an unfortunate illness.

You cannot fix your spouse. There is nothing you can do to make him or her well, so don't feel compelled to try. What you can do is be supportive, loving and handling the everyday details and practical issues of life that he or she cannot cope with.

All members of the family have a responsibility to cope with the illness. Escape is not a helpful way of dealing with crisis. You all need each other.

The ill spouse must recognize and accept the illness, be willing to receive treatment, and if possible, learn to manage the illness. If the ill spouse is not willing to do these things, it may become impossible for the family to continue to support him or her. The family is not required to throw away their own lives for someone who refuses to cooperate. There are limits and they must be enforced without feelings of guilt.

Educate yourself concerning every aspect of the illness. Education brings compassion. Ignorance just encourages anger and fear.

Grieve your loss. It is a great loss. You need to allow yourself the time and energy to experience the entire process of grieving.

Get help for yourself to cope with this incredible challenge, either from your own counselor or a NAMI support group. You can't do it alone. Don't refuse to recognize your own need for help, just because the ill spouse is getting most of the attention.

Help your children understand the illness as much as their age allows. NO FAMILY SECRETS. Don't deny them the opportunity to learn about the illness, the unfair stigma attached to it, and developing their own skills in coping. It can be an incredible learning opportunity for them. If they need proof and help to understand it and their own feelings, get it for them.

Try to create a safe environment for the spouse to express himself/herself without feeling threatened, constrained or condemned. He or she desperately needs a nurturing, safe place to express the incredible frustration he or she is feeling about coping with mental illness.

You and your children need to share your feelings, honestly and openly. It's okay to feel angry and cheated. At times you may feel embarrassed by the ill spouse's behavior, avoid trying to protect your spouse by not discussing the problem with family or friends. Don't require your children to conspire with you in a code of "family secrecy." Family secrets will only isolate you from others. Remember that small children, by their very nature, assume that they are responsible for anything in their environment that goes wrong.

Never put yourself or your children in physical danger. If you sense your spouse is becoming dangerous, you should leave and call for professional help. You should never tolerate abuse of you or your children. Trust your instincts and intuitions on this one. Say, "no way" and mean it.

Become your spouse's advocate with the medical professionals, assertively involved in his treatment and medications. If the medical professional or psychiatrist won't cooperate with you, demand a different one! Treatment should involve the entire family, so find a professional who will work with the whole family. You know more about your spouse's illness than anyone else. Trust your instincts.

Coldly assess what your spouse can and cannot handle, the compensate assertively. Some people with mental illness cannot handle money, some household chores, time commitments and too much stress. You must not do things for your spouse that he or she can do for themselves. Don't rob him or her of their dignity.

Maintain your own identity; resist becoming consumed with your spouse's illness. Life goes on. You have an obligation to yourself and your children to take care of yourself and meet your own needs. You all must continue to develop your own interests and talents. You are a valuable human being, so don't play the martyr role and sacrifice yourself. That's just self pity. "Get a life."

Always hope for healing. The medications do work and new ones are being developed. You may get your spouse back whole some day. If nothing else, the experience will broaden and deepen you in ways you never imagined. Or, you can choose to let it destroy you, your family and your marriage. It is your choice.

Keep in mind that bad things happen to good people and you're no exception. You have not been singled out for a special persecution. Trying to make good choices in life won't protect you from misfortune. You haven't been "dumb" to "get yourself in this situation." It is not your fault. Life is not easy, we have to take what we get and make the best of it.

2006-08-13T16:27:00.000-07:00

Today I had a baby shower to go to. So I was getting ready of course to leave and when I get to the car, all of the doors are unlocked. Unusual since I always lock them. But then I get into the front seat and the glove compartment is open and so is the console in the middle. The lotion and a tape were in the front passenger seat. First I though my husband must have gone to the car to get something. Then I tried to start the car and the ignition switch plate is missing. SOME BASTARD TRIED TO STEAL MY CAR!!! I was furious. I ran into the house to tell my husband and to call the police. But then he said they weren't going to do anything. Especially since there wasn't anything taken. He told me to just go to the party.

Then as I was leaving I talked to the neighbors that were outside and closest to the house. I told them all what happened and told them to check thier own cars. And low and behold another neighbors' car was also broken into. And she had some cd's stolen.

The worst thing about all of this is that this is the 3rd freaking time that our car has been broken into since we have owned it. Before we had some cd's stolen and a cd player. Another time my husband's leather jacket and a cell phone were taken. And the car has been in a different spot each time. I am just so pissed off. This time nothing was taken becuase there wasn't anything valuable in it. The only thing I am worried about is that my husband's personal info might have been taken, because he tends to leave a lot of paperwork in the car. So I really don't need to go through his maybe having identity theft too. This sucks!!!

Blessed Be. I hope everyone else had a better weekend.

2006-08-10T14:41:00.000-07:00

Hey sorry about the last post a little. I am definitely pms-ing. I just have been really emotional lately. And I think I am channeling what my sister is going through since she is pregnant. I am trying to calm down now. I am trying to get centered. I definitely need more balance in my life. I am not entirely sure how to go about it though. So I am going to meditate a little and see where it takes me.

Thanks guys.

Blessed Be.

2006-08-10T12:33:00.000-07:00

I am so fucking overwhelmed right now. I am currently on a Depression Bipolar Support Assocciation message board for friends and family. This is something that I have definintley needed. But as I am reading all of this I can't stop crying. I don't know what to do. My husband's diagnosis seems so helpless. How do I stay married to someone who is going to be so all over the place. the money issues and the depression that I have felt as a result . This is so ludicrous. The feelings are so tumultuous. I want to see a light at the end of the tunnel and I just don't. I know that I just found this message board last night. And it is all to soon to tell. But damn it I am so tired of having these fucking ups and downs run my life. I want this to get better. I just don't know how. I think I am doing all of the right things. But who the fuck knows.

I probably look like I am handling all of this o.k. from the outside because most of the time I don't cry and feel bad. I go about my daily stuff. I take care of the kid. I clean the house. And I watch a lot of tv. I know not the best use of my time. but it is what I tend to do.

I have taken a few steps. I started Al Anon and I go once a week. I started excercising 3 times a week. And now I have this Bipoloar(BP) message board to go to. Why does it all have to take so long to feel like your are getting anywhere in your mind?

Does anyone have a clue?

Blessed Be

My Son's B-day Party

2006-08-05T22:59:00.000-07:00

Well I know we just had the party today, but luckily for me my mother in law has a digital camera. So I actually have pics already.

The weird thing is for the last 2 days, my son, has been complaining that and screaming"IT'S NOT MY BIRTHDAY!!!" I have no idea why. When I asked him he screamed he was upset. It has been a little odd. But that is a toddler for you. He didn't even want to get ready to go to Chuck E. Cheese today. I had to talk him into it so he could eat his cake. He helped me make the Buzz Lightyear cake too.

We just had family go to Chuck E. Cheese for the party. We did all the basic stuff. Pizza, drinks, the cake I brought, and of course rides and games. The kids had a blast. My son's cousin came and his grandparents did too. Along with his uncle. But his aunt had to work.

He got a lot more presents than I was expecting. And since his cousin's birthday was a couple of weeks ago, we gave her a present too, It was a baby Bratz doll. D. got a stuffed Buzz from us and 3 Bob the Builder vhs tapes. He got a winter coat and 2 shirts and a pair of pants from Grandma and Grandpa. Plus he got a Lego Buzz Space Ship building set and Toy Story 2 dvd. He got a special blue Buzz from his Aunt, Uncle and cousin. Plus he got this Leap Frog dominoes memory matching set. So he cleaned up with some fat loot. And he hasn't even gotten the presents from my side of the family yet, since his actual birthday isn't until Tuesday.

And when we came home all he wanted to play with were all of the Buzz Lightyear stuff. He played with all of them together and he wanted me to play with him too. I only thing that he wishes that he had a Woody or Emporer Zurg so he could shoot me. He even took a nap with the giant spaceship and the soft Buzz. It was very sweet. I should have taken a picture. But I am sure I will get another chance.

Blessed Be.

A Universal Lesson

2006-08-02T16:50:00.000-07:00

I was having some more low feelings today. Not for any particular reason. Nothing bad has happened. But I was feeling yucky about not having anymore kids in the future. Unfortunately at first I just ate some cookies and tried to watch t.v. But then there was nothing on. So I actually chose something a little more productive. I chose to do my belly dancing video instead of vegetating. I actually worked out for 54 of the 60 minute video. So props to me.

I know it isn't much, but at least I am trying to change my mindset lately. I know there isn't anything I can do about my husbands neurological condition. It is there for life. It is going to take some major adjusting. I was just thinking for some stupid reason that it would all go much quicker. Change rarely goes smoothly. I wonder what made me think this would be different.

I have always had a problem with patience. I guess this is another one of the Universe's many lessons for me. Hopefully I will get it this time. I am sick of going through this crap. So if any of you have any tips or secrets for dealing with change and patience, let me know.

Blessed Be.

2006-07-31T00:28:00.000-07:00

I am at a low point. And initially I wasn't going to write about it. But I felt like I should get this off my chest. Not so much for people to feel sorry for me, but so I can try to work through my feelings by seeing them in print.

I have been watching an intervention show and the Divine Secrets of the Ya Ya Sisterhood on t.v. They have brought the very real crap of my life rushing back to me. The literal craziness and the addiction that has always been in my life through others.

And with all of that I have been crying quite a bit, trying to figure out my life. Lately I have been trying to take things one day to one week at a time. But right now it is going minute by minute. I keep feeling like I don't know what to do about my husband and his mental illness. I know that he has no control over a lot of what happens when he is in an episode and that scares the living hell out of me. I am terrified that he will irrevocably harm my son or myself. I am terrified that he could kill us.

I don't think he is like that right now. He is medicated and going to his therapies like I asked of him. But the doctors and the books all say it is just a matter of time between episodes. He is not cured with the medication, only managed. And when a person is psychotic, they don't know what they are doing. They are following wierd voices in their head. They don't have logic like the rest of us. It all seems normal to them and that the rest of us are crazy.

I don't know if he will be psychotic in the future. The doctors don't know either. It is all just a big waiting game. It totally sucks. I don't want to wait for the other shoe to drop. I don't want to worry anymore.

Thanks for being out there. Don't get me wrong. Things have been going just fine around here. My husband hasn't shown any signs at all of another episode. He actually seems to be coming out of his depression a little bit. These are just lingering doubts that I have had since he was in the hospital last. The worst part is that I am truly loving him again. And I don't want to go through this crap again. And my son deserves to have the most normal life I can give him. So do I.

Granted the doubts that I have are pretty heavy. And I am sure if I was in a battered women's shelter, I would be told to get out now while we both can. But is it the same when someone is sick? Or is it all just a matter of safety? I don't have any answers and no one else does either. I know love is not enough. And we need to feel safe above all else. I guess I am just getting sucked in by the "honeymoon" phase. But trust me this is no honeymoon. And recovery and therapy is not a quick fix. So how long do I wait? How long before I know?

Blessed Be.

Dragon Boat Festival Part 2

2006-07-29T21:52:00.000-07:00

more examples of what we saw

And you know that Hula is a little like belly dancing. It is a lot of hip action with skirts that swing.

Dragon Boat Festival

2006-07-29T21:25:00.000-07:00

Well it was terribly hot today around 97. But since I am not working I want to be able to spend lots of time doing all of the things I miss when working weekends. So i wanted to go to the dragon boat festival. However my husband was feeling quite ill. So I decided to take my son and go anyway.

It was down in Lakewood at this park next to a lake of course. It was a free festival that is going on the whole weekend. It's free to see everything, but the cost of the food and the wares can be a little expensive. But I didn't have much cash, so I knew we would have to make the little amount of money work.

First thing I was lucky to find a relatively close parking space next to a house only 2 blocks away. But I think I was able to do that because we didn't get there till around 3:30. That was because I wanted to be cheap about the food, so we went to Mickey D's first and I let the kid play a little bit. I was a little prepared for the weather. I brought a couple of water bottles and D.'s hat and of course sunblock. But it was so I hot all I really wanted to do was get into air conditioning. But as long as we were in shade it wasn't too bad.

They had a stage all set up for different types of performances. The first ones we saw were of martial arts dances and some with swords. Then we went walking around to find the boats. They would only race 2 at a time. And it was kind of slow, so we walked around a bit. But the boats were beautiful. The different booths were giving some stuff away. We got a little motorized handheld fan for D. and a water bottle. Plus some cardboard fans. D. got to color his own dragon masks. And there was this yogurt stand and their mascot was a cow, so D. got a picture with him.

Later we got a little hungry, but mostly just hot. We wanted ice cream, but settled for a Hawaiian shaved ice and some potstickers. It was pretty good. After that I was getting tired and wanted to go home, but I heard some drumming from the stage. They were Taiko drums. It is this large group of people holding onto these huge thick wooden wands for these drums that were the size of a small table. It is a lot of fun to watch. After that was the Hula dancers. But there were men too doing dances that would prepare them for battle. The men would stomp their feet and slap their chests and knees. It was quite impressive especially since while they were dancing they were shaking the whole stage back and forth.

That is about it. These pics are examples and not from the acutal festival I went to. Sorry, but I don't have a digital camera.

Blessed Be.

2006-07-29T10:54:00.000-07:00

Well I have had a really busy couple of days. First on Thursday I decided to take D. downtown to the main library. But of course my husband had the car. So we took the bus all day long. We left rather early at 8:30 and didn't get home till after 5p.m. First we went to Storytime at the library. We sang songs too. He actually sit pretty still for most of story time too. Then after that they have craft time. D. made a macaroni person and a rock garden. His words, not mine. He decided on the picture too. But I helped him put the person together. He chose all of the different pasta and beans and what they were to be used for.

After that we went to get some quick lunch at McDonald's and on another bus to the mall playground. This one has giant food to play on. There are sausage, bacon, fried eggs, strawberries, bananas, and a bowl of cereal to play on. D. loved running around and playing with the kids. But we ended up having to leave because he kept hitting a little girl and wanting her to play a certain way on the sausages. He kept wanting to be Buzz Lightyear. But the little girl was having no part of it. So we left the mall and went shopping elsewhere.

At this point D. was pretty tuckered out. Thank the Goddess. We went to this really cool shop called Wizard's Chest. The outside of the building looks like a castle. And inside they have all kinds of board games and magic tricks and costumes and dragons and stuff like that. We easily spent at leat an hour or more there. We went upstairs and tried on all kinds of hats and wigs and costume stuff. D. dressed up like a skeleton pirate. He loved it.

Finally we went to have another meal at Village Inn and then we were on our way to catch another bus. But we only had 10 min till it got there. So even in the 95 degree heat I ran to catch the bus so we wouldn't have to wait another 30 min. Poor D. was so tired he just feel asleep in my lap on the bus. Unfortunately we had to transfer to another one that would take us pretty close to our house.

We get up to the park-n-ride and walk about a mile home. Thank goodness that there were a couple of little girls outside selling lemonade. We were really hot and thirsty. And for only a $1 we got two pretty big cups of the yummy stuff. A couple of blocks later we were home.

And now for Friday. I first got up early to finish cleaning up the main floor of the house. I put all of D's. toys away and vacuumed the living room, then I swept and mopped. And finally did the dishes. Then I had to get D and myself ready for the day. At around 10:30 a.m. one of my client's came over for a haircut. After that we got to lounge around the house a little. But when my husband came home we got ready to go to the mall playground by our house with the dinosaurs. By the time I got home I had a message from one of my friends that it was girls night out.

So of course I had to find something to wear and take a shower and get ready. There is a little more to tell, but it gets to be a little R rated. So bye for now.

Blessed Be.

My New Love

2006-07-22T22:10:00.000-07:00

Oh, how I am loving my new obsession. It is fun to dance and it works off a lot of the pounds (hopefully) as long as I stick with it. I went shopping today and bought a dvd of Veena and Neena, the twin belly dancers, Fitness for Beginners BellyDance. I already used it and it kicked my butt. But I was able to make it all the way through. And I learned new steps. But I already know that I need to get more dvd's or go to lessons.

Plus I went to the fabric store and looked for patterns for belly dance costumes and found a few. A few are very Indian. And the others are more like costumes, than clothes. But the differnce will be made with the fabric that I end up choosing. But it will be very expensive. Just for the dvd and the patterns was $40.

Then I went downtown and went to Herbs and Arts to see if they had books or hip scarves. They didn't, but they sent me down the street to a place that imports stuff from Nepal and Tibet. I saw a few things I liked, but I had D. with me and he was getting rowdy. So we had to leave. The cost of a hip scarf with the coins on it is around $40 and the same for a chain and coin belt. They had all kinds of accesories. So I can't wait to go back there.

Plus the Metaphysical fair is coming up in September at the Merchandise Mart. Or the one in October in Colorado Springs. There is always good stuff there. But it is usually too expensive, or I have a reason I can't buy it.

No more excuses. I am going to get myself a healthy hobby. I love to go dancing. And my husband used to go with me a little. And we always had a good time. But he is getting lazy about the whole thing. So I guess I will just do this one by myself.

And Jess, I would love it if you sent me the tapes you have. Or anything else that you have that would work that you don't want.

Of course here I am as I am typing this I am eating cookie dough. At least the workout will cancel out the calories I just ate.

Blessed Be.

2006-07-22T00:26:00.000-07:00

The dance is a poem, of which each movement is a word." - Mata Hari

Belly Dancing

2006-07-21T23:02:00.000-07:00

Well I don't really have a whole lot going on around here. But I was flipping channels and saw on the fitness channel instruction on how to belly dance. I have always loved the idea. I even had a couple of friends back in the day that used to do it. So I have been wanting to take a class. But I tend to be a little shy sometimes unless I have a group of friends with me. So I was thrilled to see it on t.v. I know there are videos out there to buy and stuff. But hey, this was free.

So anyway I watched for a little while and I actually decided to get off my ass and practice a little. And I am not half bad. If I practiced and learned a few steps I could actually do this. Now of course I want the costume to go with it. So I am a little obsessed with figuring out how I can make one myself. Maybe I will be a bellydancer for Halloween.

When my husband came home from work yesterday, I showed him a couple of the moves I learned. He was definitely turned on and I was just wearing p.j, pants and a tshirt. So I think I could get good at this. Now I will have to devote some time and effort into it. Of course right now I have all the time in the world.

Blessed Be.

Overwhelmed

2006-07-19T14:45:00.000-07:00

Well I am feeling pretty crappy right now. I have been making phone calls all day to all of the companies and creditors for my husband's medical bills. They total somewhere around $27,000. I have been filling out hardship papers from some of the hospitals and calling the other people to see if they will go off the hospital reccomendations or if they have their own paperwork. Some will go off of the individual hospitals. Others have already been sent to collections and will not help other than a payment plan. The probelm with that is we really don't have the money at all to pay these people. The only shining light is that only ONE company already wrote off $150 bill for us. Thank Goddess. So now it is a waiting game to see how much we can get our bills reduced. But I have already been crying today over the mess.

Yesterday I went to the party store to price and pick up birthday party supplies. The cost for everything including Chuck E. Cheese is around $200. I told my husband and he said no way. I know intellectually that he is pretty much right. But I want D. to have a good birthday. It is probably all in my own head. I want him to have good day and memory of his day. But in all likelihood, my husband and I will take him to Chuck E. Cheese alone. I feel bad for him because he doesn't have any friends. I want to get him involved with other kids more. But I can't afford a class to enroll him in and I don't have the transportation to get him there.

Of course these feelings of inadequecy aren't helped much by my pregnant friends either. I also went shopping for baby shower gifts yesterday. And when I was there looking at all of the baby clothes, I felt this awful feeling of dread that I have closed the door on the idea of having more children. I love kids and always wanted at least 2. But with my husband's medical history and our lack of financial stability it makes more sense not to have any more. But my head and my heart are having a hard time communicating.

I will be fine and I am just venting my frustrations. But I am kind of low right now.

Blessed Be.

Birthday stuff

2006-07-17T14:38:00.000-07:00

Well I guess things are going o.k. I am in the process of trying to figure out a birthday party for my son. He is going to be 3 in 3 weeks. And I was planning on having it at Chuck E. Cheese. It is not my favorite place, but it is relatively cheap and kind of close by, plus D. loves it there. He likes the rides and skee ball. He likes the show and the food. Kids are cute that way. My biggest problem is that he doesn't really have a lot of friends, plus his birthday is so close to back to school. So I am trying to plan it as best I can so that he can have some fun with a few kids. So far all of the dates I have chosen don't really work. I only have a list of 9 kids to invite, but a lot of parents won't be able to make it. Including, maybe my own husband. He might have to work on the only day that all of the kids could come. So what is a mother to do? If any of you have any ideas how to make this work let me know.

Blessed Be.

2006-07-12T21:31:00.000-07:00

Well hello out there. I haven't posted or even checked my site or email for a few days. I have actually been spending a lot of time in the real world. Amazing isn't it? But I felt like I needed to catch you up on my life. Plus I like having the journaling aspect of things.

So of course hipchick came for a visit last week. It was so nice to see her and her whole family. I miss them so much and loved hanging out with them. We went to the butterfly pavilion and to the botanical gardens while she was in town. We had a great time. My son, D. loved having "kids" "friends" and "guys" to play with. Since he is an only child he has to wait for my friends to come over with their kids. Thank Goddess that he is so agreeable and likes to play with everyone. Of course this can cause problems when some other kids don't want to play with him. It doesn't bother D, just the other kid.

Of course if you have been reading my blog over the last couple of months you know that my husband has a few issues. We have been working them out. But I have requested that he do most of the work. I wanted him to go to AA, couseling with a therapist every other week and a bipolar support group once a week. Plus he has to take his meds every day. And I thought things would be very smooth once he accomplished all of this stuff. Not so. Recovery and progress are slow. And my very good friend suggested for the millionth time that I start couseling as well. I have always said that I would relish the idea. That I truly want to go and work out my own shit. But I have been stubborn in thinking that most of the shit belonged to my husband. Now I know that is wrong. It is shared shit. We all have to deal with it. So for the first time I went to Al Anon. I liked it and shared a small part of my story.

Originally I was planning on going to yesterdays meeting. Then things have been going rather well with my husband. Even when he came home yesterday from work I liked being around him. But then I realized I am not only going to go to Al Anon for the bad days, but the good ones as well. And that very soon we will have a bad day. So I need to jump right in. It is run a lot like AA. You even get a first day chip with the serenity prayer on it. And I have to say that living day by day right now is a good way to go about things. It helps to think that I don't need to plan every part of my life out right now. I can just go with the flow and see if we can truly work out our stuff and become a loving family again. I hope so. Because even if we can't I still have to deal with my husband for the rest of my life because of our wonderful son. And I would still love my husband even if we weren't together because of some of his great qualities and I wouldn't want anything bad to happen to him.

Then there is my night life. I have been going out with my girlfriends a lot lately. We have been going to bars about 2 or 3 times a week. It has been kind of draining. We stay out too late. I stay out the latest since I am the designated driver and have to make sure everyone makes it home. But that is the price you pay for loving your friends. It is totally worth it. But maybe we need a bit of a break. I could use the extra sleep. Plus I got into a really big fight with one of my friends last night and I am not really happy about it. I really like this girl, but not some of the things she has been saying. She has just been too judgemental lately. But I am sure we will all get over it.

So be well and Blessed Be.